HMN C36
by berryChapter 36
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Should he ask where they were going? Chiwoo had said he had something to talk aboutâso it must be about last night, right? But what had even happened last night? Was it because he cried? What was there to even say about that?
âWhere⊠are we going?â
Without any context, his voice came out small and cautious. Did I mess up somehow yesterday? If it had been anyone else, he couldâve brushed it off shamelesslyâbut Go Chiwoo was the one who had seen him at his most pathetic, his most embarrassing moments. And there was a high chance that heâd seen it again.
âWelcome.â
The destination wasnât far. It was the cafĂ© directly across from his apartment building. It was early in the morning, and the place was empty enough that Daeyoung didnât have to worry about prying eyes. Still dazed, his mind half-floating from lack of sleep, he blinked around and quietly chose the corner seat. He mustâve looked out of it, because Chiwoo immediately stood to his feet.
Clack.
âDrink.â
A few moments later, a glass of tomato juice and a hangover drink were set in front of him. Judging from how Chiwoo disappeared for a bit after ordering, he mustâve run to the convenience store next door.
At this point, Daeyoung was honestly getting scared. Chiwoo being nice to him? That wasnât normal. If he was being considerate enough to buy something like this, then whatever had happened last night had to be really bad.
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Crack.
Without a word, Chiwoo reached across the table and twisted open the cap of the hangover drink, sliding it toward him. Pop. The seal broke with a small sound, so at least it didnât seem like poison. Daeyoung shot him a wary glance before gulping the liquid down.
âDrink the juice too.â
That curt, commanding tone made him quickly set down the empty bottle and stir his straw.
âHaaâŠâ
The tomato juice hit his stomach with surprising relief. Slowly, his head started to clear. Not entirelyâhe was still hungoverâbut at least his thoughts were functional now. Rubbing at his eyes with the heel of his hand, he exhaled, dropped his shoulders, and turned toward Chiwoo, who was still frowning like something about him was unsatisfactory.
âSo, seriouslyâwhat happened yesterday? Just tell me already. Thereâs nothing left to be embarrassed about with you anyway.â
He said it with false bravado, but his heart was still pounding. Ever since Chiwoo had shown up at his door, something in his expression had been off. Usually, he wore that detached, whatever faceâbut today, he looked⊠serious. Unusually so.
While Daeyoung fidgeted, tracing circles around his glass, Chiwooâs eyes dropped to those pale fingers.
âWhat are you going to do now?â
The sudden question was strange. Daeyoung frowned.
âWhat do you mean?â
âI fell for you.â
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His mouth clamped shut. The silence in the café was suffocating.
He slowly lifted his head and looked around, as if to confirm who the hell Chiwoo was talking to. But the cafĂ© was empty. Even the owner whoâd served them earlier had disappeared into the back.
So Daeyoung craned his neck upward, double-checking. Then, pointing at himself, he asked carefully,
ââŠMe? Youâre talking to me?â
âWho else would I be talking to?â
At that, Daeyoung looked around againâstill no one. Then the realization hit him like a slow-moving train. Heâs talking to me? He said he likes me? âŠHeâs seriously lost it, hasnât he? Daeyoung leaned forward slightly, brow furrowed.
âHey. Did I⊠do something stupid last night?â
Chiwooâs gaze locked on his face, on how close heâd leaned. His eyelashes were longâevolutionary advantage, maybe? But with how thin his skin looked, probably not. His eyes traced over the pale curve of Daeyoungâs cheek before he swallowed hard and leaned back.
âHypnosis.â
âWhat?â
âItâs because of the hypnosis. I fell for you because of it.â
Whoosh.
The heaterâs warm air brushed the back of Daeyoungâs neck. He blinked slowly, scanning the room again. Still, not a soul.
ââŠAre you sick or something?â
Sure, heâd been serious when heâd first suggested trying hypnosis, but that had turned out to be a complete failureâno effect, no result. It had just been a silly bet, nothing to lose. And afterward, when Chiwoo hadnât changed one bit, Daeyoung had concluded the whole thing was a bust. Yet the man now looked genuinely grave.
âI thought it didnât work!â
âIt worked as fuck.â
The bluntest, most matter-of-fact reply imaginable. Then he casually sipped his coffee. Daeyoung groaned, rubbing his face. His head already ached from the hangoverâdid Chiwoo have to add to it?
ââŠAnd why exactly do you think that?â
He decided to at least hear out the nonsense. Leaning back in his chair, arms crossed, Chiwoo replied without hesitation.
âSince that hypnosis, Iâve found you beautiful. Your eyesâround and pretty. Your noseâjust pretty. Your lipsâeven when youâre not drinking anything, theyâre soft and full. Iâd always thought your features were well-balanced before, but now itâs like⊠too subjective. Too personal. Donât you think?â
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The words came so fast that Daeyoung could only gape at him.
âYouââ
Is this guy out of his mind? Even as he stared in disbelief, Chiwoo continued, unstoppable, like a train with no brakes.
âLast night, I wanted to slap you. Your cheeks were so white and plump they looked like peaches, and I just wanted to crush them.â
âHey, heyâstop. What the hell is this, some new form of harassment? Is there a hidden camera here?â
âEven now, when you sit there with your mouth stupidly open like that, itâs cute. I like it. When you opened the door earlier in that stretched-out T-shirt, I got turned on. Because you were adorable. Justâbutton up in front of other guys, okay? Unless you want someone elseâs dick standing up.â
âHEY!â
BANG!
Face flaming red, Daeyoung shot to his feet. What had started as some bizarre confession had nosedived into sexual harassment territory. He glanced around frantically, lowering his voice once more.
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Chiwoo, however, said nothing. He just looked at him, quiet but intent.
Truthfully, he didnât understand it either. He couldnât process it. Heâd spent the entire night wrestling with himself, trying to make sense of these impossible feelings. But no matter how long he thought, it all pointed back to that momentâthe hypnosis.
Ever since then, the thoughts kept coming uninvited. When they worked together at the cafĂ©, his eyes would follow Daeyoungâs neck, his face, his hands. He couldnât stand seeing the guyâs scraped wrists, and when that friend of his showed up, or when photos of Daeyoung started circulating online after his haircut, the thought of other people judging him made his blood boil.
Then it must be love, his uncle had said once, and the image of that white door from the hypnosis session had cemented the idea.
Yesterday, for the first time, heâd had no words. Nothing he wanted to say, nothing he could. Heâd just kept watching Daeyoungâhis restless hands, his frustrated expression, the red flush spreading across his cheeks like overripe fruit.
Unlike Daeyoung, who clearly remembered nothing, Chiwoo remembered everything. Every word, every glance. Heâd even lost sleep replaying that face in his mind. If it wasnât hypnosis, then what else could it be?
Realizing now that Chiwoo wasnât joking, Daeyoungâs expression wavered. He downed the rest of his tomato juice in one go, ran his hand through his hair, then looked away toward the wall. A long silence. His throat bobbed once, twice, before he finally managed to speak.
âSo⊠youâre saying this is because of that hypnosis?â
It was a cautious questionâhis first ever confession, and it was from a man, one whoâd been his constant irritation. He was too stunned, too confused, too thrown to even form a proper sentence. Chiwoo took a sip of his iced Americano and tilted his head.
âIf itâs not that, why the hell else would I like you?â
ââŠWhat?â
After all that talk about being cute and beautiful and lovable, heâd still found a way to say something so damn rude. A rollercoasterâthis is a fucking rollercoaster. Daeyoung narrowed his eyes. Yeah, thatâs more like him.
As the heat faded from his cheeks, his thoughts started aligning again. And slowly, the logic clicked.
In any normal situation, Go Chiwoo liking him made no sense. Every time the guy had seen him, itâd been at his worstâcrying, stumbling, humiliating himself. And Chiwoo? He was popular. The kind of guy everyone whispered about, regardless of gender. There was no reasonânoneâfor him to like someone like Daeyoung. Unless it really was the hypnosis.
âHaaâŠâ
Thud.
He dropped his head onto the tableâbut instead of the cool wood, his forehead landed on something warm.
Chiwooâs hand. The man had slid it there just in time. His palm even smelled nice.
ââŠWhat the hell?â
âMy hand moved on its own.â
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âSee? I told you. This is a serious fucking problem.â
Blink. Blink.
Daeyoung slowly lifted his head again, staring blankly at him.
What the hell was he supposed to do with this guy? The world suddenly felt far, far away.