TTB C22
by berryChapter 22Â
19 âThis oneâI want him.â
Night, inside He Linâs home.
With no outsiders present and the atmosphere relatively relaxed, the timing finally felt right; He Lin rallied himself to talk about something serious. âYouâve been here a while nowâhow do you feel about the work?â
Li Shang seemed low in mood, but still answered cooperatively. âNot too busy, and solving a case is very fulfilling.â
He Lin considered, looked at Li seriously, and extended an olive branch. âYouâre very good at criminal investigation. The teamâs short-handed, and the hope is youâll stay.â
Li didnât answer that directly. Borrowing Fang Jueâs earlier topic, he asked, âThose two people Fang mentionedâwhy didnât you take them if the team is short-handed?â
The question caught He Lin off guardâhe hadnât expected Li to remember.
But since Li asked, an explanation felt necessary. âFor the most part, the reasons are what Old Wu saidâthey werenât a good fit. As for Fangâs nonsenseâthatâs all it is. Even short-handed, there are standards; not everyone fits. So yes, youâre highly regarded here, and the hope is that youâll seriously consider it.â
Li nodded, showing little expression. âThanks for the vote of confidence. Itâll be considered seriously.â
Sensing a chance, He Lin pressed on. âWhat about other aspects? Anything hard to adjust to? Getting along with everyone?â
âItâs good. Everyone is easy to work with,â Li said.
Only then did He Lin relaxâat least Li didnât reject the place. He added, âIf somethingâs off or frustrating, say so.â
Li weighed the intent behind those words and seemed to recognize the issue in himself. After some thought he explained, âIâve always been this wayâmore self-contained in life, not good at group socializing. But thereâs no complaint about colleagues. Everyoneâs good. Working with you⊠with the teamâitâs been good.â
He Lin noddedâhe could tell it was heartfelt. The truth was, that dinner earlier had shaken his confidence about keeping Li; now he could exhale.
Some people are, by nature, solitary. And someone like Liâexceptionalâwasnât failing to show his full ability for unknown reasons so much as giving the impression of not being outside the group, but above the ordinary.
He Lin found himself staring at Liâs clear brows and featuresâand realized he barely knew this newcomer at all.
A simple file couldnât capture the person standing before him.
Often, Li felt like a former leaderâcool-headed, decisive, efficientâignoring trivial people and things. It made him seem gentle, but really it was disinterest.
A line flashed in He Linâs mindâhe couldnât remember whoâd said it: âCattle and sheep herd together; wild beasts walk alone.â
Perhaps Li only looked mild on the surfaceâreally, a well-disguised predator, biding his time, dangerous and compellingâdrawing others in despite the risk.
With official business covered and mutual intentions clear, conversation lightened. They chatted idly.
It was the first time a colleague had visited, and He Lin introduced his collection.
They wandered the apartment. In a display case were badges and commendations from He Linâs special-operations days, plus weapons: short blades, longer sabers, tang-style knives, sleeve daggers, model firearms, and even a replica crossbowâlike a doomsday cache.
They found common groundâtalking at length once weapons were the topic.
He Lin hadnât expected Li to be so talkative after dinner. If only heâd been half as chatty earlier, He Lin wouldnât have spent the whole evening anxious.
In good spirits, Li pointed to one medal and asked.
That opened He Lin upâhe took all the medals out, set them on the coffee table, and introduced what he remembered. For four of them, no matter how he tried, he couldnât recall where theyâd come from.
A little lost and embarrassed, He Lin looked at Liâwords failing him.
Li was very calmâjust looking at him quietly. His voice gentled. âItâs alright. Take your time.â
Under the warm lighting, the clean, cool plane of Liâs profile seemed softer.
For a moment, a familiar, strange ache rushed He Linâs heartâhis pulse quickened, and his gaze on Li warmed, more eager than he noticed.
He Lin sank into the sofa, trying to steady himself. He had made peace with his amnesiaâremembering or not didnât have to matter. But under Liâs gaze, he found himself wanting to remember.
The alcohol rose; a dull pressure filled his head, a steady hum in his earsâthe old pain. It felt like walking into a stormâhe wanted to press on, but wind and rain blurred everything.
He battled the ache until, in self-defense, drowsiness swept in with the drink.
That nightâs memory ended there⊠a forced shutdown from overheating.
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He Lin lay still, eyes closed.
Li called his name a few timesâno response; the breathing was steadyâhe was asleep. Something quietly hoped for fell flat. Li collected himselfâhe hadnât counted on more. Just talking like this felt like enough.
Then came the next question: should he move He Lin to the bedroom?
The old him could have carried a two-hundred-pound training dummy up stairs. Now, he weighed the man, his own strengthâand the fallout of hauling a drunk across the floor.
Li lowered his head, thinking.
Drag? Carry on the back or over the shoulder? Or slap him awake and order him to crawl to bed?
He sighed.
Forget it.
No need to treat this heartless pup so well. No need to be that strict either.
It would be fine to let him sleep on the sofa.
He lifted He Linâs legs, fetched a pillow and blanket. He Lin let himself be handledâsleep deep and docile.
With He Lin settled, Li drew the curtains and left a single warm lamp on. Heâd meant to leave, but studying that quiet sleeping face made leaving hard. In the end, yearning won; Li sat and simply watched him.
The air went tender, even Liâs gaze turned to liquid warmth. It felt like two years ago, before it all happened.
But then He Linâs sleep turned restlessâbreath shallow, brow creasing, as if caught in a nightmare.
Li brushed a strand of hair from his brow and smoothed the frownâheart brimming with tenderness.
Then he heard He Lin murmur: âDamn it, Skull-faceâŠâ
Liâs hand stalled; his eyes went clear.
The moment shattered. It was like a hard shove into realityâfresh warmth hardened to a hundred blades, stabbing his chest.
The drop in his gut left him dazed. He staggered to his feet, dared not linger, and fledâas if running for his life.
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Light and shadow flickered; voices blurredâsomeone shouting hoarsely.
He Lin knew it was a dreamâbut couldnât wake. Something gripped his breath, trapping him until he lived it through again.
After failed attempts to break free, he went stillâthen the dream narrowed into clarityâŠ
âNext is a week-long âHell Weekâ selectionâremember our creed: âChallenge your limitsâsurpass yourselfâ!â
A bus swayed, packed with elite candidates from special police units.
Later, the bus became an open-top truck, then an off-road vehicleâpaved road to gravel to dirtâdeep into the mountains, away from the world.
Off the vehicleâan opening blow: ten kilometers under load. People in pursuit behind. Everyone ran to collapse, supplies exhausted.
Even among elites, the late arrivals were immediately cutânumbers dropped by a third.
At sunset, a stone-faced leader took a bullhorn for the final talk. âYouâre special-police eliteâyou know what special operations are for. Bomb disposal, counterterror, hostage rescueâeven missions abroad. We need all-rounders, the very best. This Hell Week will screen for them. After seven days, the top of you will become Tianning Base special operators. In seven days, Iâll come back to greet the victors.â
The selection had red-blue confrontation. They were Red. Blue acted as terroristsâpopping out to spray fire.
People âfellâ all around; a puff of smoke meant elimination. Almost daily, there were fights. Drones hovered above. Three or four hours of sleep per night at most.
There was curriculum: mountain treks, water crossings, ID-and-shoot, fast-roping, night pursuits, climbingâeverything with time limits, surprise tasks popping in.
âAttention all groupsâintel reports armed âterroristsâ breached our zoneâclear them.â
âUnknown armed forces on the western edgeâwatch for and clear âbooby trapsâ.â
âNew order: terrorists have taken four âhostagesâârescue by 1200 hours.â
The load was heavyâthe pack and weapon, plus an ammo canâhelmet pressing down.
He ran and ranâlungs a bellowsâsnatches of air in, shoved right back out.
Time and space smeared; the mind spun up. No mapsâterrain had to be learned and held in the head.
By the sixth day, only a tenth remained.
In the makeshift squad, buddies waved farewell. âYou guys leftâavenge us.â
A stalk of grass in his mouth, He Lin answered, âSoon.â
One day till the seventh.
Aside from him, a plump demolitions techâlooser physical cutoffsâhad hung on.
Another chase at nightâanother round of cat-and-mouse.
At rest, someone swore. âWho wrote this op plan? Not a momentâs restâtrying to kill us?â
âYeahâinsane. Previous selections werenât this brutal.â
âBet the brass call it âmeticulousâ and âscientific.â They sure havenât wasted terrain.â
The plump one tapped his black face cover. âKnow what this hatâs called?â
They all paused. They wore this gear as special policeâbut no one had ever asked.
With no reply, he answered himself. âBalaclava.â
It drew weary chuckles.
âBalabala fairy, more like,â someone groused.
He stayed serious. âI noticed differences in the Blue teamâs headgearâleaders wore full face covers. One with a skull maskâI saw him briefing the terrain. My guess? He wrote this exercise.â
âSon of aâ!â At last, a target for their misery. âAlrightâremember the skull face. If you spot himâbeat him. Revenge.â
The final op: smash Blueâs base as completely as possible.
He Linâs team, including the plump tech, was âwiped out.â He fought alone into Blue commandâfired till out of ammoâthen popped the tear-gas training grenade the tech had left him.
The tent filled with thick smoke; curses and coughs echoed. The stuff wasnât lethalâbut miserable.
The smoke thickenedâhe lost sense of directionâcoughing, eyes streaming. Then a hand grabbed himâhauled him out.
His rescuer tossed him five paces from the tent.
He lay on his back gulping airânever had it tasted so sweet.
Through the trees, the stars were clearâspinning, arcing like meteors.
In the haze, he saw the rescuer wearing a skull mask.
The man crouched down and met his gaze.
The skull covered his faceâonly deep eyes showed through the dark hollows.
A cool voice said, âThis oneâI want him.â