ITIEQ C89
by berryChapter 89 â Xiao Yuanzheng, Do You Want to Be With Me?
It had to be spokenâthis matter. The battle had settled for now, and indeed, it was time to lay things bare.
Xiao Yuanzheng led him along. Shen Qinghe held his tongue, intending to wait until they reached some quiet place before speaking. Yet the âquiet placeâ turned out to be the main command tent at the military center.
The curtain lifted. Several deputy generals were already assembled. As soon as they saw the sovereign, they rose and saluted in unison: âYour Majesty.â
âŠSo, no privacy after all.
âI was told you went to the Watchtower Pavilion. Since you were absent, I came to find you myself,â the Emperor explained before returning to the table, where the map lay spread. Red markers now engulfed the territory of âYunzhong Commandery.â
Councils followedâarrangements of troops and logistics. Shen Qinghe, disinterested in strategy, found a seat behind the Emperorâs main chair, yawned, and eventually dozed off.
The DragonâCavalry Army had its own routines. This meeting existed mostly for the Emperor to test the mettle of newlyâpromoted young captains. But when Xiao Yuanzheng glanced aside, what met his eyes was the youth halfâcollapsed on his arm, already asleep.
âThis will do.â The Emperor lowered his hand, voice gentler than usual. âTomorrow, we depart for the capital.â
The deputies filed out. Very quickly, only the two remained.
He stood a while at the table. The tent was sparse: twin banners with coiling dragons, the sovereignâs armor standing ready beneath them, gleaming coldly.
He ran a hand over the crimson tassel crowning the helmet, then walked to the only other chair. Towering shadow fell across the sleeper.
Shen Qingheâs long hair slipped loose, his robe plain; his pallor made the jut of his neck bones sharper, yet his slender frame still struck the eye like the poised sweep of a birdâs wing, like the arc of a bow fully drawn.
Such gazes in silence were hardly noble. But after a moment, the Emperor turned away.
Shen stirred, blearily opening his eyes to see the ferocious dragon of the banner above. Startled, he realized it was only the army standard.
Had he actually slept through it all? Meetings were truly made to hypnotize men.
Gradually awake, he thought of affairs already handled: Academy reopenings delegated, refugees in Huizhou resettled via Lady Pingyunâs new shipping, Qingbei doctors enrolled into the backup corps. Finally the strain eased, exhaustion crashed in. No wonder he had slept so soundly, even in a hard chair.
He gathered his limbs, cloak slipping down. Quick hands caught it. The faint scent of agarwood rose. Looking aroundâit seemed he was alone.
Left behind.
Turning the robe in his hands, Shen Qinghe muttered to the garment itself, âYouâve been hung on my shoulders so many times alreadyâwhy not stay?â
He bunched it and shook it open. The incense surged into the air, sharper than ever, as though the wearer stood before him.
All of it pricked at his heart.
Loveâhe had never thought much of it. Two livesâ worth of scrambling from the bottom upward left him room for nothing except the dream of a better life. Men, womenâhe had loved neither.
Now, much of that dream was realized. Perhaps it was time to consider something else. But on a blank page, the first stroke is always the hardest.
He sat silent awhile. Then snapped his fingers.
âTo be together with the Emperorânow that would be⊠exhilarating.â
He had his own rhythm, never following others. Rather than wait on fate, he strode into it.
So he stood and walked straight out to look for Xiao Yuanzhengâwithout asking for help, without a guide, simply searching.
The camp was vast, sprawling over half a dayâs march. But Shen was unhurried, even exchanging nods with familiar soldiers.
Fate, he decidedâif before sunset he should stumble on the man he soughtâ
âQinghe.â
The footsteps pounded behind him. His pulse skipped, quickened.
Turning, he found not the Emperor but Yaoguang, breathless with sweat.
âYouâwhy are you here? Did not His Majesty put you on MidâRidge Mountain to guard the central camp?â
âI couldnât sit idle!â Yaoguang grinned shamelessly. âSo I took thirty rodâstrokes at punishment, ran here anyway.â
âYouâre mad! Punished, then marched all this way only to collapse at our feet? Iâm fetching you a physician this instant.â
True to Shenâs suspicion, when examined, the bruises on his back were deep purple. The WestâNorth Army had cracked down without gentleness. Yaoguangâs claim of âmere soft tapsâ was nonsense.
Leaning at a post, Shen alternated between scolding and laughing. âCome here injured just to cling like baggage? If you canât walk, no one will care for you.â
âThen Iâll cling to you!â Yaoguang beamed, teeth flashing. âOur bondâs so closeâeven if you must carry me piggyâback to the capital!â
Shen answered only with a lazy, âWeâll see if I bother.â
Talking with Yaoguang delayed him. By then the sun had fallen, the sky smeared crimson. Once, he had avoided Xiao Yuanzheng. Now he sought himâyet obstacles came at every turn.
He thought it ironic. The wheel of fortune turned indeed.
As a yellowed leaf fluttered down, he caught it. Its twin curves formed a heart. He tucked it into his robe, choosing to view it as omen.
Deep into the night, at the Emperorâs own pavilion, Shen waited long enough to doze again before the flap lifted.
When one was Emperor, one was always busy. Moonlight curtained in, then fell away.
âTomorrow we march,â the sovereign spoke evenly. âWhat brings you here at midnight, Shen Qinghe?â His eyes drifted to the folded cloak waiting, then returned.
âIt is important.â In two steps Shen stood before him, meeting him eye to eye, appraising openly as if judging a man fit for choosing.
With such a gaze, bold as it was, Xiao Yuanzheng did not flinch. He bore it calmly.
âIââ
âYouââ
Both began, both paused.
The Emperor saved him: âYou slept this noon. Now you cannot?â Quiet, he shed his outer coat, candlelight tracing his unfathomable features, soft smile bidding Shen speak further.
Shen steadied himself, but instead of his own confession he spoke: âToday Lady Pingyun came to you. Her wordsâdo not dwell on them.â
The Emperor only asked calmly of âGongyang Ciââwhether Shen disliked him. Shen answered evasively.
Then he pressed further: âAnd what of my affairs? What of our affairs?â
Then, straight and simple:
âXiao Yuanzhengâdo you want to be with me?â
The Emperor froze, still at the soft screen. The look he cast was sharp, like a spearpoint.
Shen met him with a playful smile, eyes gleaming in the wavering firelight.
âDo you even know what you ask?â The Emperorâs voice sunk low, testing whether this was sincerity or reckless youth.
âOf course. I only wonder if Your Majestyâs meaning matches mine.â Shen was shorter, yet carried the blaze of steel none could ignore.
Silence ruled the tent. For the first time, Shen mastered the Emperor by demanding answer.
Male companionship was not unheard of in noble circles. Shen knew he was worthy. The real question wasâwhat would the sovereign admit?
At length, Xiao Yuanzheng gave a quiet âMn.â
âI had not thoughtâit would be you who said it first.â A sigh, then a softened laugh. He had meant to tend this seed long and patiently. He had not expected bloom so soon.
âIt is surprise. A glad one.â
Shen grinned, wicked now. âI meant to speak at sunsetâyet His Majesty was too busy. Made me wait until the second watch. For thatâcompensate me with a confession of your own.â
A teasing tug on the Emperorâs sleeve, pulling him close, nearly breath to breath.
âI admire you. But if you want to talk romanceâthenââ
The sandalwood fragrance swelled as Shen was suddenly turned, pressed back against the screen. Not harsh, but firm. His chin tilted upward, gently held.
A predator seizing preyâyet the touch was tender.
Shenâs pupils widened. And thenâ
A kiss. Light, fleetingâat the corner of his lips.
Footnotes
- Hu chair (èĄæ€ ): folding or reclining chair often found in military or nomad contexts, used in tents/camps.
- Thirty rodâstrokes: In the WestâNorth Army, military discipline meant rod punishment, literally strokes of the heavy staff, endured to prove obedience or pay for infractions.
- âSecond watchâ (äșæŽ): traditional Chinese timekeeping, indicating roughly 9â11 p.m.