TCBW C90
by berryChapter 90
ââŠPerhapsâŠâ
Suhoeâs complexion turned pale as he cautiously gave voice to his suspicion about the space and the being that resided within it.
âAre you⊠a god?â
His voice trembled; the words carried both awe and unease.
ââŠâŠâ
No reply came. Only silence, stretching long enough to make the question feel small and absurd.
Thenâwithout warningâlaughter erupted from everywhere at once.
It rang through the air, loud enough to make his ears ache, echoing from no single direction.
And in that instant, Suhoe knew.
This placeâthis presenceâwas no ordinary one.
He hadnât had many chances to face a god directly, and never before in a dream.
Yet somehow, in this strange, weightless realm, instinct told him exactly what kind of being he was standing before.
And that instinctâhe realizedâhe owed to Unhyo.
âYou dreamed of a small child playing with a ball?â
âYes. A very young child playing all alone. But then a man comes and keeps taking the ball away.â
It was because, long ago, as a child, he had confessed to Unhyo about the strange dreams he had that he even understood what this could mean now.
He could still remember the expression Unhyo wore back thenâso serious, so grave.
It was a look no one would expect from an adult listening to the ramblings of a five-year-old.
âYoung Master,â Unhyo had said, gently taking his small hand, âhas anyone else heard about these dreams?â
âNo⊠not yet.â
âNot even Lady Gaegeum?â
âNo.â
âThatâs good. From now on, letâs keep it between us.â
âHuh? Why?â
âYou may be an exorcistâs ward, but you wonât remain one forever. And these dreams you haveâtheyâre⊠unusual. If Lady Gaegeum or any of the other servants were to find outâŠâ
Unhyo had paused, hisi voice softening, then firmed with quiet conviction.
âYou might end up living as a servant here for the rest of your life.â
âWhatâs wrong with that? I like it here.â
âNo, Young Master. That must not happen.â
Suhoeâs bright little eyes had dimmed at the firmness of his tone.
âThen that timeâbefore the new servant arrivedâyou predicted what sheâd look like because of that dream too, didnât you?â
He had nodded, proud and excited.
Unhyo had sighed deeply.
âFrom now on, only tell me about those dreams. No one else, understand?â
âButââ
âYoung Master, this is important. Truly. You werenât meant to see or hear such things⊠but because youâve lived so long on Mount Unbang, your dreams are beginning to open.â
âMy dreams⊠are opening?â
âYes. Dreams are another kind of space. When a heart is sincereâwhen something must be conveyedâcertain people can cross between worlds through dreams. For example, taemongâthose prophetic dreams of birthâare just that. The unborn crossing time and space to reveal themselves to their parents or guardians.â
At the time, he hadnât fully understood.
Heâd only vaguely wondered if his wishâto be with the servants he lovedâhad somehow granted him this strange ability.
But Unhyo had always feared for him.
He never wanted the child he cherished like a younger brother to be trapped by both the burden of his lineage and the curse of his gift.
âThe dreams you see every night⊠they might be someoneâs memories. You said the clothes, the scenery, all looked ancientâthatâs why. And the ones you have only occasionallyâthose are premonitions. The future, perhaps yours or someone elseâs.â
He had even explained to him in detail.
âThen how can I tell if itâs a dream like the taemong ones, where someone crosses over?â
âYouâll feel it,â Unhyo had answered. âSuch dreams are rare. Only the purest souls can cross that threshold. Usually, theyâre children yet unborn⊠or gods.â
Gods.
The memory of that sacred word struck him now with the weight of realization.
It fit.
A tremor of reverence and fear ran through him.
Facing the unseen expanse, Suhoe whispered into the dark:
âThen⊠which god are you?â
ââŠâŠâ
âWho are youâto summon me to a place like this?â
The laughter stilled.
For a long moment, there was only silence. Then, a voiceâlow and resonantârolled through the darkness.
âYou have guessed my nature. A reward, then, is in order.â
It was a voice that no human throat could have formedâmajestic, echoing as though a hundred voices spoke in perfect unison, from every direction at once.
But it wasnât the same voice that had told him to hide the child.
Suhoe lifted his head.
âAh⊠I would like to ask the one who spoke before. Why did they say such a thing?â
He ignored the mention of a âreward.â His thoughts were consumed by the words about the child.
But the god gave no reply.
Instead, from somewhere before him came a soft whuffâand something fell from the air.
Suhoeâs instincts moved before thought. He caught it in his arms.
When he looked down at what he was holding, he froze.
âWhyâwhy are you here?â
ââŠHey.â
A searing white light spilled down from above.
ââŠWake up.â
The familiar voice pulled him out of the blinding haze.
âHhâ!â
Suhoe gasped, drenched in cold sweat. The light vanished abruptly, and he realized he was awakeâback in the real world.
Dowoon was in front of him, calling his name.
But Suhoeâs arms were wrapped tightly around himselfâas though he were still cradling someone.
No, not âas though.â
He had been holding someone, hadnât he?
âWh⊠whatâŠâ
The sensation lingeredâwarmth, weight, the trace of something that had been real only moments ago.
âSnap out of it,â Dowoon said sharply.
It was strange. After someoneâor somethingâhad fallen into his arms, his memory blurred completely.
Only the swell of emotion remained, heavy and raw in his chest.
âDowoon.â
ââŠSomethingâs wrong here,â Dowoon muttered, scanning the room. âEven now, I can feel it.â
âDowoon.â
The ache in Suhoeâs throat rose, pressing against his heart, burning behind his eyesâa wild, aching longing that made it hard to breathe.
âI need to tell you something,â he said suddenly.
ââŠâŠ.â
âRight now.â
âCalm down first.â
Dowoon gripped his shoulders, trying to steady him, letting a faint trace of pheromones leak into the air to soothe him.
âIâI like you.â
The words dropped between them like a spark.
Dowoon froze.
He forgot everythingâthe strange disturbance, the dream, the questions heâd meant to ask.
Suhoe was looking straight at him, trembling, flushed, but utterly unflinching. His eyes shone with a clarity that left no room for doubt.
Dowoon swore under his breath. Then, as though unable to stop himself, he reached out, cupping Suhoeâs pale cheek with one large hand.
He kissed himâquick, restrained, almost hesitant, like a man afraid the moment might shatter.
But he didnât stop at one.
He pressed his lips to Suhoeâs again, and again, slow and deliberate, each touch breathing life into the next.
His gaze never left Suhoeâs, as if engraving his reflection there.
ââŠI have a lot to say, but firstâthis isnât a dream.â
âI know.â
âIf itâs because of some dream you hadâif youâre confusing me with someone elseââ
âNo. Itâs not like that.â
The words he wanted to sayâIf I donât tell you now, I never willâcaught in his throat.
So instead, Suhoe simply reached for him.
As though reuniting with someone heâd lost long ago, he buried himself in Dowoonâs arms, whispering his name between breathless kisses.
âDowoon. Dowoon.â
Dowoon held him close, his breath rough against Suhoeâs hair.
ââŠForget what you said earlier,â he murmured, voice low. âWeâre not just sleeping tonight.â
Suhoe didnât answer. He only kissed him deeper.
And Dowoonâgiving in entirelyâlifted him, laying him gently onto the bed.
Neither could tell who moved first. The world seemed to dissolve, leaving only warmth, breath, and the sound of hearts unraveling.
The doubts, the fears, the weight of deceptionâall faded into silence.
For that one night, nothing else mattered.
The smell of cooked food drifted through the air, stirring Suhoe from sleep.
He blinked, shifting slightlyâonly to feel a heavy arm locked around his waist and the solid heat of a body pressed against his back.
He froze. Then, slowly, he turned his head.
Dowoon lay beside him, fast asleep.
The sharpness that usually guarded his face was gone. His lips were slightly parted, his breathing steady.
It was a rare, tranquil sightâso peaceful that Suhoe almost feared to move, lest he break it.