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    Chapter 92(18+)

    He planted both hands on the desk Jaeha had sat on in a daze. His hands landed right next to Jaeha’s thighs, and although Jaeha instinctively pulled his legs together, the man was already so close that he couldn’t fully close them.

    “I’m bothering you, aren’t I.”

    “

”

    Yes, Jaeha was bothered by Aiden. Could it be only that? But even so, he couldn’t easily accept the man’s confession. Rationally, and objectively speaking, there was no reason not to accept it. And yet


    Yeah. He didn’t want to date him.

    It was because, on some instinctive level, he knew.

    That man
 about him


    “
Alright.”

    Really. Could someone like that truly be in love?

    His gaze seemed sincere, his tone carried genuine tenderness—but everything about it was too smooth, too perfect, so much so that it felt off. 
Could the emotion of loving someone really look so calculated?

    Rather than genuinely liking him
 what if he only “needed” him in order to get to the CEO? That thought left Jaeha feeling stifled, sad, and scared all at once.

    Upon hearing his response, Aiden smiled pleasantly and slowly leaned his body back. But instead of the joy or excitement of someone whose confession had just been accepted, his expression held the satisfaction of a planner whose scheme was going exactly as intended.

    Jaeha carefully wrapped his arms around Aiden’s shoulders and pulled him in.

    “L-let’s have sex.”

    “
Ha.”

    A small crack appeared in Aiden’s otherwise satisfied expression.

    [So that’s how you’re going to play this
.]

    Setting aside the fact that even he was a bit deflated by the moodless proposition, it was obvious that Aiden’s mood had taken a hit after the repeated rejections. His lips curled up crookedly as he leaned in again.

    “Alright.”

    He came close—so close their noses almost touched—and kissed him slowly and teasingly.

    “Let’s see how far this goes, shall we?”

    “

”

    “Let’s see who comes out the other side.”

    His voice was gentle, but the way he seemed to grit his teeth as he spoke made Jaeha wonder if he’d only imagined that edge of force.

    There were currently four places that seemed suspicious: the study, two storage rooms, and a small bar.

    The vague conversation they had just finished had taken place in the study, so it was only natural that their act had started there as well.

    “Haah
”

    Their lips met hastily, with a sharp smack that made his lip sting. His brows furrowed, but his vision, blurred from the closeness, caught the intensity of Aiden’s stare. He shut his eyes tightly. It had begun as an act of defiance, and even if he could go back, he would have probably said the same thing in a moment of anger. But now, a wave of guilt made his stomach churn.

    He didn’t understand himself.

    Why had he rejected him?

    One thing was clear: this time, unlike the last rejection, it wasn’t for Aiden’s sake. It was purely
 for his own feelings.

    It didn’t matter whether or not he liked Aiden. Just the fact that Aiden showed interest in him should’ve been more than enough. He couldn’t understand why someone like Aiden would pretend to love someone like him, someone so undeserving—but fitting into that role wasn’t particularly hard. Even if Aiden didn’t love him, he
 he certainly—

    “Don’t get lost in thought.”

    “Mmph
!”

    It was at that moment. While sitting on the desk, clinging to Aiden’s body, Aiden, who was standing between his legs, suddenly gripped his thigh hard enough to cause pain. Unfortunately, it was the same thigh pressed against his groin, so Jaeha jolted and ended up biting his lip.

    “S-sorry
”

    “Wow, you really are thinking of something else while we’re fucking
 Cheating on me, are you?”

    “No!”

    Jaeha raised his voice reflexively, and Aiden let out a laugh as if joking—but beneath it, Jaeha could sense the lingering anger hadn’t faded. Closing his mouth again, he cautiously observed Aiden’s expression.

    [This is so fucking annoying. What’s the point of hiding anything now? He’s probably reading me anyway. Fuck.]

    Aiden’s thoughts were tangled and difficult to read. Unlike before, it was like he was thinking several things at once—layer upon layer of overlapping voices, impossible to separate.

    [Why is he rejecting me? Why? Why? Why? Why? You like me, don’t you? You can hear me, can’t you? You like me. You love me. You love me. You think I don’t know? Are you testing how far you can go just because you’re a little cute? Fuck, it’s disgusting how pretty you are. Song Jaeha. Can you hear me? Song Jaeha, Song Jaeha, Song Jaeha, Song Jaeha, Song Jaeha, Song Jaeha.]

    But what Jaeha managed to pull from that chaos were only chilling fragments, and his body stiffened in fear. He was scared. How did he end up falling in love with someone like this?

    “A-Aiden
”

    No matter what was going on inside, his exterior remained pristine. Despite the pit of darkness that clearly lay beneath, he was tidy, lovely, sorrowful, and beautiful. He knew exactly how to use his face.

    “Jaeha~”

    He spoke in a cutesy voice, pretending not to know, even though they both saw right through each other. Just like actors stepping onto the same stage, Aiden tilted his head. A sliver of moonlight slipped in beside his face, backlit by dim light. His lashes sparkled, and his silky hair brushed against his forehead.

    If he didn’t have these abilities, Jaeha probably would’ve been fooled by that appearance. Eaten whole by that snake’s mouth


    [No matter what you do, I’m the one who wins.]

    Jaeha swallowed hard. Inside that snake, he sensed slight irritation, confusion, absurdity at losing control of the situation, and


    “I’ve been thinking.”

    [Ah, but
]

    “I think I’ve been too cruel to you until now.”

    [I’m gonna cum.]

    It was lust.

    A shiver ran down his spine.

    “Aiden, it’s not like that
”

    Aiden knelt in front of him, who was still ambiguously perched on the desk, and Jaeha’s gaze naturally dropped. Aiden, who had placed his hand on Jaeha’s thigh, began softly scratching at it with the tips of his fingers. Because his penis was tucked in, the pressure made him clench his teeth. He’d been hard for a while now, ever since they kissed, but the thought of reacting further from just this touch was far too embarrassing.

    “–Is it because you’re bitter about never having used your cock?”

    “W-what? I-I never thought—”

    “Want me to let you fuck me?”

    “What?”

    He couldn’t follow Aiden’s line of conversation. Let him fuck? Aiden? When Jaeha’s mouth fell open in shock, Aiden grinned mischievously, eyes crinkling like a fox. That one spoonful of mischief added to his usually sorrowful aura.

    “You really must’ve wanted to try, huh?”

    “Stop joking around
”

    “I’m serious.”

    They’d never fought over position before, nor did Jaeha have any intention to—but Aiden seemed to genuinely believe that was why he’d been rejected. And as he spoke, some of the frustration pent up in his chest seemed to ease.

    He gripped Jaeha’s thigh tightly. Jaeha winced from the pain, which made Aiden chuckle. Then, naturally, he began to unfasten Jaeha’s pants. Ziiip—the zipper came down.

    [Should I just make him a fucking onahole or something
]

    “I’ve never even tried with espers because they disgust me.”

    That was when Jaeha realized what Aiden was planning to do. Alarmed, he tried to raise his legs and push him away, but Aiden was faster. Having already unzipped his pants, he grabbed hold of Jaeha’s half-erect cock.

    “Ugh
!”

    “Yours is so pretty, Jaeha. I think I can handle it.”

    “G-go easy, it—it hurts
!”

    It was hard to tell if there was any emotion in his grip, but the pressure was intense. With Aiden’s pretty face right in front of his penis, Jaeha felt like someone had struck him on the back of the head.

    So
 now Aiden was


    “I’ll let you fuck my mouth.”

    “T-that’s disgusting!”

    Suck it?

    Whether Jaeha rejected him, pushed him away timidly—none of it mattered. Aiden did as he pleased. He stuck out his tongue and started licking the tip.

    “Hngh
!”

    Slurp.

    Holding the base of Jaeha’s cock in one hand and shaking it lightly, Aiden tilted his head and slowly sucked down the shaft. His expression was clean, completely devoid of embarrassment or discomfort, watching only Jaeha’s reactions.

    “A-Aiden, t-that
 it tickles
”

    Up until now, he’d been a virgin, even before sleeping with Aiden. He had never put his cock in someone’s mouth. The moist heat, the warm breath—it sent chills all the way to his toes. His curled toes pressed tight inside his shoes.

    “You’ve got such a pretty cock
 What a waste. I can’t let anyone else have it.”

    “Stop, stop
”

    “We haven’t even started. Don’t be such a baby.”

    Aiden giggled. Jaeha’s vision spun. Aiden stuck out his tongue and pressed down along the veins like he was squashing a worm. He spread his saliva all over and then opened his mouth wide to take in the tip.

    “
!”

    Jaeha unconsciously reached out and placed a hand on his head. He hadn’t even pushed it in deeply. Aiden had merely taken the tip into his mouth and teased the slit with his tongue, yet the hot, tight wetness was dizzying and terrifying.

    Chup, chuuup, smooch
 The part of the shaft that didn’t fit in his mouth, Aiden stroked with his hand. Pulling his head back, then leaning in again—watching him suck it in was surreal. It still didn’t feel real.

    “Ah, ah, nnngh
”

    To Jaeha, sex had always meant the chaotic pounding of his prostate from behind. But now, with only his front being stimulated like this, he wanted to cry. The funny thing was, he even vaguely felt a little empty down there. Though that thought was fleeting—between fear, pain, and pleasure, he was far too weak. He didn’t even try to suppress the moans spilling from his lips.

    “
What the hell.”

    Aiden’s cheeks puffed up like a squirrel’s, and his throat bobbed. Jaeha hadn’t shoved it in or thrust into his throat, but the motion looked like he had just swallowed something. Aiden slowly pulled off his cock. He looked slightly dumbfounded. A bit amused. And the anger that had been simmering in him seemed to have significantly eased.

    Why?

    “Was it really that good?”

    “

”

    Aiden opened his mouth. Seeing the pale, milky residue still left inside made Jaeha’s face flush hot with embarrassment.

    When did I even cum?

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