BW C28
by berryChapter 28
ââŠIs it morning?â
âYes.â
ââŠâ
Hoeun was taken aback by the cookâs answer. He had slept straight through the night. Then what about Taemuk? He hadnât done the âworkâ that had to be done every night. That was his only use.
âWhere is the General?â
âOutside. Shikgoe swarmed all night and gave everyone a hard time.â
âM-mansters?â
Hoeunâs eyes nearly popped. Monstersâhe hadnât known at all. He shuddered at himself for sleeping dead to the world without even noticing the uproar. It had been shameful enough to hide in a crevice at the stream; now he had slept soundly under a pitched tent.
What now. How to apologize. How to make amends.
âI should go outââ
Throwing off the bedding, Hoeun moved to push himself up, but the cook stopped him.
âAhâno. Gilsang said you must stay here.â
âButâŠâ
âPlease have this.â
The cook offered a wooden bowl. Inside, a black liquid rippled. Hoeun stared down, wondering what it was.
âDecoction.â
ââŠA decoction?â
âYes. Medicine. For a fever.â
âWhere did this come fromâŠâ
Hoeun tilted his head. How had they procured a decoction here on a mountainside? Could it beâperhapsâTaemuk, worried for himâhe was thinking just that whenâ
âIt was in your baggage. Gilsang said to bring it down for you.â
âIn my baggage?â
âYes. It said medicine for fever; someone wrote out exactly how to decoct it, how to take it, when to take itâevery step.â
ââŠâ
At once, expression washed from Hoeunâs face.
It was his parents.
His father and mother.
He realized it had been a long time since heâd thought of them; there had been no room, what with monsters and Taemuk.
Suddenly the longing bit deep. Being sick made it worse. He had been sick all his life, but never alone. Mother was always thereâor Fatherâholding his hand, worrying, whispering he would be all right.
At the memory, his nose stung at once; tears rose in a heartbeat. The cook looked startled at Hoeunâs trembling.
âA-are you crying? Are you that sick?â
âNo. Noâ not crying.â
Sniffling, he swallowed the tears and dabbed them away with his sleeve. Then he took the decoction in both hands.
âThank you. Iâll drink it well.â
Hoeun gulped down the black liquid at once. The bitter taste sliding down his throat was so familiar. The cook, watching, stretched his lips sideways and groaned, ugh.
âYou take that bitter stuff so easilyâŠâ
âHave you had decoction?â
It was a thoughtless question. The cookâs shoulders jerked, his fingers fidgeted, and he mumbled with his head lowered.
ââŠTasted it when I brought it down. Not muchâjust a dab on the pinkie. Just a little. A little.â
âDid you?â
âT-to check if it was spoiledâŠâ
âI see.â
âNo, truth isâI w-was curious⊠âCause it was for you, I thought it must be precious and maybe tasty⊠Iâm sorryâŠâ
âItâs fine. But it really is awful, isnât it? Iâm used to it, so Iâm all right. Iâve had more of this than meals.â
Hoeun answered with a small smile, then drained the rest without leaving a drop. Strangely, he already felt strength returningânot from the medicine, but from the thought of his parentsâ worry and love.
When he set the bowl down, the cook took it and stood.
âThen Iâll go out now.â
At that, Hoeun grabbed his sleeve with a startled face.
âDonât go out. They said monsters came.â
Whether the cook was a Military God or a guide, he was likely a guide, being a cookâand younger than Hoeun. What if he went out and was hurt? What if he lost his life? If there was a need for someone to fight, it should be Hoeun, not him, who went.
But the cook said blandly,
âOh, the Shikgoe were all killed around dawn. Everyoneâs getting ready to leave now.â
âAhâŠâ
Hoeun let go of his sleeve. The cook looked at him with an unreadable expression. Embarrassed under that gaze, Hoeun changed the subject.
âWhatâs your name?â
âUh⊠Chilbok.â
âChilbok?â
âYes. Seventh child, so Chilbok. Ilbok, Iibok, Sambok⊠then Chilbok.â
âAhâŠâ
Hoeun nodded as if he understood, then smiled at himâno, at Chilbok.
âA lovely name. Thank you for the decoction, Chilbok.â
ââŠâ
At the sudden thanks, Chilbok tucked his chin in, pursed his lips, his cheeks flushing red; his grip whitened on the wooden bowl.
âWh-whatâth-thereâs nothing to thank me forâŠâ
âNo, trulyâthank you.â
ââŠWhatâs your name, young master?â
âMe? Iâm Hoeun. Choi Hoeun.â
âYoung master HoeunâŠâ
Chilbok repeated the name.
âChilbokâŠâ
Hoeun repeated his in turn. It was the second name he had learned in Jeokudae, after Gilsangâs. Ahâthere was Taemuk, tooâso it was the third.
Unthinkingly calling Taemuk to mind, Hoeun licked his lips; the characteristic bitterness of decoction lingered.
âChilbok.â
âYes?â
âDo you think⊠the General⊠is angry?â
âWhy?â
âBecause Iâm sick.â
âWhy would the Captain be angry because youâre sick?â
âBecause, umâI, umâŠâ
Because he had been a bother.
Hoeun couldnât say it. It was too miserable to admit. Everyone knew it; there was no need to be ashamed nowâbut still, the words wouldnât come.
But Chilbok rubbed his nose on the back of his hand and said, matter-of-fact,
âThere are sick people everywhere here. Our Captain doesnât get angry over that.â
ââŠReally?â
âYes.â
Chilbok nodded with certainty. But Hoeunâs unease didnât lift. The way Taemuk treated other soldiers and the way he treated Hoeun were quite different. Then Chilbok added something strange.
âThanks to it, he got to stick to you all day, so it was good, actually.â
âWhat do you mean?â
Hoeun tilted his head. If he was sticking close, wouldnât it be a botherâunpleasant? Taemuk had seemed so. It certainly hadnât looked like anything one could call âgood.â
âHe got to be stuck to his own guide. What Military God dislikes his guide?â
ââŠâ
âWhatever the Military God, he canât turn away when his guide clings.â
ââŠâ
âEven our Captainâhe canât help it with his guide.â
Chilbok spoke firmly. Hoeun only looked at him.
âFate isnât called fate for nothing.â
Saying that, Chilbok stood to go wash dishes. He bowed from the waist and left the tent. Hoeun stared at the flap as it fluttered, mulling over what Chilbok had said.
âCling⊠close?â
He recalled nights spent with Taemuk. Come to think of it, the day before last, he had been crushed in an embrace while they kissed; even the first time he had used his mouth, Taemuk had pulled his arm to make him hold his waist.
Whatever the exact reasonâhe must have wanted to, so he did. Perhaps without knowing it himselfâunthinkingly. Or by instinct.
âMmâŠâ
Perhaps, as long as Taemuk was his Military God, he could not dislike Hoeun. They were fate. How could one dislike fate? Such a thing had never been heard.
âCling close,â he murmuredâŠ
After thinking for a long while, a small light seemed to land in Hoeunâs eyes.
He straightened his attire and tied his ribboned hair tight, then stepped out of the tentâand at once had to sigh.
âAhâŠâ
Monster corpses lay everywhere. Some hung from trees; some were hewn in half; some were crushed by rocks; in any case, it was a wreck. Thankfully, there were no human corpses in sight.
ââŠâ
Hoeun looked back at Taemukâs tent, which he had just left. It was splashed with blood, but stood intact, straight and tall. For such a bloodbath to have raged and that tent alone to stand untouchedâit was strange. No wonder he had slept like the dead.
Sniffling at the fishy tang, Hoeun picked his way through the bodies. His shoes were soon soaked with the bloody water pooled between the grass.
Watching his step to avoid treading on corpses, he noticed suddenly that the monsters were somewhat smaller. The ones he had seen at the stream had been house-sized; those before him now were bigger than Hoeun but smaller than Taemuk. Their helmet shapes, too, were simpler.
Later, he would hear from Gilsang that monsters differed in appearance from troupe to troupeâlike how humans had Easterners and Westerners.
Thankfully, the ones that had charged last night were neither so strong nor so clever; only their numbers had made it a troublesome fight; in any case, no one was gravely wounded.
ââŠâ
As he walked with care, a monster with its helmet torn off, dead in grotesque fashion, caught on his toe. So far as he knew, only one person in the world killed monsters like that.
Taemuk.
Hoeunâs head jerked up and he glanced around. Not far away, soldiers were readying to depart; at their head was Taemukâmounted, a cigarette at his lips, studying a map with another soldier.