Divorce Contract C76
by berryAfter theyâd eaten most of the meal, it was fruit time. Shin Eunsuk peeled apples and pears with quick, practiced hands, slipping each soft slice straight into Go Igyeolâs mouth.
âIf youâre full, stop eating, alright? Forcing it will only upset your stomach. I also brought plum syrupâwant me to mix some for you?â
âIâm fine. I donât feel sick.â
âItâs not for when you feel sick. Itâs so you donât feel sick later.â
ââŠThen Iâll drink it.â
He swallowed a piece of apple and nodded. Eunsuk mixed the plum syrup in lukewarm water and handed it to him. He finished it in a few gulps, letting out a relieved breath as he leaned back.
Meanwhile, she tugged off his thin hospital socks and pulled thick wool ones over his anklesâsoft, warm, halfway up his calves.
âItâs warm.â
âWhen you hold the baby later, remember to wear the wrist brace. Your wrists wonât survive otherwise.â
ââŠHe looked so tiny and lightâŠâ
âDonât be fooled. Babies are deceptively heavy. People warn you for a reason.â
Igyeol nodded like he was memorizing every word. Eunsuk placed a roll of bandage on the table, wondering if she could make him eat a bit more, but his bright eyes were already drooping.
For the first time in forever, Igyeol felt the warmth of being full. No matter how hot they kept the ward, it had always felt coldâuntil now.
âMy poor boyâs getting sleepy.â
ââŠDonât go.â
âIf I leave, youâll feel lonely, wonât you?â
ââŠItâll make me sad.â
His soft voice was soaked in fear. She straightened the messy table and adjusted the bed, but kept holding his hand. His thin fingers loosely held onto hers, and she didnât want to let go either.
âYour ears⊠theyâre in terrible shape.â
Clicking her tongue, she removed the gauze and gently fanned the damaged skin. The sight made her stomach twist. Half of her wanted to drag Seo Dohyeon over and scream at him immediately.
The other half thought she should waitâwait until Igyeol was ready to talk. If he didnât want to say it, why hear it from someone else?
âHu, hu.â
She took his hand, opened his palm, and blew gently over the bandaged wound. Even tiny gestures like that helped.
âWhat horrible things have you been through, my childâŠâ
Seeing him so thinâafter all the meals she used to make him finishâher eyes burned. She tucked the blanket around him tightly and silently wished a lightning bolt would drop straight onto Seo Dohyeonâs head.
That night, Igyeol woke again and again, each time checking to make sure Eunsuk was still on the guardianâs bed. She promised she wouldnât leaveâbut fear didnât care about promises.
He shared his leftover meal with her. She helped him wash up, treated the raw skin around his ears from tossing and turning, cleaned and dressed the wounds. She worked like someone whoâd been doing this for years.
Dohyeon, clumsy and awkward with the gauze, got pushed aside instantly.
âThe gauze is to stop him from touching the wounds.â
âI would prefer if you stayed outside when Iâm here. Itâs uncomfortable. And what kind of man drags computers and paperwork into a sickroom? Itâs chaos.â
âIgyeol, your mealsââ
âWe ate just fine. Donât worry.â
Eunsukâs rejection of him was absolute.
And beside her, Igyeolâs head finally felt quiet. She was like a fortressânothing Dohyeon said or did could reach him while she was there.
He clung to her clothes like letting go would cause the world to collapse.
âI want to walk a little. Isnât there a garden here?â
âThereâs an outdoor garden on the next floor up. You can go.â
Dohyeon answered instantly, still packing his papers into a briefcase. Eunsuk ignored him, pulled a cardigan from the wardrobe, and helped Igyeol into it.
âThe weatherâs good. The rain stopped. Letâs get some fresh air.â
ââŠWeâre allowed to go outside?â
His voice was so soft, but Dohyeon still heard. He looked up, watching them.
It was trueâsince Eunsuk came, Igyeol had improved. But he still couldnât look at Dohyeon.
âGo. Just⊠donât stay out too long.â
The concern was followed by a muttered, petty comment under his breath. Eunsuk clicked her tongue sharply.
âAs if we donât know how to take care of ourselves.â
Dohyeon said nothing. Eunsuk wrapped a handkerchief around Igyeolâs neck.
âBut⊠what month is it now?â
ââŠâŠâ
His sudden panic made her grab his trembling hand immediately. She turned to Dohyeon with a glare that could kill.
Avoiding her eyes, he told Igyeol it was Septemberâand that heâd been in the hospital almost four weeks.
ââŠSeptember already.â
âThe rain cooled things down a bit, but itâs still warm. Come, letâs go.â
Igyeol nodded and looked out the window at the clear sky. Finally, he thoughtâfinally he could see autumn again.
Dohyeon watched silently. In just one day with Eunsuk, Igyeol no longer clawed at his ears, no longer needed gauze changed constantly, no longer tore at his hands until they bled. His gown was clean.
And most miraculousâhe smiled. Often.
âDo you want the wheelchair?â
ââŠNo. I want to walk.â
âIf you get tired, promise youâll tell me.â
âYes.â
Hand in hand, they stepped out of the room.
Dohyeon didnât answer their goodbye. He swallowed even the sting of being forgottenâbecause he believed he didnât deserve to feel anything about it.
In the garden, they walked a single loop before resting on a sunny bench. The short walk left Igyeol winded. She patted his back gently and held his bandaged hand in her lap.
They sat quietly for a whileâthe breeze cool, the sunlight warm.
âIgyeol.â
âYes, Aunt.â
âHow did this happen? What accident in a hospital could do this to you?â
He looked down at his wrapped hand, sighed, and spoke.
ââŠSeo Dohyeon didnât want a child.â
ââŠâŠâ
âSo I was always careful. But I ended up pregnant anyway. And knowing he didnât want it⊠I didnât tell him. I ran. I thought it was the right thing. I wrote to you because he wouldnât think to find me there. I thought it would be safe.â
Her eyes never left him. Her hand never moved away. She gave him all her attention.
âThere were misunderstandings. He got angry. I tried to explain, tried to fix it, but nothing worked. Nothing ever reached him. It hurt so much, but I kept thinkingâitâll pass. Itâll get better. But whyâwhy does it never pass? Why am I always stuck in the same place?â
âIgyeolâŠâ
âI kept looking for the reason. Why everything turned out like this. And all of itââ
He lowered his head onto her hand. After a long silence, he whispered:
âAll of it is my fault.â
That fragile smile crushed her.
To see him with nothingâno safety, no place to rest, not even someone to blameâsmiling when all he wanted was to cry⊠it was too much.
âMy hands donât even hurt. Not at all.â
She gently pressed his exposed fingers through the bandage.
âHow could any of this be your fault? He is responsible too.â
ââŠâŠâ
âIf he hated the idea of a child so much, he shouldâve been more careful. You didnât create that baby alone. Why do you think all the guilt belongs to you?â