Divorce Contract C79
by berryChapter 79
When Dohyeon stood and bowed his head, Eunsuk didnât even look at himâjust brushed past like he was dust on her sleeveâand left.
The moment the door shut, he stepped into the room.
Igyeol, whoâd been lying still like he was trying to drift off, instantly tensed.
At the sight of Dohyeon, he shrank back and yanked the blanket up to his eyes, hiding everything but the small wary sliver of brown peeking out.
âUntil Madam Eunsuk returns, Iâll stay here,â Dohyeon said, scanning himâtaking in how much better he looked than the day before.
ââŠWhy? Why stay? Do you think Iâll do something reckless? That Iâll run away?â
âNo. Itâs not that. Iâm worried⊠worried about you being alone.â
ââŠMy well-being? Why would you worry about me?â
He didnât mean it sarcastically. He was genuinely confused.
This manâwho had never once cared for himâwas now talking about concern?
It made no sense. None.
âAunt said sheâll be back quickly. She told me that if I sleep, sheâll return soon, so Iâm going to sleep now. You donât have to stay. I wonât do anything wrong. I havenât touched my ears. I wonât leave the room. I promised Aunt. Iâll keep it.â
He touched each healing wound as if proving it, hands shaking, begging Dohyeon to leave.
But, as always, Dohyeon ignored him. He sat right beside the bed, eyes fixed on the spots Igyeol had just checked.
ââŠItâs true.â
Of courseânever once had Dohyeon listened to what he wanted.
And now again, he didnât.
The light drained from Igyeolâs eyes immediately.
âDid you see the baby?â Dohyeon asked.
ââŠYes.â
He didnât want to talk about the child with him.
His stomach twisted with fear.
Dohyeon had once said he could raise the babyâbut what if he changed his mind just like that?
To Igyeol, Dohyeon wasnât just someone he disliked.
He was someone he had to placate, or else he might lose his child.
âAh⊠is that why you came?â
His mind flashed back to his last heat, to the cruel words heâd shouted.
Surely Dohyeon was upset.
Maybe there were nail marks still on his cheek?
Had he scratched him?
Maybe that was it.
âThatâŠ?â
âIâm sorry.â
Before Dohyeon could even ask, Igyeol threw out the apology.
âThat dayâ Iâm sorry. None of it was real. I donât know why I said it. It wasnât from my heart. I donât resent you. Please donât pity me.â
He hated that Dohyeon chose the exact moment when Eunsuk wasnât here to come in.
He tried to hide itâbut his face twisted oddly, half-smile, half-grimace, begging forgiveness.
Then he got out of bed and dropped to his knees.
Thank god Eunsuk wasnât here to see it.
It wouldâve shattered her.
âWhat are these sudden apologies?â
ââŠFrom now on, Iâll eat whatever you give me. Iâm sorry for back then. For pushing you away. For saying I disliked you. I wonât dislike you again. Iâll try.â
âI donât know why youâre suddenly apologizing, but it isnât necessary. I only came to ask about the babyâs registration. We need a name, and I wanted yourâ Hah.â
He cursed inside, covering his face with one rough hand.
One horrible thing after another.
Igyeol was apologizing in fear heâd lose his childâbegging forgiveness for mistakes heâd never made.
He wasnât the one who should be apologizing at all.
âI came to talk about a name. Thatâs all.â
âThe babyâs⊠name?â
âYes. A name is needed for his registration. Have you thought of any?â
At that, Igyeol froze.
His eyes shook like the floor dropped out beneath him.
The old taunt echoed in his head:
Do you want to do everything mothers do just because youâre pregnant? Even naming the baby?
His hand crept up toward his earâthe ear he hadnât touched even once while Eunsuk was around.
His nails scraped at the half-healed skin, tearing whatever progress had been made.
ââŠNo. I have nothing in mind. You can decide. It doesnât matter to me.â
A dry crackle sounded as he tore the scab open.
Hearing it, Dohyeonâs voice dropped, low and gentle.
Igyeol bit his cheek, lowering his head, hiding his ear like a child caught misbehaving.
Without noticing, Dohyeon pulled a folded paper from his pocket.
âI gathered some options. Maybe none will please you, but⊠here.â
Igyeolâs gaze dropped to the paper.
Heâd expected one name.
Maybe two.
But there were fiveâsixâeach neatly written with Chinese characters and meanings.
âIf thereâs one you like, tell me. If not, I can look for more⊠Igyeol.â
ââŠWhat? Why? Why are youâ If you would just repeat what you saidââ
Dohyeon reached and gently tugged down Igyeolâs sleeve, revealing his wrist.
Blood seeped from the ear again.
His clean nails were streaked red.
âWhat words are you hearing now?â
ââŠâ
âWhat do you think I said?â
âEven if you did⊠itâs fine. Iâm fine.â
Dohyeon bowed his head, shoulders slumping under the weight of everything he hadnât known.
Igyeol pulled weakly at his wrist, unsure if he should explain.
He rubbed his ear with the back of his hand and whispered:
âYou said, âDo you want to do everything others do? Even name the baby?â Thatâs what you said. So I never thought of a name. I wanted to give him a cradle name, but I didnât. I thought youâd hate it. And later⊠I thought Iâd never be allowed to raise him, so I stopped imagining anything. Truly, choose whatever you want. I donât mind. I mean it.â
Dohyeon couldnât speak.
He remembered everythingâthe night Igyeol swore never to forgive him.
The tears in his eyes.
And Dohyeon snapping at him to stop crying, to eat what he was given, to stop acting like someone entitled to joy.
Because of those words:
Igyeol never named the baby.
Never whispered to him.
Never let himself bond with him.
Heâd carried the child in complete silence.
Not even allowed the smallest happiness expectant parents cherished.
If only Igyeol could forget.
But every detailâevery painful thingâhad carved itself into his memory.
ââŠEvery day my thoughts change,â Dohyeon finally whispered.
He hadnât spoken honestly in so long.
âShould I keep the shattered Igyeol I created⊠and try to live with him?
Or should I let him go?â
ââŠDid I do wrong? If I did, I can fix it. I can fix everything. Itâs all my fault. Please⊠Iâll make it right.â
To Igyeol, it sounded like a farewell.
And if they separatedâhe wouldnât be allowed to raise the baby.
That was the rule.
His pale brown eyes filled with tears.
His hand lifted, then droppedâafraid to reach out.
He grabbed the hem of Dohyeonâs coat instead, crying silently.
Dohyeon looked at the tears, and a bitter, pained smile crossed his face.
âDonât cry like that. I canât even wipe your tears.â
ââŠâ
âThis morning, I thought⊠even if youâre broken, Iâd still keep you.
But nowâŠâ
Each blink of Igyeolâs wet lashes made his lips tighten.
ââŠNow I think maybe I should let you go.â
ââŠIââ
âYour wishes never mattered to me. Not from the beginning.â