Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C104
by berryChapter 104
The sun had already set, but there was no other time to pay a proper visit, so I had no choice but to call on the guest staying in the annex. To both Dr. Kim and me, she was one of the most important people in Tuvine.
Yet the moment Count Ewik saw me in the reception room, her entire body began to tremble like an aspen leaf.
âCâCount, are you all right?â
âSa, sa, saââ(ê”Źê”Ź also happens to be the Korean onomatopoeia for a pigeonâs cooing sound)
Sa-sa-sa?
âA pigeonâŠ?â
She shook her head vigorously, squeezed her eyes shut, and forced the words out.
âTh-the Savior, they saidâŠâ
Ah. That. Damn itâshe must have heard the rumors. In a quivering voice, she asked,
âY-you really can see Lord Utraiinu?â
âWell⊠yes.â
I answered as casually as possible, just in case she panicked, and glanced around.
âHeâs not here right now.â
âGah!â
She staggered backward.
âAre you all right?!â
âA-amazing⊠They say that the moment a human meets Lord Utraiinuâs gaze, terror overwhelms them⊠And yet youâre perfectly fine. You truly are the Savior.â
This time, I almost stumbled back.
Waitâhis eyes are terrifying? Those tiny little dots?
Thanks to the filter, Mengdokâs eyes just look like two specks to me, so I had no idea. Come to think of it, Bichon was also terrifying once he opened his mouth. I guess Mengdokâs eyes are the creepy part.
âŠYeah. I should never turn that filter off. Ever.
I quickly tried to clear up the misunderstanding.
âNo, no. I canât really see him properly. If I saw his true form clearly, I might have screamed too.â
But despite my explanation, Count Ewikâs eyes only sparkled brighter as she looked at me. It was⊠a lot of pressure.
Still, if I wanted to keep fooling Tyroc, I had to maintain the Savior act. Flat denial wasnât an option, so I answered vaguely.
âItâs just that things turned strange and the word âSaviorâ came up. Itâs not like âSaviorâ is written on my body. Youâve heard, right? The other Savior supposedly bears a mark. So I might be the Savior, or I might notâitâs really up to individual judgmentââ
âYou are the Savior!â
Why are you deciding so fast?!
As I stared at her in disbelief, her eyes seemed to shine strangely. Her hands were still trembling where she held mine, but now it was clearâshe wasnât shaking from fear. It was excitement.
âCount, perhaps you should think a bit more carefully beforeââ
âYes, Sa-Savior.â
Deceiving someone I actually knew made my chest feel tight, like I was committing outright fraud.
âI only see and hear whatâs there. As you know, nonhuman beings only favor humans theyâve taken a liking to. If Lord Utraiinu had no business with me, he wouldnât even speak to me.â
âY-you even converse with him?!â
âŠDamn it.
âN-no, itâs not exactly a proper conversationââ
âA-as expected of the Savior.â
This was a different kind of miscommunication from Mengdok. And as she spoke, her fingers fidgeted around my hand, clearly wanting to say something.
âIf thereâs anything you wish to say, please do so freely.â
âI-Iâm quite lacking, you see⊠S-so perhaps Lord Utraiinu might find me pitiful, or look down on meâŠâ
âNot at all. Heâs very fond of you. He even calls you âFlower Petal.ââ
âF-Flower PetalâŠâ
Count Ewikâs face flushed red with embarrassment. She really did look like a flower petal then.
âThat⊠that was my childhood nickname. After my family died, no oneâs called me that anymoreâŠâ
Her voice trailed off, her eyes growing damp. Wanting to lift her spirits, I hurriedly added more.
âOh, and Lord Utraiinu often praised you to me when he had the chance. He said youâve started growing beautiful poisonous plants again now that youâve recovered.â
Her eyes slowly widened, her mouth parting, and thenâlarger than any smile Iâd seen from her beforeâit bloomed.
âI-I really am good at growing poisonous plants!â
If only youâd try growing peppers too.
I swallowed that thought. I didnât want to dampen her rare moment of liveliness.
I had come to thank her, and it was a relief that I could at least bring her some happy news.
âAs you may have heard, Iâm leaving tomorrow. I wanted to thank you beforehand.â
âFor⊠thanking me?â
Her eyes rounded, and I bowed deeply.
âThanks to the gift your spirit gave me, I was able to survive. Truly, thank you.â
Flustered, she waved her hands repeatedly, blushing. Fearing she might keep waving forever if I stayed, I decided to take my leave.
âUntil we meet again, please stay healthy, tend to your beautiful poisonous plants, and continue your research into new species.â
I turned toward the door, but she hesitated, then called out.
âOne of my ancestors once visited the Forest of Crimson Tides.â
Yes, I know. Thatâs why the entrance was on Ewik land.
I thought she might ask whether Iâd been there too, but she wasnât even looking at me. Her gaze was fixed on the floor, both hands clenched tightly together.
âIf⊠if you ever go to the Forest of Crimson Tides, please be sure to find the Master of the Forest.â
âThe master of the forest?â
âA divine beast?â
She shook her head. Then, glancing around as if afraid of being overheard, she lowered her voice.
âI-I donât know. My ancestor said this: if the Master of the Forest could be brought into the human world, Tuvine would return to its former beauty. At the very least, that means the divine beast of your family isnât the one.â
That made sense. That divine beast had already been summoned to the human world. So did that mean there was another divine beast? Or perhaps something even higher?
I pondered briefly, then shook my head. This wasnât some endless chain of overpowered beings from a web novel.
âFormer beauty?â
âA very, very long time ago, when nonhuman beings like spirits and fairies filled the world. If they were to return to humanityâs side, if even blades of grass and pebbles held special power again, then this land would be protected from monsters.â
Her words sounded like a fairy taleâan impossible story from another world. Perhaps that was why her voice had grown so quiet.
Still, it was clearly a secret she hadnât shared with anyone. Her restless hands made that obvious. I smiled deliberately, broadly.
âThat would be nice.â
âYou⊠you really think so?â
Of course. Why wouldnât I? If anything, I finally understood what she meant.
âPeople donât want monsters to disappear because of black magic stones. So they chose that power over the small strength of spirits and fairies, and in the end, most of them left this land.â
Her brows drooped sadly.
âB-but I understand them. The world changes⊠thereâs no single right answer.â
I deeply agreed. The world changes. Tuvine had already learned to coexist with monsters; it was normal now. Stillâ
âPerhaps itâs time for a new change. A world where monsters disappear.â
At my words, a slow smile spread across Count Ewikâs face. I smiled back and bowed.
âThank you for telling me.â
As I turned to leave, she hurriedly added,
âMy ancestor wanted to find the Master of the Forest, but returned without ever meeting them. Yet on their deathbed, they realized something: even if they had met that being, they wouldnât have recognized them as the Master of the Forest.â
For the first time, Count Ewik met my eyes directly.
âLu⊠I hope you find the Master of the Forest.â
Then she whispered, as if sharing a secret.
âThey say the Master of the Forest is the strongest living being of all.â
As the black sky slowly began to turn blue, the person Hoiga had been waiting for finally returned.
Tyrocâcovered in white dust and the fluids of monsters.
He had said he had an important engagement today, and it certainly looked like heâd taken care of it.
Yet his disheveled appearance didnât matter at all.
Because Tyroc passed Hoiga without even sparing him a proper glance.
And there was no smile.
The man who always wore a sunlight-bright smile now looked utterly expressionlessâso cold it made Hoigaâs heart lurch.
They hadnât exchanged a single word, yet it already felt like rejection. His chest felt as though it were being carved apart, his breathing growing difficult.
âTyroc.â
Hoiga forced out his name in a trembling voice as he followed. Only then did Tyroc flick him a glanceâbut he didnât stop walking.
âI have something to say.â
âCome back later and make a proper appointment.â
âNo! If not now, there wonât be time.â
Still, Tyroc didnât stop. Left with only one option, Hoiga brought up the one topic guaranteed to halt him.
âAre you really planning to give up on lifting the curse of the House of Koon?â
Halt.
Just as expected, Tyroc stopped. But when he turned, Hoigaâs heart clenched again.
There was no emotion at all in his cold gaze. If it had been filled with anger or irritation, perhaps it wouldnât have hurt so much. WhyâŠ?
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