Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C61
by berryChapter 61
Iâd suggested an appropriate form of self-treatment, but instead of complying, he only let out a laugh.
âMy ears work fine. I heard every word you exchanged with that rock.â
ââŠWhatever you heard was a hallucination.â
I shamelessly denied it, but the man only smiled wider. Even while drenched in cold sweat and struggling to stay conscious, he still found room to laugh.
And somehow, that made him look⊠attractive.
God, Iâve lost it. Iâm the crazy one here.
I shook my head hard and turned away. That infuriating man wasnât even my type.
âIâll take a look around. We need to know where we are.â
âThank you.â
I froze.
For a moment, it felt like Iâd misheard him.
Thank you? He just said thank you?
It was a blessing that the darkness concealed my expression. Still, I needed a few seconds before I could answer without sounding like I was choking on my own tongue.
ââŠWhat for? Why are you smiling like that?â
âI just learned which word makes you flustered.â
âI am not flustered. You said something ridiculous, and I was just questioning if youâd finally lost your mind.â
âStill⊠thank you. For saving me.â
ââŠâ
âThis time you didnât laugh.â
I muttered under my breath, frowning on purpose. The last thing I needed was for him to think I was embarrassed.
âThereâs no need to thank me. You saved my life first.â
âI see.â
That was it. No teasing, no sarcasmâjust quiet agreement.
That made me feel even worse.
I shouldnât have felt flustered earlier; I shouldâve known heâd say something that simple.
Maybe my irritation showed, because he smiled againâsoftly, not mockingly this time.
That somehow felt worse.
I deliberately turned my attention elsewhere.
âAnd youâre in this state because of me. Iâm the one who dragged you into the Crimson Tide Forest.â
He didnât answer. I kept speaking, avoiding his gaze.
âStay here for a bit. Iâll check the area and try toââ
âUgh.â
Tyroc let out a sharp groan, and I flinched. When I touched his shoulder, his skin was burning hot.
My palm went to his forehead instinctivelyâhe was on fire.
âIâll find someone who can help you.â
âDonât.â
âThis isnât the time to think about appearances.â
âHah⊠this is Borhumi.â
âBorhumi?â I repeated in disbelief.
The same Borhumi that ordered my kidnapping to the Ewik estate?
Iâd barely escaped death at the hands of his right arm, Ottmar, not long ago.
And Borhumi Zab himselfâhe was Tyrocâs greatest enemy.
âThis⊠is Borhumi territory?â
Tyroc, eyes closed and drenched in cold sweat, twisted his lips in a faint smirk.
âThe resting place of the great ancestors. The underground tomb beneath the main fortress.â
The⊠tomb?!
A low tremor rolled through the chamber at that exact moment. I crouched low, moving cautiously toward the edge to look down.
The heavy iron door below had swung open, and two figures enteredâa young man and an older one, his hood pulled deep over his head.
Their voices carried clearly through the vast chamber, every word amplified by the echoing stone walls.
The hooded manâs voice was aged and rasping.
âLord Zab.â
Zab? Borhumi Zab, the Grand Duke himself?
I held my breath and crept closer to a spot where I could see them clearly.
From this height, I had a decent vantage point.
The young man had long blue hair tied back neatly. The old manâs hood concealed most of his faceâheâd even wrapped a cloth around his nose and mouth.
âNot here,â the old man said sternly. âIf you continue, the Divine Beast may grow angry.â
âAngry?â Zabâs voice rose sharply. âLet it! Iâve spent years honing my power, and yet it keeps fading!â
My eyes widened. Fading? That was a bombshell if Iâd ever heard one.
The old manâDorgo, apparentlyâanswered with quiet firmness.
âI told you, itâs only temporary. Time will correct it.â
âTime? How much longer?â Zabâs tone cracked with fury. âYou expect me to sit here useless while my power withers away? I told youâitâs getting weaker by the day!â
His rage thundered through the cavernous hall, echoing off every surface.
And the reason for that fury⊠was someone I knew.
âI wield the power of the Divine Beast, and yet Tyrocâthat bastardâwas able to block my strength! He humiliated me, Dorgo! You have any idea what that feels like?â
Zabâs fists trembled as he spat the words, trembling with frustration.
He looked like a spoiled child throwing a tantrum, but Dorgo, clearly used to it, remained composed.
âYou must calm yourself. In a few months, you will possess a power that will make the Duke of Koon look insignificant. Patience, my lord.â
A greater power?
Zab already wielded the Divine Beastâs strengthâwhat more could there possibly be?
I leaned forward slightly, straining to catch every word.
âA few months?â Zab snapped. âYou said that before. Youâve been saying that for months! Meanwhile, Tyroc walks freeâmocking me! That bastard doesnât even need a Divine Beast to stand against me. He held me off with nothing but a sword!â
He spun around, glaring furiously at the vast chamber.
âWhat use is this Divine power if I canât even kill Tyroc?!â
âMy lord, the Divine Beast can hear you,â Dorgo warned.
âLet it hear! Maybe it should know its so-called power isnât even enough to match one human!â
Zabâs words cut through the air like a whip.
For the first time, Dorgoâs calm composure cracked. His tone turned harsh.
âIf you wish to lose that power entirely, then by all meansâkeep shouting. See how long it takes before the Divine Beast withdraws its blessing.â
âYou dareââ
âDo you wish to lose the power youâve already been given?â
That silenced Zab instantly.
Though his lips twitched with barely-contained rage, he forced himself to stay quiet.
âThe Divine Beast may be confined, my lord,â Dorgo continued evenly, âbut that does not mean it cannot hear.â
Confined?
I blinked. Did he just say⊠confined?
A Divine Beastâimprisoned by humans?
That made no sense. Those beings were practically gods. How could anyone trap one?
Zab scoffed, âItâs been locked up for ages. If it could leave on its own, it wouldâve done so by now.â
âStill,â Dorgo insisted, âyou must remain cautious. The Divine One is merely in a state of slumber. I am working tirelessly to ensure it awakens stronger than ever.â
âSure,â Zab spat. âThatâs why Iâve given you everything youâve asked forâslaves, darkstones, whatever you needed. So why does it keep taking longer? Why am I still getting weaker?â
Dorgoâs answer came calm and unwavering.
âNo matter how many times you ask, my answer will be the same. We are close. When the Divine Beast awakens, it will do so with overwhelming powerâand you, Lord Zab, will become the master of this land.â
Zab exhaled harshly, his frustration palpable even from where I hid.
Waiting clearly wasnât his strong suit.
Dorgoâs voice softened slightly.
âYou saw it with your own eyesâthe barrier that keeps the Divine Beast sealed is holding perfectly. There is nothing to fear, so long as it remains contained.â
So they came here to check the seal, I realized.
But Zab still looked dissatisfied, his frown etched deep.
âIf you crave immediate power,â Dorgo added, his tone now sharp again, âthen there is but one path left to you. Train. Shall I open the gate to the lake?â
The lakeâwherever that wasâseemed to strike a nerve. Zab recoiled as if the word itself disgusted him.
âHell no! Why the lake?â
âFor your training, my lord,â Dorgo said simply.
Zab shook his head violently, almost panicked.
âDo you know how much I suffered in that cursed lake as a child? Just hearing about it makes me sick!â
âBut if you truly wish for strength, you mustââ
âDamn it, enough about that lake!â Zabâs roar thundered across the hall. âIf training actually worked, the Divine Beast wouldnât still be locked away! Iâm done with that nonsense, understood? Done!â
His voice echoed long after he finished.
Whatever the âtrainingâ was, it mustâve been torturous.
But the way he whined about itâhonestly, he sounded like a sulking schoolboy.
âI need results now,â he snapped. âIf you donât have a real answer, just say so. Stop telling me to train like some fool.â
âMy lord,â Dorgo said evenly.
âStop saying my name and tell me another way!â
Dorgoâs reply came low and deliberate.
âThere is only one other way, my lord.â
Zabâs brows furrowed. ââŠWhat?â
Dorgo looked up, his lifeless, glass-like eyes glinting faintly in the torchlight.
âSeek salvation.â