Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C103
by berryChapter 103
âAt least he doesnât criticize your eating habits, does he?â
âHe⊠wellâah. Iâve heard it once.â
Dr. Kim squeezed her eyes shut.
âEven a dog knows better than to bother someone while theyâre eating.â
âThatâs why you should discard the hypothesis that he likes me. Heâs hated the Adeye family for yearsâsuddenly liking me makes even less sense. Honestly, itâd be more believable if he chose me to get his hands on Adeyeâs assets.â
I remembered something Solongo once told me. Everyone knew the Adeye family head was frail; when she died, everything would pass to Rue. Because of that, plenty of people tried to get close. To keep those parasites away, Dr. Kim had deliberately treated Rue like an abandoned relative.
âTyroc isnât the type to be swayed by money,â Dr. Kim said at once, then tilted her head.
âWell⊠he might have grown greedy after noticing that my attitude toward you changed, but that manâs stubbornness is legendary. He wonât change.â
âYes. He flatly said he didnât need a dowry.â
âHmph. At least he has his pride.â
She scoffed, then suddenly asked as if something had occurred to her,
âIf I die, should I just leave all my wealth to you?â
âNo. Itâs your moneyâdo whatever you want with it. Donate it all if you like.â
âI wonât donate.â
She said it lightly and turned her gaze away.
âMy world is already falling apart. Why should I care what happens to Tuvine after I die? Whoever takes my money, I donât mind.â
Her eyes lost focus as she stared into empty space. I didnât need to ask what she was thinking of. I sometimes made those solitary trips home tooâones that only left you lonelier afterward.
I waited in silence. A moment later, her voice pulled itself free of her thoughts.
âIf itâs all going to be yours anyway, why do you refuse?â
âWhen my real family, friends, and comrades are all dead, whatâs the point of living alone? Once my work is finished, I have no regrets.â
Her eyes sank heavily. I pretended not to notice and spoke in a businesslike tone.
âThis isnât the time to worry about the future. We still have a long road ahead for our objective. You heard about the traitor, didnât you?â
As expected of someone whoâd lived solely for our world for ten yearsâher gaze changed instantly.
âI did. Ma Hoigaâthat bastardâbetraying us and even masquerading as the Savior.â
âExactly. Using nanorobots for that.â
âRight. You canât even follow nanobot instructions without getting goosebumpsâhow vicious must he be?â
That wasnât the point. I shook my head.
âWhat infuriates me is that he used nanorobots to decipher ancient manuscripts.â
âDeciphering manuscripts is something you can do without nanorobots.â
âWhat? Those are documents no one in Tuvine can read.â
âThatâs because semiotics isnât properly established here. Our world is different. People study semiotics as a hobby.â
Since when did semiotics rank alongside reading and exercise? The confidence was like a top student saying the exam was easy. I didnât have the energy to argue and changed the subject.
âAnyway, do not meet Hoiga. Ever.â
I emphasized it again, just in case.
âStay in bed, cancel all external schedules.â
âThatâs the plan. You leave the Ma family to me and focus on that Koon bastardâcough.â
She looked pale, so I stood.
âPlease rest. Weâll talk tomorrow morning.â
âFine. We still have time to discuss things.â
âAh⊠actually, we donât.â
âWhat?â
âI have to move into the Koon estate tomorrow. Apparently, thatâs their rule.â
âInsane! What kind of familyââŠah. In Tuvine, it would exist. Damn it.â
So it really does. I muttered a curse myself.
Please donât let there be thousands of rules.
âHoiga, does it really have to be this way?â
Hoiga glanced back at his brother, who stood beside him dressed identically.
âBrother, Iâm sorry.â
He lowered his voice.
âThe soldiers surrounding our house under the pretense of protection are really here to monitor me. There are probably watchers inside as well.â
With a pitiful look, he pleaded,
âItâs the first dayâtheyâll be careless. Please, just lie in bed pretending to be me. Iâll take care of something and come back quickly.â
âWhere are you going?â
Hoiga turned his gaze back to the window, then answered vaguely,
âThereâs someone I need to meet. I need to hear the reason.â
Pulling his hood low, he slipped into the night and arrivedâlong after darkâat the Koon ducal residence.
But the person he sought wasnât there.
Instead, Rick rushed out.
âHoiga! What is this, showing up without notice at this hour?â
âWhere is His Grace?â
âHe left urgently on a monster hunt. Heâs not in the estate.â
âMonsters? I heard he hasnât fully recovered yet. How urgent could it be?â
Rick smiled awkwardly. Hoiga immediately understood.
âBorhumiâs Crystal Lake, then. Hah.â
He exhaled deeply. Unlike the Duke of Montaine, who only went for show, Tyroc ran toward monsters day or night, whether anyone watched or notâearning the slander that he did it for money.
But if it were truly for money, he would have stopped long ago.
âHe feels responsible,â Rick murmured.
âThen come back laterââ
âNo. It has to be now.â
Rick took it seriouslyâhe knew Hoigaâs foresightâbut then froze when he saw his eyes.
Emotions churned violently inside them, like a storm-tossed boat at sea.
Ah. He wasnât chosen.
Rick had seen many who adored Tyroc. Unreturned feelings often drove them to reckless visits, only to turn love into hatred.
Usually, it didnât matter. None of them could harm Tyroc.
But Hoiga was differentâproclaimed as another Savior, backed by Montaine.
âHoiga.â
Rick called his name, holding back a sigh.
âYou may be disappointed, but itâs done. It canât be undone.â
âWhy? He hasnât married Adeye Rue yet.â
âHeâs already called Rue his betrothed. You know thisâonce His Grace decides, he never reverses it.â
Hoigaâs eyes wavered, then burned.
âNo. Thereâs still time. Until the bond oath is sworn, nothing is absolute. Iâll persuade him again.â
Rick finally sighed. The only cure was for hope itself to be severed by the person involved.
âHis Grace has an important engagement tomorrow. Heâll return at dawn.â
âIâll wait.â