Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C42
by berryChapter 42
I glanced at his face, but we werenât close enough for me to ask him anything outright. Still, his mention of a âdomainâ brought one place to mindâthe Forest of Crimson Waves.
âI have no reason to ever enter a non-humanâs domain.â
âYou never know. You might get lured there by a voice.â
There was absolutely nothing tempting about that voice, thank you very much. I swallowed down the protest rising to my throat and changed the subject instead.
âSo, is that why you took my side earlier? To see if I was already being lured?â
âI didnât take your side. I just didnât like that gem. What about you?â
âI donât like it either.â
[Why?!!!!!!!!!!! Why donât you like me?!!!!!!!!!!!]
Flinch. The sudden explosion of punctuation in front of my eyes made me jerk.
What the hellâwhy was it suddenly speaking up after staying quiet in my pocket all this time?
I darted a glance toward Tyroc. He was looking down at me, his golden eyes devoid of amusement. He didnât say a word, but I found myself blurting out an excuse anyway.
âSometimes I just⊠get headaches.â
[I like the Impotent Human, but the Impotent Human doesnât like me?!!!!!!!!!!!]
âHow often?â
ââŠSorry, what?â
The flood of exclamation marks was so distracting that I missed his question. Then I quickly recovered.
âUh, I meanâit happens pretty often.â
[Impossible!!!! Thereâs no one in the world who doesnât love me!!!!!!!]
I sighed and rubbed my forehead. I was actually starting to feel a real headache now.
âAlright, fine. I lied. I do like the gem. I like it very much.â
âWhy?â
âBecause Iâm obsessed with diamonds.â
âI asked why it hurts.â
I blinked and looked up at him, unsure Iâd heard correctly, then shrugged.
âPeople get sick sometimes.â
âI thought youâd blame me.â
Of course youâre partly to blameâa big part, actually.
But since I wasnât really hurt right now, I could afford to be generous. Besides, the exclamation marks had finally disappeared from my vision.
Was this diamond suffering from a case of royal narcissism?
âBefore, when Iâd lost my memory, I didnât know why Your Grace wanted to kill me, so I blamed you for it. But now, I understand.â
âYou understand?â
âYes. You still want to kill me, donât you?â
He didnât answer right away. When I looked up, I met his golden eyes. There was no hostility thereâbut no irritation or disdain either.
It was the same look heâd had when heâd unexpectedly taken my side. But⊠why?
That was what bothered me the most. I studied him cautiously until his quiet reply came.
âYouâre right.â
âSee? I knew it.â
Strangely, the admission made me feel calmer, and I nodded with satisfaction.
âI didnât know you were so eager for me to die by your hand.â
âIâm neither eager nor interested, so stop flattering yourself.â
I cut him off before he could draw a blade just to prove a pointâbut his lips curved slightly.
Was he⊠teasing me?
I frowned without meaning to, which only made his smile deepen.
That mocking smileâugh. What did people even find attractive about it?
Even now, the priests trailing behind us couldnât stop sneaking glances at him, like they were starstruck fans spotting a celebrity.
Then I noticed another gazeâdifferent from the rest. Those blue eyes.
Ariona. His look wasnât casual curiosity; it was adoration.
The transparency of his stare almost made him look like a childâinnocent and pure.
Not the kind of person whoâd steal anything. Maybe the High Priest really had put him up to it.
âYour type?â Tyroc asked suddenly. âWhy are you staring like that?â
I nearly jumped. âI wasnât staring. And since when does looking at someone mean theyâre my type? By that logic, I must be your type.â
âDo you want to be?â
âAbsolutely not.â
The answer flew out of me so fast it surprised even me. I sounded like someone whoâd been waiting his whole life for that question just to reject it immediately.
âI told you,â Tyroc said, âpeople who talk like that are always the ones trying hardest to get my attention.â
âIf I ever start hovering around you, you can say that then. Until that day comes, stop talking.â
I couldnât hold back my irritation.
When I risked a glance, he wasâof courseâsmiling again. But not mockingly this time. He was genuinely amused.
Was this guy enjoying our bickering?
Honestly, the arrogant, loudmouthed diamond was a hundred times easier to deal with. I quickened my pace, trying to put distance between usâbut he matched my steps effortlessly.
âCould you back off a little?â
âWeâre here.â
Oh. Already?
Sure enough, the small pond was right before us. Several priests were already waiting there. They stepped aside to make way for me, though not all of them looked pleased.
The High Priestâs followers, of course.
Thankfully, the other priestsâthose unaware of the earlier commotionâgreeted me politely, likely thanks to my generous donations.
âHere we are, the sacred pond,â one of them announced.
After all that trouble, finally standing before it made me tense up again.
What if the gem didnât actually return home but just sank uselessly to the bottom?
The diamondâs silence didnât help my nerves either. It hadnât said a word since we got here, and I couldnât exactly talk to it in front of everyone.
âWell? What are you waiting for? Drop it,â one of the priests sneered.
He was from the High Priestâs group, watching me sharply with his fellows, their eyes gleaming with suspicion.
Why were they so eager? Itâs not like they were going to dive in after it once I dropped it.
âŠWait. Thatâs exactly what they plan to do.
I swallowed a laugh. So, they wanted to fish it out later? Fine. Iâd make sure theyâd have to dive deep.
I stepped up to the pond, slipped off my shoes and socks, and rolled my trousers up to my knees.
There was a startled âHuh?â behind me, quickly followed by a louder âWhatâ?!â
Splash.
Without hesitation, I waded straight in, water sloshing around my legs.
The stares burning into my back only spurred me forward.
In no time, the water was up to my knees.
The pond was murky, thick with leaves and algae, its depth impossible to gauge. Still, I pushed forward. It wasnât that large; even at the center, it couldnât be deeper than my thighs, right?
Then, from behind, I heard a faint sigh.
ââŠHaâŠâ
Probably from one of the High Priestâs attendants, realizing I was making it harder for them to find the gem later.
Oh, perfect. In that case, Iâd make sure it sank as deep as possible.
But first, I needed confirmation from the diamond. I lifted my hand to my chest, the gem clasped tightly in my palm.
âThis is your home, right?â
Silence.
I frowned and checked with Mo.
âMo, the gemâs not saying anything?â
[No response detected.]
Troubling. Turning back now would mean humiliationâespecially with the High Priestâs people watching.
So I went farther in. The water rose halfway up my thighs. Then I lowered my hand into the pond.
âPlease⊠tell me this is your home.â
I whispered earnestly and opened my palm. I felt the gem slip from my fingersâbut still, there was no sound, no reaction.
Had someone swapped it without me noticing? The thought barely crossed my mind before the ground beneath my feet gave way.
âAhâ!â
Before I could even scream, the world turned upside down.
I plunged straight down into the waterâdeep, impossibly deep, like falling into the sea itself.
Water closed around me, swallowing all sound.
But worse, an unseen force gripped me, dragging me even farther down.
Panic hit instantly. I kicked and thrashed, struggling to surface.
It had been a shallow pondâso what the hell was happening?!
Then I froze.
Wait⊠I could breathe.
Despite being underwater, my lungs didnât burn. I inhaled freely, the water cool and weightless in my chest.
And below me, light flickered.
At first, a faint shimmerâthen a dazzling radiance that blinded me.
[It opened!!!! Finally, the gate meant for me has opened!!!! I can go home!!! Impotent Human, you did it!!!]
It was the diamondâs voiceâloud, ecstatic, and filled with joy.
So this was the right place. Guess it was worth getting my shoes wet after all.
But⊠where exactly was I? Why was there a massive space beneath the pond? And that lightâ
If I kept descending, Iâd reach it soon. Noâsomething deep inside me whispered that I had to reach it.
Without thinking, I angled my body downward.
Drawn as if by instinct, I swam toward the light, hand outstretched.
The instant my fingertips brushed the glow, the diamondâs frantic cry echoed in my head.
[No!!! Donât go in without me!!! Iâve already entered and canât come back out!! Impotent Human, go back!!!]