Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C123
by berryChapter 123
âWhy?â
I jerked my chin toward the direction the noise had come from.
âThe ones who went never came back even after days passed, and now theyâre sending additional troops to help. If theyâre even pulling soldiers from here, then it must be pretty serious.â
âUh⊠wellâŠâ
Looks like Iâd hit the mark. Rick stared at me, flustered.
âItâs because I nearly died once,â I added flatly.
âAh, yesâŠâ
Rick still looked unsettled, but I didnât feel like reassuring him by playing the role of Rue. What was happening at Crystal Lake wasnât unrelated to me, and it didnât sit right to just hear updates from afar.
That old habit was still ingrained in meâif an alert about monsters went off, Iâd leap out of bed and run, no matter what time it was. So it felt like I should be going too.
If I could at least swing a club, maybe it would ease this sense of debt. Instead, I was supposed to rest comfortably here.
âAs long as the monster rift at Crystal Lake doesnât close, things like this will keep happening.â
Close.
Right now, the key that could seal that rift was hanging around my neckâalongside the club.
But ever since returning from the lake, the blue crystal that fit my hand so perfectly hadnât responded to anything. It seemed the power of Borhumiâs divine beast was still insufficient.
That tiny pool barely left in the dried lake had felt like a reflection of the divine beastâs condition, and the thought weighed on me.
Itâs back home nowâso itâs recovering, right? Will it take long?
There was nothing I could do immediately, and the helplessness slowly pressed down on my chest.
âSo, Lord Rue, you donât need to concern yourself with this going forward.â
I knew Rick was drawing a firm line. I shouldâve backed off here.
But the question was already on my tongue.
What about me joining the deployment?
That would only earn me ridicule. Swallowing what I really wanted to ask, I let another question slip out instead.
âOther divine beast families arenât sending support?â
âNo.â
The blunt answer startled me.
âNot even the Montaine Grand Duchy? Even just for show?â
âThat show ended at the White Branch Council. If anything, we expected the greedy Sarne to make a move on Borhumiâs landâbut thereâs been no movement.â
Sarne.
I remembered the elderly man from the White Branch Council whoâd been moved to tears after confirming his divine beast hadnât perished. Heâd looked incredibly strict.
A question suddenly surfaced. Sarne hadnât produced a divine beast for generationsâso how were they still maintaining power?
Mo answered on cue.
[The Sarne family possessed two Swordmasters.]
Two people like Tyroc? Then why was that past tense?
Right on time, Rick mentioned Swordmasters.
âSarne has been conserving their remaining Swordmaster. Theyâve barely sent them out for monster hunts these past few years.â
I recalled what Iâd heard back when I first arrived in Tuvain, at the sanatorium.
âAh, the Swordmaster of the Kroll region passed away recently. That leaves only three Swordmasters nowâbut since one has been hidden for a long time, itâs more accurate to say there are only two.â
âThe Swordmaster of KrollâŠâ I began.
âAt the start of this year, they failed to recover from their injuries and passed away.â
âInjuries? From monsters?â
Rick glanced around, then lowered his voice.
âThatâs what was announced externally. But the truth seems different. It appears they were defeated in combat with someone.â
âWho could possibly beat a Swordmaster?â
Another divine-beast-powered individual?
That thought was wrong.
âWe suspect it was another Swordmaster.â
Not Tyroc. The other known one belonged to Sarneâso that left only one possibility.
An unknown Swordmaster.
Rickâs voice dropped even further, lending weight to the theory.
âSarne has been pursuing someone for a long time. We believe that person may be a Swordmaster. That would explain how Krollâs Swordmaster was defeated.â
âThank you for coming all this way.â
Killu greeted his guest politely in the reception room, but the elderly man with the severe expression ignored him and sat down. Used to such treatment, Killu smiled and spoke courteously.
âWas your journey here comfortable, Grand Duke of Sarne?â
âSpare me the pleasantries, Duke Killu.â
The Sarne Grand Duke clearly found even a few words of courtesy distasteful and went straight to the point.
âLetâs talk about Borhumiâs Crystal Lake. You told us to leave it alone? That cunning Kun has occupied Borhumi Castle!â
In the past, Killu would have soothed the manâs temper first. But things were different now. Montaine was the only remaining divine beast family.
So Killu calmly lifted his prepared tea and took a sip. The Sarne Grand Dukeâs brow twitched.
Before the man could shout, Killu spoke first.
âSo what? Theyâre nothing more than an empty shell without a divine beast.â
The Sarne Grand Dukeâs gaze turned viciousâafter all, Sarne was also without a divine beast. Killu smiled apologetically, as if realizing his âmistake.â
âOf course, Sarneâs divine beast will be restored with the Saviorâs help.â
That Savior was in Killuâs graspâthe unspoken message was obvious.
âSo youâre telling me to sit back and watch?â
âYes. Just for two months.â
âExplain yourself properly. What exactly are you scheming?â
âIf it becomes known that Kun is responsible for Borhumi, then when trouble erupts, that responsibility will cause them to collapse even faster.â
âThat sounds like youâre saying trouble will erupt in two months.â
Killu merely smiled, offering no further explanation.
The Sarne Grand Duke glared at him, then brought up a name.
âDid the Savior deliver some prophecy?â
âIâll only say thisâsomething beyond control will emerge from Crystal Lake.â
Killuâs voice dropped, firm and cold.
âNo matter how powerful a Swordmaster Tyroc is, if he confronts it, heâll be digging his own grave.â
It shouldâve been good newsâbut the Sarne Grand Dukeâs expression hardened.
âThat also means the damage from the monsters will be severe.â
âThere will be some minor sacrifices. But monsters are necessary, and sacrifices have always existed. Isnât that so?â
Killu spoke as if it were nothing, but the Sarne Grand Duke still looked displeased. Still, the chance to remove Tyroc wasnât something he intended to block.
âJudging by your confidence, it seems youâve formed a mate bond with Hoiga of Ma, havenât you?â
âIâll accept your congratulations laterâwhile watching Kun Tyroc fall.â
âDonât underestimate a Swordmasterâs power.â
The Sarne Grand Duke warned him, but Killu only smiled again.
âSwordmasters arenât invincible. Theyâre human. Unlike divine-beast users who receive endless power, Swordmasters have limits. Thatâs why they can loseâand die.â
The Sarne Grand Dukeâs eyes turned hostile, and Killu quickly added a hypocritical apology.
âOhâone of Sarneâs Swordmasters passed away earlier this year, didnât they? I heard it was due to severe injuries sustained while fighting monsters three years ago. But thereâs something Iâm curious about.â
âKillu. If you think Iâll answer just because youâre curious, youâre mistaken.â
The Sarne Grand Duke stood, clearly done with the conversation. But Killu followed him and asked anyway.
âIâm not asking about the monsterâs identity. Are you truly certain that monster poses no threat now?â
The Sarne Grand Duke froze mid-turn.
âIâll say it again. Mind your own business.â
âI canât. If a Swordmaster-level being is still alive, thatâs a major variableâwhether monster or human.â
âA variable?â
The Sarne Grand Duke scoffed.
âEven if they miraculously survived that injury three years ago, they wouldnât be functional. Monster or humanâit makes no difference.â
Huff, huff, huffâŠ
The Black Bear swung her greatsword nonstop from morning, her breathing rough with exhaustionâyet she didnât stop.
The repetitive downward strikes were drills beginners practiced, but she performed each motion with utmost seriousness.
One more. Just one more. One more after that.
Even after completing the set routine, she brought the sword down several more times before finally lowering it. Steam practically rose from her body, and her arms trembled violently.
She desperately wanted to collapse, but instead grabbed her canteen and poured water over her head.
Splash.
The cold snapped her mind awake. She pulled off her top, wrung it out, and tossed it onto a rock. She wore only a vest-like undergarment underneath, yet picked up the greatsword again.
As she moved, the garment parted slightly, revealing a long scar running diagonally from her shoulder across her chest. The scar shifted with every labored breath.
âWhew⊠just a little more.â
Sheâd already reached todayâs quotaâbut it wasnât enough. Every day, she had to push past her limits.
That persistence was how sheâd reached Swordmaster without a teacherâeven if it had taken her until middle age. Because of it, age no longer bound her.
She believed this training would make her stronger again. She had to beâso she could face even stronger enemies.
For that, all she could do was train.
Fortunately, it seemed it would take time before Rue arrived here. Until then, it was the perfect opportunity.
She liked this forest too.
Given such precious time, she had to make the most of it.
Until dawn broke, the only sound echoing through the quiet forest was the swing of her blade.