Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C105
by berryChapter 105
âI told you. Iâm the only one who can lift the curse of the House of Koon. So why are youââ
Tyroc raised one hand halfway. He stopped speaking without realizing it, but the gesture was clearly meant for the servants nearby.
Tap-tap-tap.
As soon as the sound of several sets of footsteps faded into the distance, Tyroc spoke again.
âSo?â
His voice sounded indifferent, but to Hoiga it was an unmistakable warning.
Go on. Say it. See what happens.
A primal fear surgedâan instinctive urge to retreat before overwhelming strength. But after sneaking out of the house with such resolve, after waiting here until dawn⊠how could he be treated this coldly?
Bitterness welled up. It pushed the fear aside, and Hoiga forced his mouth open, facing those icy eyes.
âSo tell me. Why did you do it? Why Adeye Rue? Why did you choose Rue?â
For a brief moment, anger flickered in Tyrocâs eyes, yet the corner of his mouth twisted upward instead.
âShouldnât you be asking why I didnât choose you? Why ask why I chose Adeye Rue?â
Step.
He took half a step closer and spoke in a low voice.
âThat sounds like you wouldnât be this unhinged if it werenât Rue.â
Hoigaâs eyes trembled.
Noâ
He should have denied it, but no words came out even as his lips parted. Tyrocâs golden eyes turned impassive again, and somehow that indifference felt like pure disgust. Hoiga squeezed out a voice that barely emerged.
ââŠBecause itâs Rue. Because itâs that stupid, vulgar Adeye Rue.â
âWatch your mouth when you speak about my partner.â
Partner? He was calling him that already, without even a proper engagement ceremony?
Hoiga no longer cared how Tyroc saw him. He just wanted to know why this absurd situation had come to pass.
âEven if Adeye Rue can communicate with nonhuman beings, he canât lift the curse of the House of Koon. And yet you still chose him? Was he worth it? The most important thing to you is breaking your familyâs curse, isnât it? If you think I would help youââ
âI donât need you.â
Hoigaâs eyes widened in disbelief.
âTyroc, I told you. You can only attempt to lift the curse of the House of Koon once. And Iâm the only one who can succeed in a single try!â
His raised voice echoed through the hall, yet he didnât even realize how agitated heâd become as he pressed on.
âWithout my help, your family trapped in Koon Castle will remain stone foreverâ!â
A large hand clamped around Hoigaâs throat, cutting him off mid-sentence.
He was lifted into the air just like that, and his face turned a bursting red as his airway closed.
Unable to breathe, he flailed his limbs in a desperate attempt to break free, but that only made Tyrocâs grip tighten.
âGhkâ! Ughâ!â
âThereâs only one reason Iâm not killing you right now,â Tyroc said calmly. âToday is an important day. Iâm going to fetch my beloved partner. I canât exactly reek of filthy blood, can I?â
He pulled Hoiga close until they were face to face, staring straight into his eyes.
âSo from now on, with every breath you take, live in gratitude to Adeye Rueâfor saving your life.â
Tyroc tossed Hoiga aside like a piece of trash. With a heavy thud, Hoiga rolled across the floor, but drawing in air was more urgent than the pain.
âCoughâ! Hackâ!â
As Hoiga lay there coughing on the ground, Tyroc turned away coldly, as if the matter were already settled.
Click. Tap.
The sound of Tyrocâs retreating footsteps echoed through the floor. Hoiga lifted his bloodshot eyes.
âTyroc. Youâll regret this.â
Tyroc didnât look back, but Hoiga raised his voice as if making a vow to himself.
âYouâll regret it, shedding tears of blood someday!â
Clatter. Clatter.
Having breakfast with Dr. Kim at the Adeye estate had become routine for me. Today was no different, even though I was leaving for the House of Koon.
The difference was that we were eating in silence.
The menu was chicken tender frittersâheavy for breakfast, but there were pickled radish slices on the side. Yes. Fried chicken and radish.
There was plenty to talk about just from the food alone, yet strangely, I didnât feel like complaining about this cursed land. We werenât parting forever, but my mood was oddly complicated.
I glanced at Dr. Kim, who was eating in silence, and spoke.
âIâll come visit often.â
âFor what?â
ââŠPardon?â
I skewered a piece of pickled radish with my fork, wondering if Iâd misheard.
âYou donât want me to visit?â
âIâm saying that instead of coming here, you should be busy wrapping Tyroc around your finger.â
Ah. Plan X again. I frowned immediately.
âWeâre writing a contract. Why waste time on that?â
âYou havenât written it yet.â
âWell, we will.â
I muttered, but under Dr. Kimâs exasperated gaze, I couldnât help voicing my worry.
âHeâll write it, right?â
âHe will. For the sake of appearances. The problem is, that could be thirty years from now. And considering how awful his personality is, thatâs entirely possible.â
She clenched her fist, delivering her conclusion backed by ten years of accumulated data.
âSo you need to make him sign that contract as soon as possibleâthreaten him, beg him, seduce him, whatever it takes.â
I hated every single option. So I offered the best alternative I could think of.
âWhat about getting him drunk and sneaking a signature?â
That disappointed lens slid right back over her eyes.
âSword masters donât get drunk easily.â
Damn it. Heâs going to live forever. As I slumped in genuine despair, Dr. Kim warned me,
âIf you try something half-baked, you might be the one who ends up falling for Tyroc first.â
âNot my type.â
âIf you let your guard down like that, youâll end up giving him your body firstâand then your heart. Tsk.â
My body?
âThis is a contract marriage. Thereâs no reason for bodies to touch.â
ââŠâŠâ
âThis time, Iâm right, arenât I?â
âSure. Youâll be rightâright after you get blindsided.â
She shook her head.
âDonât underestimate how promiscuous Tuvine people are. Want to know whatâs carved into their bones as common sense? âThe bodies have to be compatible before the hearts are.ââ
She took a sip of water and set the glass down with a clack.
âSo these people donât shake hands when they meet someone newâthey test compatibility first. Just imagine how good they must be at sex.â
âWellâŠâ
âInsanely good. No joke.â
Why ask me and then answer it yourself? More importantlyâ
âYouâve never even done it yourself. How would you know?â
âIâve seen and heard too much.â
Ten yearsâ worth of irritation showed plainly on her face. Well, considering Rue himselfâ
âWhat exactly are you trying to say? That Tyroc will turn me into some kind of sex slave and do whatever he wants? Hahaââ
âYes.â
ââŠI was joking.â
âIâm not.â
Yeah. I could tell just by her face. That was what made it worse.
âHa⊠I didnât want to say this, but honestly.â
The absurdity made me laugh first.
âIâm good at it. I donât like bragging, but Iâm really good.â
One of her eyebrows lifted. She looked like she wasnât sure how to react to such an unexpected piece of nonsense. I ran a hand through my hair and sighed.
âTo the point where every person I slept with contacted me again after we broke up. Said they couldnât forget the incredible nights we spent together. Dr. Kimââ
I leaned in and whispered like I was sharing a secret.
âIâm a bad man.â
Her response was the same look an aunt gives her middle-school nephew going through an especially intense phase.
âHow many exes do you have?â
âTwo.â
ââŠâŠâ
I lifted my chin proudly, but the look in her eyes only grew more exasperated.
âYouâve never been on the bottom, have you?â
âOf course not. But when it comes to using my body, I donât lose to anyone.â
She muttered gravely,
âTerminal case.â
I let out a hollow laugh.
âIt probably wonât happen, but ifâifâTyroc tries to seduce me physically, heâll be the one who falls first.â
ââŠâŠâ
âYou were about to tell me to seduce him first, werenât you? Not happening.â
No meant no. Dr. Kim openly scowled at me.
âDonât come whining later that you like Tyroc.â
âAm I insane? Why would I let myself like someone in a place I wonât even live in?â
I tossed the words out lightlyâthen froze.
Dr. Kimâs expression hardened.
âOnce you close the Eye of Hell, your mission is over. After that, your life is here.â