Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C18
by berryChapter 18
Without Moâs assistance, I could only rely on the moonlight streaming through the open terrace doors.
It poured into the room, soft and silver, revealing just enough for me to make out the obstacles inside. I studied the layout carefullyâone wrong step, and a single sound could ruin everything.
Thankfully, the thick carpet muffled my footsteps, and I had the Fenouan estateâs blueprints from Dr. Kim.
âStart with the second floor. The ones who think too highly of themselves always hold their private conversations there.â
Following her advice, I crept up to the second floor, slipping silently through the narrow secret passageways. At each door, I stopped and pressed my ear against the wood, listening for voices.
There were sounds, faint but discernible. Unfortunately, most of them were not talking.
âAh~ deeper, yes, just like that~â
âUgh, howâs that? Iâm amazing, right?â
âMmm! So good! Way better than my husband!â
An affair.
I swallowed back a curse. Of course it had to be this kind of party. Moving on, I peeked through another crack, only to find that the adjacent rooms werenât much better. Every one of them seemed dedicated to illicit meetings.
Donât tell me the betrayer was in one of these rooms, having a grand time right nowâ
âBorhumi Zab obtained information about the Sword of Serenity.â
The Sword of Serenity? The emperorâs legendary blade? My eyes widened.
I didnât need to search anymoreâthe voice was close.
I pressed my ear tightly against the wall, straining to catch the conversation. A faint reply came, but I couldnât make out the words.
Damn it. Why couldnât I hear?
Just as my patience thinned, the first voice spoke again, answering what must have been a question about the source.
âThe information seems reliable. Zabâs right-hand man, Ottmar, is already on the move.â
After a short pause, the voice continued.
âThe Sword of Serenity lies within the Forest of Crimson Tides. The entrance should be aroundââ
I leaned closer, desperate to hear moreâ
But something interrupted me.
No, someone.
An intrusive, nerve-prickling presence suddenly appeared in the air beside me.
Duke Koon hadnât wanted to come to this party at all.
Heâd rather have spent the evening slaying another monster and harvesting its black magic stone than wasting time in this den of fools.
The only reason heâd shown up was a letter from a certain friend.
âIf you donât come tonight, youâll regret it.â
Had anyone else said those words, he wouldâve ignored them.
But this friend was differentâhis words had a way of coming true. More than once, in fact.
Even so, Duke Koon had never asked where the man got his information, nor had he ever tried to profit from it. He had rebuilt his fallen house through his own power and would continue to do so without depending on anyone.
Still, tonightâs warning had been too pointed to dismiss.
âI was surprised,â his friend said, smiling a little too brightly. âDidnât expect you to escort the young lord of Baron Zarayalâs house. You shouldâve seen everyoneâs faces when you walked in.â
Though his voice was light, his trembling hands betrayed his nerves. His gaze wouldnât meet Koonâs.
Koon knew why. Reactions like this were common.
People always trembled before himâwhether out of love, admiration, or awe. None of it mattered.
âI only needed an excuse to attend.â
âSure, but you donât just escort anyone. Zarayalâs family was one of the few that stayed loyal when everyone else turned their backs on you. Oh, and I heard the baron who was supposed to escort the young lord broke his leg? Is he doing all right?â
The concern sounded polite, but Koon didnât bother to respond. He just smiled faintly.
The friend flinched, lowering his gaze.
âS-sorry. You hate personal questions.â
Koon studied him quietly. Was this really the same man?
Theyâd attended the same academy, yet never spoken once back then.
The person standing before him now was nothing like the polished, aloof figure remembered by society.
No one in the world would have guessed that this man carried a hidden giftâone that bordered on prophecy.
âI heard monsters have been appearing often in the Munkun Valley lately,â the friend went on, eager to keep him talking. âThe Sarne familyâs been keeping it quiet. Theyâre working hard to handle it themselves, forbidding outsiders from entering.â
The mention of one of the Four Divine Beast Houses made Koon glance up, if only briefly.
He said nothing, so the friend hurried to add more.
âThey believe their divine beast still resides there.â
At that, Koonâs lips curved into a faint, mocking smile. Divine beastsâalways the same delusion.
The Sarne family hadnât been chosen by a divine beast for three generations, yet they still clung to hope, desperate to reclaim that power.
Compared to them, the Koon family, which had long given up after their beastâs disappearance a decade ago, seemed almost rational.
âIâve been deciphering their old manuscripts,â the friend continued eagerly. âIâm convinced the Munkun Valley is significant.â
âThey sent you their manuscripts?â
The question was calm, but the friend blushed faintly, mistaking curiosity for personal interest.
âNot directly. No one knows Iâm skilled in deciphering ancient texts.â
Neither did I, Koon thought drily.
That meant the Sarne family had no idea their priceless records were being shared.
He disliked receiving unwanted information, but he didnât stop the man from speaking.
After all, the Sarne family had helped destroy his house once. Let them ruin themselves now.
âIf I find anything concrete about the divine beasts, Iâll tell you first,â the friend offered.
âWhy?â
The man hesitated, flustered by the blunt question. Then he smiled shyly.
âBecause I owe you. And⊠Iâm grateful.â
Ah, that. He was referring to the day Koon had saved his life from a monster.
Gratitude was fineâbut the emotion in his eyes was far deeper than simple thanks.
âIâve already been repaid,â Koon said coldly.
âNo. Not nearly enough.â
âI donât want any more.â
His gaze sharpened. âYour feelings are⊠bothersome.â
The rejection hit like a blade. The manâs blue eyes trembled, waves rippling through them.
And yetâhis voice didnât waver.
âSo⊠you donât hate me, then?â
Oh?
Koon almost smiled. He hadnât expected defiance.
His friendâs boldness was almost amusing.
âI mean, you donât hate me, right?â the man asked again, his voice trembling.
âI suppose not. Not yet.â
âThen give me a chance. At least let me be useful. You can use me and throw me away afterward. I have two things youâll want to hear.â
âSomething Iâll regret not hearing?â
The friend nodded quickly, quoting his own letter.
âJust like you showed up here unexpectedly, there might be another unexpected guest tonight.â
âWho?â
âMontaine Bilge.â
At the name, Duke Koonâs eyes darkened.
Bilgeâthe notorious libertine of the social world, known for preying on fresh, innocent debutants.
And tonight, Koon had escorted just such a young man.
Damn it. The Zarayal heir will be in danger.
Koon moved to leave, but the friend reached out again.
âThereâs a second piece of news.â
âLater.â
âBorhumi Zab obtained information about the Sword of Serenity.â
That made him stop. The name of an enemyâand one worth killing. His expression sharpened.
âZabâs right-hand man Ottmar is already moving,â the friend added.
âWhere?â
Even as he asked, Koon calculated what price this information might cost him. But the man answered without hesitation.
âThe Sword of Serenity lies in the Forest of Crimson Tides. The entrance should beââ
He stopped.
Koon had raised a hand, silencing him. His gaze swept the surroundings, cold and lethal.
âThereâs a rat nearby.â
Whishâ
Wind surged through the dark, narrow corridor, blowing my hair into my face.
For a second, I froze. There shouldnât be wind in a sealed passage. Unlessâ
Unless something not quite human was floating there.
I tried to ignore it and pressed my ear back to the wall. The information beyond was too important to lose.
But the wind only grew stronger.
It pressed against my body, shoving me backward. I stumbled several steps until I slammed into the secret door Iâd entered through.
Thenâsilence.
Damn it!
I glared into the empty air, and there it was: a faint, translucent figure hovering before me.
And its shape looked suspiciously like⊠the back of a Bichonâs head.