Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C5
by berryChapter 5
âThe stableâs behind the main building, to the right⊠Wait here, donât go anywhere.â
I thought I heard Marvinâs name being called faintly from downstairs. He left me standing in the hall and hurried down. The moment he disappeared from sight, I turned to the spirit that had been hovering beside me this whole time.
âWhereâs your Petal?â
[When the sun blows warm breath and the gentle breeze starts to dance~ Hop on and roll forward twice, and youâll find her there~~]
So much for hoping sheâd just give me a room number. I pointed toward a nearby door.
âWhat number is written on that one?â
[Numbers are boring~~ Everything in this world grows too much when you start counting~~]
The spirit was illiterate. My sigh came out heavier than expected, and I tried again.
âThen just stand in front of her room and tell me which one it isââ
Thump, thump, thumpâŠ
Footsteps thundered up the stairs, and Marvin appeared, pale-faced.
âThe Director has arrived. She wishes to speak with you, Mr. Rue. Please come down at once.â
Unlike the frightened Marvin, the Director herself was calm. She only seemed interested in assessing my condition. Like a proper doctor, she asked several medical questions before ending with,
âYou seem to have found a bit of stability here. Tell meâdo you wish to return home?â
The woman was in her fifties, smiling pleasantly, but her eyes werenât smiling at all.
âWhy would I want to leave when Iâm comfortable here?â
If Iâd said I wanted to go home, she wouldâve probably drugged me into a relapse. After all, I was their golden gooseâa VIP patient paying for the retreatâs luxury suite. Her brow arched slightly, as if she hadnât expected that answer.
âThatâs good to hear.â
The Director kept staring at me, as if she were searching for traces of deceit. Finding none, she finally capped her pen.
âNothing else you wish to discuss?â
âNone.â
âYouâre still not seeing spirits or fairies, I assume?â
âOf course not.â
Her gaze sharpened again.
âYou used to panic whenever those were mentioned. But now youâre completely calm?â
âThatâs the medicineâs doing. Itâs been helping me relax.â
I answered before Mo could feed me a line. It wasnât hard to piece togetherâno matter how strong the liquor had been, there was no way Rue wouldâve drowned in a pond without something stronger in his system.
âHmm. The medicine suits you, then. You say you can already feel the effects?â
I almost forgot she said Rue had only been here three daysâbut I kept my face straight.
âYeah. Helps me sleep well too. Keep prescribing it.â
She still looked suspicious, but soon concluded the meeting. Before I could leave, however, she issued a stern warning.
âNo matter how comfortable our retreat feels, you cannot wander about as you please. Outside designated hours, you are not permitted to leave your room. Understood?â
âYes,â I answered obediently.
The moment the door slammed shut behind me, I whispered to Mo,
âIâm leaving this place today.â
[Shall I look for an escape route?]
No need. The methodâs simpleâjust make them open the doors themselves.
Once back in my room, I turned to the spirit.
âThat bell is what they use to alert everyone when monsters appear. Itâs connected throughout the whole building. Can you make it ring?â
[That scary bell~ Why would we ring it~ Letâs not~]
âBecause ringing it will open all the doors. Everyone will think thereâs danger, and all locks will disengage. That way, itâll be easier to save your Petal.â
The spiritâs expression grew serious at the mention of Petal. I frowned. Donât tell me she couldnât do it?
The pond spirits had been able to stir up the windâsurely she could too.
But the spirit fell silent for the first time. Her head dropped, tiny hands clasped tightly together, trembling slightly.
Ah. So sheâs a weak oneâcanât even control the wind.
âItâs alright. Iâll find another way.â
Trying to reassure her, I walked toward the window. Could I open it? While I tested the latch, the spirit flitted nervously around me.
I kept my focus on the window to avoid making her feel worse. There were iron bars, but the wall was brick, not concreteâif I loosened the mortar, I could pull them freeâ
[Hyuuwik!]
What? I turned at the sudden sound. The spirit was flapping her stick-like arms wildly, repeating herself.
[Hyuuwik!! Hyuuwik-nim!!]
âWhat?â
[We can ask Hyuuwik-nim for help~~~~~~~~~~~]
Her excitement stretched the words into waves. Whoeverâor whateverâHyuuwik was, it sounded like someone who could control the wind.
âReally? Perfect.â
[Perfect~ perfect~ perfect~ perfect~ perfect~ perfect~]
âŠOkay, maybe too perfect. I was tempted to tell her to stop, but she was darting around the room in joy, and I didnât have the heart to ruin her moment.
âHurry back, then. Iâll be waiting.â
The spirit waved her tiny, nail-sized hand and vanished in an instant.
Thirty minutes later, she made good on her word. The bell rang throughout the entire building.
Clang! Clang!
Footsteps thundered through the wooden halls. Locks clicked open in rapid succession. My own door burst wide.
âPlease, come out! You must evacuate! Hurry!â
âWhat? What happened?â
Feigning confusion, I stood still. The nurse, flustered, shouted back while scanning the corridor.
âA monsterâs appeared! Get to the basement shelter immediately!â
âA monster? Thatâs serious.â
I followed him out leisurely, raising my voice.
âIf we have to carry all these patients, thatâll be a real problem.â
âCarry?!â The nurse whipped around, frowning. âEveryone who can walk should escape on their own, of course! Hurry!â
âBut what about the ones who canât walk? The patients bedridden, unable to moveâdonât we have any?â
âThere arenât anyâŠ!â
He stopped mid-sentence, face turning pale. Clearly, someone had come to mind.
âDamn itâRoom 317âŠâ
He muttered a curse under his breath, looking up the stairs. I seized the opening.
âThere is a bedridden patient? Then what are you doing standing here? Didnât you say thereâs a monster? Get up there and open the room doors! If anyone dies locked inside, youâll have bigger problems!â
Normally, heâd have scolded me for saying something like thatâbut right now, the blaring emergency bell was rattling the walls.
âWhat are you waiting for? Go!â
The nurse broke into a run. The halls were chaoticâpatients and staff flooding the corridorsâso no one paid attention when I followed him up to the third floor.
Just as I hoped, he did exactly as Iâd saidâhe unlocked Room 317, then ran off without checking inside.
Perfect.
The door creaked as I pushed it open wider, glancing down the hallway to make sure it was empty. Footsteps still echoed distantly, but no one was nearby.
Time to save âPetal.â Hopefully, Rueâs body was strong enough to carry her.
ââŠYouâre tall.â
Of course, things are never that easy.
The woman lying on the bed looked to be in her mid-thirties. Though her frame was slender, she was easily a head taller than Rue. Her limbs were bound to the bed with leather straps.
What the hell happened here, that theyâd tie down an unconscious patient like this?
At least I didnât need to confirm her identity.
[Our poor Petal~~ lying so still~~ her face, oh dear~~]
I started untying the straps while muttering, âSheâll recover once she wakes up.â
[Her face is so swollen~~ round and wide~~ our Petalâs face is like a big pumpkin leaf~~]
I thought she was worried about her health, not her looks. Ignoring the spiritâs rambling, I undid the last strap and hoisted the woman onto my back.
Then I tried to stand.
âUrghââ
I barely lifted her halfway before collapsing back onto the bed.
Seriously, Rueâs body was pathetic. I knew he wasnât muscular, but this weak?
Taking a deep breath, I clenched my teeth and tried again.
Come on. How hard can it be to carry one personâ
âAh!â
This time, I shouted, forcing strength into my legs. I managed to standâbut the moment I did, my knees nearly buckled.
I stumbled forward, gasping, then froze.
The reason was simple.
I couldnât feel any weight on my back.