Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C127
by berryChapter 127
He forced the impulse down and quickened his steps. Rue narrowed his pale gray eyes like a cat, as if heâd never retreated at all. A smile Tyroc couldnât hide spread across his lips.
Didnât he know how much that defiant look turned him on? If he did, heâd probably kick up an even bigger fuss.
Just thinking about it made his lower body grow heavy. The impatience of itâraw and urgentâurged him on. Strip him right here and shove into him.
âWelcome back, Your Grace.â
Rue greeted him with a smile. Tyroc smiled back, yet the temptation he hadnât fulfilled lingered in his mind like an afterimage. Even the walk to the bedroom felt unbearable.
Noâwhy should he bear it at all? The Adeye Rue known to the world would rather strip and roll around right here in the middle of the central hall.
But the Rue before him was different. Even now, greeting him, he was keenly aware of the eyes around themâas if other peopleâs gazes made him uncomfortable.
The old Rue would never have done that. He didnât just enjoy attention; he got aroused by it. That was his innate nature.
Could someone change so completely after dying and coming back? Ridiculous. Unless another soul had entered the body.
Once the thought surfaced, it pierced his heat-hazed mind sharply.
What if he really is someone else?
What if another soul has taken over Rueâs body?
After deliberately provoking him and drawing out that kiss, the suspicion only deepened. Rue hadnât lostâheâd kissed backâbut afterward, heâd stiffened once he noticed the people watching.
If he wasnât Rue, then who was he?
The first theory that came to mind was soul-swapping through black magicâbut Tyroc discarded it almost immediately. If black magic were involved, a non-human being wouldnât be lingering near Rue.
So where had this clean soul, beloved by non-human beings, come from?
There was no answerâbut that was fine.
The hypothesis thrilled him enough to set his heart burning.
The moment his hand closed around Rueâs head, a curse-like moan slipped from Rueâs lips.
âShâ mmph.â
I want to take him right now and finish inside him.
Tyroc hugged him hard enough to crush him, barely holding back. Soon.
Bang!
The door slammed shut behind them, and my body was thrown against it, crashing into the wood with a dull thud. The impact hit meâbut there was no time to feel pain.
The man kissing me stole that luxury.
My reason was briefly overwhelmed by the heat of it all.
But once I loosened up even slightly, the kiss that had felt like it would devour me slowed. What had begun as a kiss mindful of others now belonged to just the two of us.
Tyroc noticed the subtle shift instantly.
He began to kiss me with deliberate careâchanging angles, licking, sucking. His sharpened tongue slipped between my parted lips, stirring something deep inside.
If sex numbs instinct, then kissing numbs reason.
The collision of breath and saliva sent tremors rippling from deep within me. Those fine shivers spread slowly through my body, turning dizzyingly intense.
âHahâŠâ
Unable to contain it, I let out a deep breath. Chup. His lips pulled awayâbut only to hover close.
I didnât need to see to know. His hot breath brushed my skin.
When I opened my eyes, golden light greeted meâTyrocâs eyes, shimmering like sunlit sand. Each fleck of light burned like a grain of emotion.
My heart, already racing from the kiss, thudded hard as if scorched by that heat.
Why was he looking at me like that? This was supposed to be acting.
âDid you really wait for me?â
Expectation colored his low whisper.
Doubt stirred again. Anxiety kept me from answering right away. The correct answer was obviousâI had to deceive him too.
ââŠOf course.â
At my delayed reply, he smiled brightly and pressed a light kiss to my lips.
âHow much?â
âA lot.â
âDid you miss my cock that much?â
Godâreally.
I tried not to laugh, butâ
âWhat about you, Your Grace?â
âMy cock obviously missed you.â
Smack. Our lips met again, then parted. He stayed close, whispering.
His words seeped into my skin along with his breath. It was astonishing how he could make filthy talk sound so sweet.
Instead of getting angry, laughter kept bubbling up. It was all because of that voice. That smile.
The unease from before faded, and I leaned into the performance.
I need to win this play.
âJust your cock?â
I placed my hand over his heart, then slowly slid it downward.
When my hand reached his waist, I paused.
âI missed this. When you thrust into me, Your Graceâyour waist is so pretty. AndâŠâ
As my hand moved over his abdomen, the humor drained from his golden eyes. Seeing them darken with desire, I stopped deliberately.
âAnd?â
âAndâŠâ
Murmuring, I moved my hand sidewaysâcircling his pelvis, then grabbing his ass.
âThis. I missed this. I wanted Your Graceâs first time.â
I grinned openly as disbelief flashed across his face. I wanted to push furtherâbut stopped myself.
A good start is half the battle.
Who knew? If I kept whining, maybe heâd really give in.
So for today, Iâd stop here and leave him a carrotâjust for fun.
âBut what I missed most is here.â
I thrust my hips forward, pressing my lower body close. Our cocks didnât quite touch because of the height differenceâbut I didnât need to do more.
For some reason, my provocation worked far better than expected.
Tyroc suddenly lifted me.
âLegs up.â
Even without the command, I wrapped my legs around his waist to keep from falling. His large hands caught me as if heâd been waiting for it.
He grabbed my ass hard and pulled me closer.
The cock that had been half-hard since the kiss finally collided with mine.
Hotter and harder than I remembered, that thick pillar pressed into my lower abdomen. Every nerve in my body rushed to where our skin met.
We werenât even bare, yet my breath caught in embarrassment. I hid my panting by resting my forehead against his shoulder.
His lips clung to my ear, whispering wetly.
âYou donât want to kiss again?â
Misunderstanding my reaction, he askedâbut I didnât bother correcting him. I nodded instead.
âWhy? Why donât you like it?â
His sweet voice contrasted with the way his hand gripped my ass like he meant to crush it. His other hand seized my hair.
âAh.â
I swallowed a moan and tilted my head back. Smiling, he asked again,
âIâm asking why you donât like it.â
The hands and gaze that had been so gentle now burned fiercely. I was startledâanyone might think he was angry about being rejected by someone he liked.
Noâdonât get ahead of yourself.
Heâd react like this no matter who rejected him. It wasnât because it was me.
âI canât breathe.â
I gave a simple answer and clung to him, rolling my hips slightly. Suspended in the air, the movement was smallâbut with our bodies already pressed together, it was enough.
Iâd meant to tease him, yet a sharp thrill shot through my own lower belly.
Holding my breath, I whispered,
âYouâll block something else for me anyway.â
It was a crude jokeâbut he smiled beautifully. His eyes glistened with lust, and somehow it suited him.
âPlease?â
Again with the begging?
If this kept up, shouldnât he just buy a slave?
I laughed in disbeliefâand suddenly, chup, his lips brushed mine and pulled away.
Compared to the deep kiss earlier, it was nothingâyet my heart sank harder than before.
The warmth in his gaze made it impossible to believe it was all an act.
That unease Iâd pushed down surged back.
Ignoring how stiff Iâd gone, he pressed again.
âBeg. Say hurry up and put it in.â
ââŠ.â
âRue.â
I swallowed, dropping my gaze for a moment.
No. Thereâs no way heâs serious.
Heâs just trying to lure me inâto make me his.
So whatever I say should be fine.
âHurry up and put it in.â
âCall my name.â