Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C101
by berryChapter 101
I swallowed my pride but asked just in case:
âMm⊠but does the Koon family have any particularly unusual rulesâŠ?â
âTheyâre ordinary. Nothing anyone would object to.â
Well, that was a relief. I nodded. I wanted to hear at least one concrete example, but since I couldnât reveal my condition yet, I had no right to ask for details either.
Ordinary was good. Ordinary meant safe.
And once relief settled in, urgency followed immediately.
âI want this promise written as a contract.â
âAs you wish.â
âŠSeriously?
The suspicion I had been forcibly stomping down popped up again like a whack-a-mole. But this wasnât the moment to waste time being suspicious.
What mattered most was documenting this while he was still in this strange, agreeable state.
I darted my eyes toward his desk, looking for paperâwhen he suddenly extended a hand toward me.
A handshake?
I lifted my gaze, but froze when I saw his expression.
His smile⊠felt wrong. Uneasy.
Shut up, instinct. Not now.
Grab it. You canât afford to lose this chance.
Even if heâd extended a foot, I would have grabbed that.
The moment I reached out, his large hand engulfed mine before I even touched him.
His hand was so much bigger that mine nearly disappeared inside itâlike being locked in a cage.
And maybe because of that feeling, a strange unease washed over me despite the situation being in my favor.
âIâd like to write the contract first.â
âAll right.â
But contrary to the words, he didnât release my hand.
He simply stared at me.
Was this some kind of test?
I asked again to make sure.
âYou will truly grant me one requestâwhatever it may be?â
âYes.â
As he answered, he squeezed my hand suddenlyâhard enough to make me flinch.
Heat shot up my arm as if Iâd been burned.
âIn my name. Koon Tyroc.â
He paused, then spoke an unfamiliar word.
âLam.â
Lam? What was that supposed to mean?
But before I could ask, he continued:
âAnd you?â
âI⊠I will uphold the Koon familyâs rules and devote myself to our married life.â
âAnd say your name properly.â
âYes. In my nameâAdeye Rue.â
âLam.â
Again with that strange word.
It seemed like I was expected to repeat it, so I echoed it obediently:
âLam.â
But what did it even meanâ?
That question died the moment his golden eyes shimmered like stars.
âŠWow.
I hadnât known human eyes could look like that.
I must have spaced out, because his deep voice snapped me back.
âFor the record, you cannot withdraw from this agreement.â
âOf course.â
I matched his tone with one just as firm.
That seemed to please him; his face lit with a bright smile.
But⊠why?
It was just a handshake.
Solongo had rushed back alone after dropping Rue at the Koon estate because she was worried about her mistress.
She had delivered the good news for Madam Lantuaâs healthâbut the bad news would also find its way soon enough.
Better the mistress heard it from her than from rumors.
But she was too late.
âShe has already received a full report of everything that occurred during the Whitebranch Assembly.â
Another attendantâs words made Solongo wince.
At least Lantua hadnât fainted this time.
But half-reclined on the bed, respirator over her mouth, she looked ready to collapse any moment.
âMadamâŠâ
Solongo called softly, but there was no response.
One would think sheâd first ask about Rueâs situation at House Koon, but instead Lantua kept staring sharply at the report.
At last, after removing the respirator, the first name she uttered wasâ
âSo, Ma Hoiga, is it.â
Her eyes flickered viciously above the report.
âSolongo.â
âYes, Madam.â
âThe Ma family is famous for their filial affection. No matter how ridiculous Hoiga behaves, they support and encourage him wholeheartedly, donât they?
How fortunate he must be in such a family. So very fortunate.â
Dr Kim had shown no overt anger toward the traitor, but the underlying frost in her voice was lethal.
Solongo understood perfectly why she was furious.
If betraying their original world had been influencedâeven a littleâby the happiness he found here, then no reason could be more unforgivable.
âAnd to think, Madam always praised the Ma familyâs unity and affection.â
That wasnât all. Solongo sighed quietly.
âBecause of that goodwill, Madam tolerated their merchant guild copying the Adeye guild so openly, as long as they didnât cross the line.â
âYes. I practically helped push my enemy forward.â
Dr Kim spoke flatly, eyes still glued to the detailed report on the Whitebranch Assembly.
âSo Hoiga revealed his true self there?â
âYes. Not only did his appearance change, but his speech became calm and slow. Hoiga has always been known for talking quickly.
AhâMadam has never met him in person, correct?â
âIâve seen him from a distance. At the temple ceremony three years ago.
He was one of the few who treated Rue as a friend, so I observed him.
He was smiling among his family, blushing because they teased him.â
Her eyes sharpened as she recalled it.
âPeople show their true selves only when unguarded.
He didnât seem loud or flamboyant at all.
So I wondered how someone like that could behave the way rumors claimed.â
âArenât nanorobots responsible for that, according to the informant?â
Dr Kimâs lips twisted faintly.
âIndeed. Unlike Rue, he must have used them flawlessly.â
Solongo let out a short ah.
TrueâRue had every opportunity to execute a perfect disguise too.
The nanorobots should have fed him lines and behaviors to follow.
But Rue would never follow instructions he found distasteful.
He only excused himself with, I died and came back, thatâs why my personality changed.
âTo think he maintained such a flawless disguise. The traitor is not someone to underestimate.â
âNo, he isnât.
Had he met me in person, he may have immediately suspected I was the informant.â
But luck had been on her side.
Her poor health had kept her from crossing paths with him directly.
âThatâs why we cannot let this chance slip.â
Dr Kim reached for a paper and pen on the table.
After a few coughs, she wrote swiftly and passed the sheet to Solongo.
Solongoâs eyes gleamed with fierce determination as she read it.
âDoes this mean we can finally strike the sly Ma guild?â
âWe must.
If the Ma family is Hoigaâs happiness, then crushing them is only fair.â
Dr Kim let out a soft laugh, eyes glittering dangerously.
âBut weâll do it slowlyâso slowly that one day, when they finally come to their senses, theyâll realize theyâre already at the edge of a cliff.
Only then will the fall hurt most.
Solongo, show them who truly stands at the top of Tuvine.â
Why?
The question clung to my mind even on the carriage ride back to the Adeye estate.
Why wasnât Tyroc verifying whether I was the Savior?
Why didnât he ask about my condition?
He had to know such vagueness could end up hurting him.
But my biggest âwhyâ came from somewhere else entirely.
âWhat a terribly inattentive fiancĂ©.â
Tyrocâs voice made that question explode in size.
Why was he in the carriage with me?
And why was he staring at me like thatâeyes locked, lips faintly curvedâevery time our gazes met?
Meanwhile, every time he smiled, my expression stiffened.
âMe?â
âYouâre sitting beside me yet thinking about something else.â
If I jokingly said, Iâm thinking only of you, he might actually misunderstand, so I spouted nonsense:
âNo, I was sleeping with my eyes open.â
âOh, because even asleep you longed to look at me?â
His smile grew; my face hardened. Was he picking a fight?
âArenât you busy?â
âI am.â
Then why was he here?!
But I knew the answer.
When Iâd stared at him incredulously as he tried to board the carriage, heâd smiled brightly and said:
âOf course I must escort my fiancĂ© home.â
Naturally, I panicked and refused, but he cut me off smoothly:
âYou were so in love with me that you proposed, remember? Escorting you is the least I can do.â
Right.
The world believed I had proposed out of infatuation.
Which meant I couldnât refuse the escort publicly.
Especially with all the servantsâand Rickâwatching with hawk eyes.