Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C111
by berryChapter 111
If the box had contained the most precious gold and jewels in the world, she would have thrown it away without hesitation.
But reality was the complete opposite.
Inside lay a single, insignificant leaf.
Its shape, however, was unusual. It split into five lobes like a maple leaf, yet the tips were blunt like human fingers, and the divisions ran unusually deep.
This plant grew only in one remote region at the very edge of the Tuvine continentâBlack Bearâs homeland. But the last time she had seen that tree had been decades ago.
Because her homeland no longer existed.
On the day she fled in desperation and looked back, her home was burning red beneath enemy attacks. As if that werenât enough, the invaders used magic to ensure that no one could ever return, turning the land into a dead zone.
She was the sole survivor.
And so began a long, drawn-out period of vengeance.
Yet throughout that prolonged struggle, defeat was always Black Bearâs.
No matter how much damage she dealt, her enemies remained vast and unshakable. And then, three years ago, at the brink of death, she met Adeye Lantua.
Absurdly enough, Lantua showed no concern at all for who Black Bearâs enemies were. Instead, she asked something strange about her homeland.
âYou said there were a lot of native plants there, right?â
As it turned out, she was searching for a particular plantâone that did not exist in Black Bearâs homeland. And only then did Black Bear realize that her life had been saved for the sake of that simple confirmation.
âThatâs all you wanted to know?â
âYeah.â
ââŠâŠThen you wasted your effort. Thereâs nothing to gain from saving me.â
âIs there, though? You said there was a tree with finger-shaped leaves. Thatâs fascinating.â
âItâs gone now. Everything there is dead.â
âThatâs only how it looks to people. If itâs restored properly, something might still sprout.â
Youâd do that? Why? Just because it was interesting?
Black Bear couldnât understand it. Lantua had no connection to that land whatsoever. Yet she spoke as if it were nothing.
âIâll bring it back to life, then.â
âWhy?â
âBecause Tuvineâs nature isnât at fault.â
The answer was completely unexpected.
Black Bear sensed there might be deeper meaning behind it, but she didnât ask. She simply assumed it was the idle fancy of a wealthy woman bored with life. Besides, it couldnât possibly succeed.
Or so she thought.
Then the box arrived.
Inside was a leaf from her homeland.
Only then did Black Bear remember the last conversation sheâd had with Lantua.
âIf I succeed in growing the tree?â
âThen youâll have repaid your homelandâs debt.â
It was nothing more than a single leaf.
Yet to Black Bear, it was heavier than any debt she had ever carried.
And for the first time in a very long while, she returned to her homeland.
Enemies still lurked around the region, waiting for her in case she ever reappeared. Even knowing that, she needed to see it with her own eyes.
There it was.
Land owned and managed by the Adeye Trading Company.
And growing there were several saplings, chest-high, all bearing leaves shaped like fingers.
That was why Black Bear chose to repay the debt willingly. It didnât matter if the person she was to protect was infamous for scandalous rumors.
Yet Adeye Rue, whom she met at Crystal Lake, was nothing like the rumors described.
Despite a body on the verge of collapse, he tried to hide Duke Tyroc and his mage.
Black Bear watched as Rue nearly lost his grip on his injured companions again and again, yet never gave up, carrying them to safety.
At first she was shocked. Then she became curiousâjust how far would he go?
Then she witnessed something unbelievable.
After securing his companions, Rue went back to face the monster.
That wasnât all.
Even after suffering a grievous wound to his leg from a monster bursting up from the ground, instead of fleeing, he tightened his grip on his club.
And when he heard Black Bearâs name as she rushed in to help, his response wasâ
âNo! Nghâanother monsterâs coming upâŠâŠ Bear, youâre in danger!â
How many people could worry about a mere animalâno, about someone who wasnât even humanâin such a moment?
By looking into his eyes, Black Bear knew his concern was genuine.
âYouâre precious.â
Precious.
The Rue from that moment overlapped strangely with the Lantua who had gazed out the window long ago.
Black Bear slowly sat down on the rock and muttered in disbelief.
âThose siblings really are identical. Like people from another world.â
Bang.
The office door slammed shut behind me, but unlike my legs that had moved on their own, my mind felt frozen.
The sheer absurdity of Tyrocâs words made them hard to process. And accepting reality took time.
Why?
Why did sleeping together even come up?
And what was with that vulgar sexual harassment? Was this a new kind of provocation?
I was so dazed that I didnât notice Rick calling me several times from the side.
ââŠRue-nim, Rue-nim!â
I turned my head slowly. Rick stared at me as if to say whatâs wrong with you?
I looked at him blankly.
About the same height as Rue. Glasses. An ordinary face. Pale skin, thin build, dark circles so deep he always looked exhausted. Even setting that aside, he wasnât the type people would call attractiveâhe looked unpopular at a glance.
But this was Tuvine. For all I knew, he might have slept around just like everyone else.
Right. This is that obscene hell called Tuvine.
âIf youâre finished, please return to your roomâhuh? Huh?!â
I grabbed the hem of his shirt and dragged him into a far corner.
âWh-what are you doing? I have an urgent report for the Dukeââ
âRick.â
I cut him off abruptly.
âAre you a mo-sol?â(âSingle since birthâ)
ââŠExcuse me? A mo-sol? What does that mean?â
âHave you ever dated anyone?â
Rickâs face stiffened immediately.
âNo matter if you are the Dukeâs fiancĂ©e, I refuse to answer such personal questions.â
Oh, so youâre fine with all kinds of lewd talk, but this is where you draw the line?
I reflected briefly on whether Iâd been unfairly stereotyping Tuvine, then apologized.
âSorry. And⊠itâs hard to believe youâve never dated.â
Rick turned his head away without answering.
Anyone could tellâhe hadnât.
That wasnât surprising. But what I wanted to ask next was such an invasion of privacy that I hesitated. Seeing my expression, Rick leaned back warily.
âWhat exactly are you curious about?â
âI was just wondering if you live like other Tuvine people. You know. Meeting people.â
Horror flashed across his face.
âWhy on earth are you curious about my love life? Youâd do better asking about my favorite position.â
ââŠWhat did you say?â
âPositions. Or my sexual preferences. Asking about d-dating crosses a line.â
I barely restrained the urge to smack him with a stick for crossing my line as an Earthling.
âMy favorite position is missionary, but especially when one legââ
âThatâs enough! Donât answer!â
I stopped him in panic, and Rick looked genuinely wounded.
You asked first, his eyes accused.
Since Rick was Tyrocâs chief aide and I needed to stay on decent terms, I forcibly cranked up my social skills.
âWell, you probably donât need help there anyway.â
ââŠâŠâ
He turned his head away again.
Are you bad at it? No. I didnât want to know. Donât imagine it.
As I was scolding myself internally, he cleared his throat.
âAhem, well, even with missionaryââ
âEnough. So you sleep together before dating, then?â
âWhy ask something so obvious? You have to see if your bodies match before dating.â
He looked at me oddly again.
Right. Why did I ask? I thought I understood Tuvine, but maybe I only understood it intellectuallyânot emotionally.
After hearing Tyrocâs nonsense and then applying it to myself, I was only now coming to my senses.
Misinterpreting my silence, Rick probed cautiously.
âAre you perhaps curious about the Dukeâs love life?â
Before I could answer, he cut in firmly.
âI absolutely cannot disclose the Dukeâs past relationships.â
âI donât want to know.â
I replied irritably. He eyed me suspiciously, so I shrugged as if it were the truth.
âWho he met in the past doesnât matter.â
âWell, Tuvine men all sleep around, so I suppose you wouldnât care.â
ââŠNot all of them.â
âThen what are you curious about?â
ââŠJustâwhether sleeping with someone is nothing special to His Grace. Even without feelings.â
The moment I said it, I realized how strange it was.
Why was I asking this?
Of course it was nothing special. Why did I need to confirm it?
It wasnât like he was asking me to sleep with him because he liked meâ
âYes. Of course.â
Rickâs firm answer pierced straight through my thoughts, and suddenly I felt embarrassed for cornering him like this.
Right. It was obvious.
Then came a cold warning.
âSo even if you spend an incredible night with His Grace, donât misunderstand it as affection.â
âI wonât. We havenât had such a night anyway.â
Tap.
Rick stepped back suddenly, his entire body radiating shock.
âWhat is it?â
âYou proceeded with the engagement without even testing compatibility?!!!!â
That startled me. What was so shocking about that?
âThis is unbelievable!!!!â