Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C43
by berryChapter 43
The Diamondâs warning echoed all around, a deep, resonant hum that seemed to reverberate through the air itself. At that sound, my senses snapped back into focus, and I became aware of my situation.
Ah, rightâI’d fallen into the pond⊠I have to get back upâŠ
But even lifting my head felt impossible.
The light above wasnât helpingâit pulled at me, drawing me deeper instead of up. My body was being dragged down, swallowed by the depths. Again, I heard the Diamond shouting something.
[Iâll⊠hhhyyuuu~ report this properly to the Masteeerrr!]
But I couldnât afford to listen. My only focus was escaping that blinding light. No matter how desperately I struggled, I couldnât riseâor even stop myself from sinking.
The moment I realized there was no escaping that light, and resignation began to take hold, someone seized my wrist with a powerful grip.
In the next instant, my body was yanked out of the water.
Splash!
âCough, coughâhaah, haâŠâ
Water poured off me like a waterfall, heavy as lead, pulling me back down. I doubled over, coughing and choking, clutching at the person who had caught me.
Thanks to them, I didnât tumble back into the pondâbut I couldnât even stand properly.
It felt as though every ounce of strength had drained out of me, and my head spun dizzily as the world blurred around me.
Whatâs happening to me?
Grinding my teeth, I grabbed hold of the wet fabric of the clothes before me, forcing myself to stay conscious. The person was soaked just like I was.
I lifted my head without thinkingâand realized who was holding me up.
Golden eyes stared down at me, sharp and consuming, as if they could devour me whole. The light in them was so intense that I forgot who I was facing; I was caught, helplessly drawn in.
Thump, thump, thump.
My heart pounded violently under that gaze, loud enough to drown out all thought. I should have been trying to regain my senses, yet I was losing them, mesmerized by anotherâs eyes.
Pathetic. I truly was pathetic.
And yetâI couldnât look away.
Strangely, those golden eyes werenât mocking or scornful; they were grave, piercingly so. Maybe thatâs why I couldnât even think of turning away.
There wasnât a single rational thought left in me reminding me that this wasnât the time for such a gaze.
Whether it was fortune or misfortune, the one with the golden eyes moved first. His gaze lowered slightlyâstopping somewhere below.
Where was he looking⊠my lips?
Heat surged through me like wildfire.
Whyâwhy was heâ
Confusion tangled with the strange flutter in my chest. The brief yet suffocating tension shattered when a shout rang out.
âWhat on earth happened?! Whereâs the Diamond? What happened to the Diamond?!â
GolumÂč cried out, almost in anguish. Instinctively, I turned toward the soundâbut then my body was suddenly lifted off the ground.
Whatâwhat the hell? Why is he carrying me?!
Before I could react, I was cradled in Tyrocâs arms. Shocked, I shoved at him, glaring upward.
âPut me down. What are youââ
âDid you go near the Nonhuman Realm?â
What?
The blinding light that had pulled me down flashed in my mind, and I couldnât answer.
Meanwhile, Tyroc carried me out of the pond in a bridal hold, speaking in a low, quiet voice meant for me alone.
âI told you, didnât I? An uninvited human dies upon entry. Even just approaching it drains your life force until you perish⊠Adeye Rue, stay awake!â
His sharp command barely reached me.
My vision swayed violently, and it felt like I was tumbling through a rollercoaster of dizziness. I couldnât even keep my eyes open before consciousness faded completely.
âI never imagined that pond would be a passage to the Nonhuman World.â
When High Priest Chegi found herself alone with her disciple, she finally gave voice to her astonishment.
Adeye Rue, who had gone to the pondâs center to dispose of the Diamond, had suddenly vanished beneath the surface as if something below had seized him.
Then a faint light had flared up from that spot. Few had witnessed itâonly those sensitive to divine power: the High Priestess, her disciple Ariona, and one other.
The man who had leapt into the pond after RueâTyroc.
âThe rainbow shimmer⊠could it be the Forest of Crimson Tides?â
Ariona asked, and the High Priestess nodded with certainty.
âYes. Thereâs no other place that emits such light. Iâve heard the Central Temple was built on this site because of its connection to that forest.â
âHow could Adeye Rue possibly have found it?â
Chegiâs face twisted in displeasure at the memory of his audacious defiance toward her.
âHmph. No doubt he was bewitched by the Demon Kingâs Tear. Youâve seen how others have fallen under its spell, havenât you? Adeye Rue is no different. Only, since he possessed it, the corruption must have run deeper. Thatâs why the Diamond chose himâto lure him into the pond.â
âI seeâŠâ Ariona murmured, looking somewhat reassured.
âWhen I first saw the Diamond myself, I couldnât think of anything else. It was so beautiful that all I wanted was to hold it.â
âExactly. Even a disciplined cleric like you wavered. Imagine how much worse it was for Adeye Rue. He must have been completely under its control. Still, to recklessly step into the pond like thatâŠâ
Chegi clicked her tongue. âIf Grand Duke Tyroc hadnât acted, the Temple wouldâve suffered a grave scandal today. The Adeye family is our greatest patron, after all.â
It wasnât Rueâs death that she fearedâit was the chaos the Templeâs benefactors would raise if their patronâs heir perished under her watch.
âBut will he be all right? He didnât look well,â Ariona said softly, recalling the scene. Adeye Rue collapsing wasnât surprisingâbut what truly disturbed him was Tyroc. The way heâd leapt into the pond without hesitation, just to save him.
âHe will not be all right,â his master replied coldly. Ariona lifted his gaze, startled.
Chegiâs expression was glacial. Rueâs stubbornness in bringing the Diamond into the pond had clearly offended her deeply.
âIf Adeye Rue truly reached the Forest of Crimson Tides, it would be no surprise if he died by tonight. Even we, blessed with divine power, cannot enter that place without risk. For a mere human to dareâhow foolish.â
She shook her head with disdain.
âIf Grand Duke Tyroc had hesitated even a moment longer, heâd have been too late. I thought he despised the Adeyes, yet⊠it seems the righteous blood of the Koons cannot be so easily denied.â
At her murmured remark, Ariona lowered his head to hide his expression. Tyrocâs act of bravery should have inspired admirationâbut the image of Adeye Rue in his arms twisted his heart with jealousy.
I⊠I want to be held like that too. How can I possibly get closer to the Grand Duke?
âBy the way, Master,â Ariona said suddenly, âdidnât you mention finding clues about the Koon familyâs curse?â
âI did,â Chegi replied. âI discovered something promising in an ancient document. Tomorrow, I plan to conduct a secret analysis at the Ma Familyâs library.â
âPleaseâallow me to assist you with the interpretation,â Ariona said eagerly.
Normally, Chegi would have praised her discipleâs zealâbut this time, she did not.
His eyes were too earnest, his feelings too transparent.
After a pause, Chegi said firmly,
âDo not let your heart fall too deeply for the Grand Duke.â
Flinch.
Arionaâs shoulders jerked, his head bowing lower. Seeing the visible tremor, Chegi sighed deeply.
âI know how hard it is to turn away once affection takes root. But do not forget our purpose. Grand Duke Tyroc is vital to Tuvineâs futureâbut only in that regard. I worry that your feelings for him may someday wound you.â
Despite his teacherâs concern, Ariona gave no answerâneither denial nor promise.
In the end, Chegi sighed again and relented.
âVery well. You may accompany me tomorrow.â
âThank you!â
Arionaâs face lit up, and Chegi let out a helpless chuckle at his unrestrained joy.
But Arionaâs smile soon faded as a new thought struck him.
âMaster⊠do you truly think Adeye Rue will not survive?â
âWho can say? Perhaps his family head will employ every means to keep him alive. It wouldnât be the first time heâs returned from deathâs door.â
Chegi clicked her tongue again, but she noticed her discipleâs face had gone grave.
âWhat troubles you?â
âItâs just⊠Adeye Rue feels entirely different now.â
âAh, yes, Iâve heard the same. But itâs only natural. Surviving a demonic attack would change anyone. Humans are foolish, yesâbut sometimes, they are transformed by near-death itself.â
Despite those words, Ariona bit his lip and kept his head bowed. Chegi sighed softly and patted his shoulder.
âAdeye Rue is not someone worth our concern. Besides,â she added, voice low,
âHe has now brushed against the Nonhuman Realm. Even if he wakes, he will never recover his former health.â