Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C95
by berryChapter 95
A broad smile hung on Killuâs lips, yet his eyes were the complete oppositeâferocious, fixed on Hoiga as though to tear him apart. Hoiga stiffened his jaw, forcing himself not to shrink, and met that gaze head-on.
âItâs truly fortunate to be of one mind with Your Grace. Then may I take your words to mean that Montaine is willing to actively assist in summoning the other familiesâ Divine Beasts? If so, the solution is simpleâyou need only grant me access to Montaineâs ancient records.â
Hoiga made the request, clearly hoping Killu would back off. Indeed, the smile Killu had so carefully maintained vanished for an instant. But the words that left his mouth were the opposite of what Hoiga hoped for.
âOf course. For the Savior to appear at a time when Tuvine stands at the brink of catastropheâis that not truly the will of the gods? Naturally, we will provide all information you require.â
Ttak.
Hoiga stepped back, his expression stiffening at the unexpected reply. But Killu swiftly seized his wrist.
âHowever, there is one unfortunate matter. Montaineâs ancient records may only be viewed by members of the Montaine house. Thus, there is only one method.â
He raised Hoigaâs hand and pressed a kiss to the back of it.
âMa Hoiga, will you become my consort?â
The abrupt proposal fell like a bucket of cold water. Silence swept through the chamber, and every gaze turned toward Hoiga.
âIâŠâ
He finally opened his mouth, taking a step back. Killu tightened his grip on Hoigaâs hand and spoke as if the thought had just occurred to him.
âAh, do you perhaps require permission from someone akin to your masterâHigh Priest Chegi? Then allow me to inform you: she already knows of my intentions and has granted her approval.â
At the mention of Chegiâs name, Hoigaâs face drained of color.
It was a threat disguised as a question. Accept my proposal.
Hoigaâs hand trembled. But the words he managed to force out were not the answer Killu wanted.
âIâI will confirm that later. For now, I must first request something from the Grand Duke of Koon. The Koon family, having long led the Divine Beast clans, is most likely in possession of crucial information.â
It was a roundabout explanation, yet unmistakably a refusal. And when he even tried to slip his hand free, Killuâs eyebrow twitched sharply.
âYour Grace.â
Hoiga called out firmly, clearly asking to be released. Killu glared at him butâaware of the eyes watchingâfinally relented.
Ttak.
He let go and stepped back.
âSo you require Koonâs ancient records⊠Yet those are kept within the Koon familyâs main stronghold, where no outsiders may enter. I wonder if the Grand Duke can truly be of assistance to you.â
At last, he shifted aside, and Hoiga found himself facing Tyroc. A wave of inexplicable unease washed over him.
There was no urgency, no greed, not even anger in Tyrocâs eyes. Still the gaze of a spectator.
Why? Iâm the only one who can break the curseâŠ
Without realizing it, Hoiga stepped forward.
âIf I can break the curse, will you grant me access to the ancient records?â
Killuâs brows twisted in displeasure. Tyroc, on the other hand, tilted his head slightly, lips curling faintly.
âKoonâs records, too, may only be viewed by family. Just like Montaineâs.â
Tyrocâs voice was neither loud nor forceful, yet he drew more attention than anyone else. His relaxed posture, low tone, and detached expressionâall so unlike the other Divine Beast familiesâcompelled every eye toward him.
âThus, even for the Savior⊠one must become a member of House Koon.â
As he rose from his seat, all eyes followed him upward. During that brief motion, Hoiga felt his breath stop; even a finger would not obey him.
In contrast, his heartbeat pounded as though it would burst. At any moment, the proposal he had longed for felt ready to spill from Tyrocâs lips. Expectation swelled inside him like an expanding balloon.
He focused so intensely that he could perceive even Tyrocâs smallest movementsâsuch as his gaze flicking, momentarily, somewhere else.
Huh? Where is he looking�
Hoiga tried to follow that gaze, but Tyroc shifted his eyes againâthis time back to Hoiga. Yet something was wrong.
Tyroc still hadnât spoken, but the blazing anticipation that had filled Hoiga to the very top suddenly drained away like a receding tide.
As if his instincts recognized the answer before it was spoken.
Heâs⊠going to refuse me?
Hngh.
A breath snagged in his throat as Hoigaâs heart plummeted.
N-no⊠that canât⊠pleaseâŠ
His internal cry trembled with fear.
And just as his powerless eyes fixed on Tyrocâs opening lipsâ
A new voice cut in.
âIâll gladly become a member. After allâI am the real Savior!â
I never thought of myself as impulsive. But after fighting monsters for so long, my improvisational instincts had sharpened. When your life is at stake, you donât get the luxury of planning several steps ahead.
Perhaps thatâs whyâthe words I blurted out now felt not the least bit embarrassing. Thatâs how urgent the situation was.
There was no universe in which I allowed that traitor to become Tyrocâs partner. Over my dead body.
Ttak, ttak.
As I strode quickly toward the center, countless eyes followed me. Yet I saw only one person.
Only his expression mattered. And goodâperfect, even. Hoiga stared at me with widened eyes, overflowing with shock and disgust.
Ahh, so you really did despise Adeye Rue all this time?
I nearly burst into laughter, but restrained myself. Instead, I feigned surprise.
âYouâre a Savior too? Wowâme too!â
âRue, what on earth are youââ
âWho knew prophecy was part of the Savior requirements? I can do prophecy too!â
Mo wasnât helping me, but with the traitor right in front of me, the crude tone slid out naturally. Around us, scoffs erupted from the onlookers. Annoyance and scolding echoed in every direction.
âTch, Adeye Rue.â
âI heard heâd come to his senses, but heâs exactly the same. Barging in anywhere just for attention.â
One person openly shouted at me.
âDo you know where you stand? Step back at once!â
The Borhumi representative. I flashed him a wide grin.
âWould you like to hear my prophecy? Itâs about the Borhumi Divine Beast.â
He flinched. Even someone who looked completely out of his mind could not be dismissed so easily when their Divine Beast was mentioned.
âWhat nonsenseââ
âAdeye Rue! This is not your place. Step down immediately!â
Someone from Sarne snapped at me, but I ignored him and addressed the Borhumi representative again.
âThe Borhumi Divine Beast will return. Because it did not perish.â
âNo.â
The denial came not from Borhumi, but from Hoigaâhis eyes still filled with hatred. I turned to him with a smile I had been waiting to show.
âNo?â
âYes, no. I⊠I donât know why youâre doing this but if the Divine Beast didnât disappear, then the monster rift wouldnâtââ
âIf the Divine Beast abandons Borhumi, it can.â
Hoigaâs eyes, full of contempt for my earlier words, shiftedâbecoming slightly more serious.
âWhat are you talking about?â
âThe Borhumi Divine Beast ended its contract and left. Its protection is gone. What, arenât you the Savior? You didnât know that?â
I gave him the most obnoxious smirk I could muster.
Maybe because of my attitude, everyone looked bewildered and irritatedâyet unable to dismiss my words outright.
Truth didnât matter. What mattered was making the traitor sufferâwhether through anger, despair, or humiliation.
Hoiga, despite distrusting me, asked seriously:
âWhy would the Divine Beast end its contract?â
âWhy do you think?â
I spoke briefly and then turned my gaze toward Borhumiâs side.
âYou imprisoned your Divine Beast after being deceived by a black mage, ignored the sacred lake, and complained endlessly as its power weakened.â
I paused, then voiced the true reason I had only guessed at before.
Why had the Divine Beast appeared before me to declare the contract over? Likely because of something that spilled from Zabâs mouth at that very moment. Those whining wordsâ
âDamn it, this trainingâIf training was ever going to work, we wouldnât have needed to imprison the Divine Beast! Iâm done with training, you hear me?â
And now I understood something clearlyâ
what the Borhumi Divine Beast liked.
Training.
It wanted the human who received its power to at least cherish that power.
A small, simple condition, really.
âWhy shouldnât a Divine Beast abandon someone who receives such immense power yet canât be bothered to do something as basic as training?â
Borhumiâs representatives glared at me with hostility.
âAdeye Rue. Are you saying the Divine Beast did not vanish but simply will not grant power to Borhumi again? How could you possibly know that?â
âI heard it from the Divine Beast.â
The words fell carelessly from my lips as I turned back to Hoiga. Silence blanketed the chamberâbefore incredulous laughter spread among the crowd.
Only Hoiga did not laugh. He stared at me.