Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C112
by berryChapter 112
âLower your voice.â
I glanced around and hurriedly warned him, but Rickâcompletely shakenâshouted as if he wanted the entire world to hear.
âWhat on earth was the Duke thinking, skipping something that important?! No matter if youâre a Savior, this is unacceptable!!!â
As Rick grew more agitated by the second, my own mind cooled rapidly.
Figures. Tuvine, after all.
Rightâsuggesting we sleep together didnât mean anything here.
Feeling foolish for grabbing Rick and getting dragged into this conversation, I turned to leave. But his next outburst stopped me in my tracks.
âIf your bodies donât match, how are you supposed to spend an entire lifetime together?! You should at least check now and call off the engagementâ!â
What? Call off the engagement?
I shot him a murderous glare, and he barely managed to swallow the rest of his words. Honestly, I was speechless.
âIâm a Savior, you know?â
âBut youâre going to make the partnerâs vow at the wedding, arenât you? That means spending your entire life as partners! Imagine realizing youâre incompatibleâhow do you think His Grace would feel?!â
I really didnât want to discuss this with anyone else, but the injustice made my true feelings slip out.
âIâm really good, you know.â
Rickâs eyes, as he looked at me, were merciless.
âDo you think Iâm deaf? Iâve heard everything. Apparently, youâre terrible.â
ââŠMe?â
I pointed at myself, utterly incredulous. Iâd done it so many timesâhow could I be bad? Was that even possible?
âI hear that the moment you meet someone, you grab their junk and rush to stick it in, start screaming from the very beginning, demand everything without any consideration for your partnerâand on top of that, thereâs something even worse. You burn out fast and cool off just as quickly.â
ââŠMe?â
âYes. You, Rue.â
This time Rick pointed straight at me. My gaze wavered as I stared at his finger.
So Rue was that hopeless in bed? And a legendary two-pump wonder on top of it? For the first time in a long while, I sincerely wished him a one-way ticket to hell.
âBut still, I had plenty of loversââ
âI heard most of them got sick of it after one or two times, or only came back much later when theyâd almost forgotten.â
At that point, I couldnât avoid asking.
âMo, is that true?â
[An extremely objective assessment.]
Damn it. So because Rue couldnât maintain a long-term relationship, he slept around with anyoneâand of course his libido was sky-high on top of thatâŠ
I pressed a hand to my forehead and squeezed my eyes shut. Still, I didnât want to admit I was incompetent enough to call off a marriage. Desperately, I dragged out one of Rueâs remaining strengths.
âBut I mean, Iâm⊠pretty good with my hips.â
âYes, Iâve heard that too.â
Rick agreed readily, which somehow made me feel even worse. Worse still, he took a step back, subtly shielding his groin with his hand.
I donât want to touch it either, okay?!
But Rueâs infamous reputation blocked any righteous anger. Still, backing down like this hurt my prideâespecially with Rick saying it so bluntly.
âHaa. Poor Duke.â
âI could be pitiful too, you know.â
âPfft.â
âDid you just laugh?â
âNo. Ahem.â
Rick hastily smoothed his twisted lips.
âRue-nim, His Grace is the very man you used to sing about wanting to sleep with every time you got drunk. Have you forgotten? The Dukeâs enormousââ
âAh, not that.â
I waved frantically, cutting him off before things got worse.
âSkill matters too, you know. And more importantly, setting the moodââ
âRue-nim.â
He interrupted again, sighing as he looked at me like I was hopeless.
âAre you worried His Grace might be bad in bed? If so, throw that concern away. After just one night with him, youâll become a slave. And the next day, youâll come to me in tears, asking how to capture his heart.â
Rick shook his head as if speaking from experience and walked off, leaving me alone in the corner of the corridor.
All that filled my head were Dr. Kimâs warnings, flashing like neon signs.
If you let your guard down, your body will fall firstâand your heart will be stolen whole, tsk tsk.
Sheâd worried Tyroc might try to bind me through sex. And if that really was his intention?!
A chill ran down my spine. Who was Tyroc, after all? A man whose true schemes were impossible to read behind that smiling face. It was entirely plausible.
Damn it.
Clenching my fist, I turned away.
I wonât fall for it.
Iâll seduce him instead.
Knock, knock.
Rick entered Tyrocâs office with a heavier heart than ever. To think His Grace had impulsively promised marriage to Adeye Rue without even confirming physical compatibilityâŠ
Seeing Tyroc lost in thought, unaware of his presence, made Rickâs chest ache.
So heâd abandoned personal happiness entirely, choosing only the clan. And if Rue wasnât truly a Savior, what then?
Montaine had already secured another Savior and was growing bolder, preparing to strike at Koon. And that wasnât allâSarne, which had barely maintained neutrality, realized that Koonâs divine beast hadnât perished and immediately turned hostile.
That was the report Rick had come to deliver.
âYour Grace, weâve received word from Sarne.â
Though reluctant to interrupt, Rick spoke carefully, given the gravity of the situation. Yet Tyroc remained motionless, gaze fixed on the desk like a doll.
What was he thinking? The document he was looking at was⊠a marriage contract?
âRick.â
Rick immediately averted his eyes, pretending heâd seen nothing.
âYes, Your Grace.â
âDo you know about the partnerâs vow?â
Huh? Out of nowhere?
Rick nodded, confused.
âOf course.â
âYou know how itâs done too?â
âCertainly. Even children know that.â
âOrdinary people canât enforce the vow, though.â
That was true. Only those with special powerâdivine authority, great magic, or the power of a divine beastâcould give the vow binding force. That was precisely why ordinary people revered and imitated it even more.
âEven without enforcement, a wedding without the vow isnât considered a real marriage.â
âYou know about sharing a new name too?â
Rick blinked again.
âOf course. Is there anyone in Tuvine who doesnât know that? Even people without partners choose a name in advance to share someday.â
âRight. No one from Tuvine wouldnât know. Even if they lost their memoriesâŠâ
What was troubling him so much? At this point, Tyroc was just as strange as Rue.
Actually, if one had to choose, Rue was far stranger. Asking about someoneâs private life like thatâhow rude.
Of course, what Rue was curious about had to be Tyrocâs private life. Yet he didnât even want to hear the answers, reacting with shock instead when told Tyroc was skilled.
That alone made him different from Tyrocâs other followers. They all spoke of Tyroc with fanatic light in their eyes.
But Rue showed none of that.
Why? He said heâd fallen for His Grace.
At that moment, Tyroc muttered something incomprehensible.
âGod, human⊠or some other unknown world?â
What did that mean?
Rick couldnât ask. Tyroc was too deep in thought. Eventually, as if giving up on an unsolvable question, Tyroc raised his head.
âRick. Report.â
Rick snapped to attention and handed over Sarneâs letter.
Tyroc read it impassively, but Rickâalready familiar with its contentsâcouldnât remain calm. Sarne had deliberately addressed the letter to Rick first, under the Koon Ducal seal.
The intent was obvious: to broadcast their stance publicly.
In short:
Since Borhumiâs divine beast had vanished, the territory should be stripped of its divine-beast clan status and transferred to another. And because Koon lacked the power to resist, they had put forward a fake SaviorââAdeye Rueââto falsely claim the divine beast still lived.
Until Rue was proven a true Savior, Sarne could no longer trust Koon or maintain any alliance.
âA declaration of war,â Tyroc said.
âYes. Theyâre effectively declaring us enemies.â
Rick asked anxiously, âWhat should we do?â
âWhat else?â Tyroc replied. âGive them exactly what they want.â
âBut Sarne possesses the ancient texts needed to lift the curseââ
âSo?â
Rick swallowed as he saw Tyrocâs smileâwarm as sunlight, yet cold as moonlight in his eyes.
âRick, when you want something from an enemy, itâs simple.â
He smiled.
âKill them. And take it.â