Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C64
by berryâWhere exactly do you see something?â
I lifted my finger and pointed straight ahead.
âThereâs a serpent that looks like a dragonâfive tails.â
ââŠâŠâ
âIâm perfectly sane. Itâs not an illusion.â
âSure.â
Whatâs with that skeptical tone?
Feeling slightly insulted, I turned to the dragon-like serpent.
âDo you have something to say toâme?â
I started politely but ended up talking casually. No way something this tiny could be a divine beast, right? Besides, didnât they say the Borhumiâs divine beast was sealed away? Yet, there was no reply.
âMo, can you hear anything?â
[No.]
So it wasnât talking to me? I thought this little thing was the one I owed a debt to, but maybe not. My mind was drowning in question marks when the serpentâs tails began to moveâslowly, deliberately.
They stretched like rubber, then two of them twisted together, forming a shape.
It looked⊠like Hangul consonants? âă ăŽâ? What the hell? I muttered without thinking, half joking,
âAre you trying to say hi?â
The tails moved again.
âă ă .â
Wait. What the hellâ?
A chill crept down my spine. Surely it didnât mean âììââthe Korean shorthand for yeah yeah, right? That was ridiculous. I laughed under my breath. Thereâs no way. Weâre in Tuvine. How would a serpent here know Korean abbreviations? Still⊠just in case, I tested it.
âMy nameâs Adeye Rue. If you understand me, show me.â
Four tails shifted at once.
âă ă·ă ăč.â(ă ă·ă â ìë°ì (Adeye) ăč â 룚 (Rue))
Holyâ!!!
I jumped to my feet with a loud slap against the floor, stumbling backward.
âWhat theâthis makes no damn sense!â
I could feel Tyrocâs gaze on me, but I didnât have the luxury to care. What was happening? Why was this thing spelling Korean consonants?! Itâs not like itâs from Korea. Unlessâoh god, is it a Korean serpent?!
âY-youâwhereâs your home?â
âă±ă .â
âŠGoheung?! A Jeolla Province snake?! I nearly screamed again before Moâs calm voice cut in.
[Based on prior interspecies communication, the likely interpretation is âêł í„ââhome.]
Ah. Right. âHome.â That made more sense. The pebble spirit had gone on about that too. Stillâhow does it know Hangul consonants?
âWhatâs wrong?â Tyrocâs voice was hoarse.
I quickly pointed to the serpent. âItâs just that⊠itâs speakingââ
In consonants, for crying out loud. But I swallowed the rest before it slipped out. Tyroc frowned slightly.
âSpeaking?â
I couldnât waste time explaining the Korean alphabet to a duke. He was still visibly unwell.
âNothing. It just⊠talks a little differently.â
Then I turned back to the serpent. âCan you help him?â
âă ă .â
âHow?â
âă ă .â
What the hell does that mean?
âMo, give me three possible matches for that.â
[1. Hate
2. Swim
3. Shower]
Hate, probably. Though 2 and 3 felt half-assed. Mo was definitely phoning it in today. I bit down my annoyance and refocused.
âYou donât want to? Why?â
âă ă ă .â
Even before Mo interpreted, I got it.
[Suggested interpretation: Koon hate.]
Ignoring Moâs helpful note, I glanced back. Tyrocâs eyes were shut tight, his breath heavy, his body trembling from the pain.
âYou know heâs from House Koon?â
âă ă .â
âHow will you help him, then?â
âă ă .â
So stubborn.
âYou want something from me, right? Then help me first, and Iâll return the favor.â
âă ă .â
No immediate clue. Mo filled the gap.
[1. Key
2. Umbrella
3. Pregnancy]
Key. Of course. Youâre the creditor, after all. But seriously, Moâpregnancy?
âMo, no more three options. Just give me the most likely one next time.â
[Understood.]
Funny how it only responds instantly when Iâm mad.
Thenâthud.
The sound of something collapsing behind me. I didnât even need to look. Only one person could make that sound.
Tyroc had slid down the wall, his body limp.
âYour Grace!â
I grabbed his shoulder, but he only panted heavily, eyes still shut. Panic hit me like a wave. There was only one thing left I could do. I turned back to the serpent.
âIâll repay whatever debt I owe. Justâtell me how to get out.â
[Free me.]
âYou mean⊠youâre trapped?â
The small head nodded.
âHow do I free you?â
[Call Dorgo.]
Dorgo? The old man beside Zab? But how am I supposed to call him? Even if I did, thereâs no way I could sneak Tyroc out like this.
âNo other way?â
[Abandon Koon.]
âNo.â
[Koon hate.]
How much does this thing hate House Koon? Itâs like listening to a sulking child. Then again, not long ago, I wouldâve agreed with it.
âBut I need him alive to repay you. Heâs the only one who can deal with Dorgo if he comes. Iâm powerless on my own.â
The serpentâs tails stilled. I pleaded, voice earnest.
âThatâs not all. Whatever it is you want from meâŠâ
[Home.]
Home. That word again. Just like the rock spirit, Diamond.
âYou want to go home? Alright. But to find that, we need to get out first. And I canât do it without him. Pleaseâhelp him.â
Those deep blue eyes locked on me. I met their gaze head-on, pouring sincerity into my voice. The serpent slowly slithered forward until it hovered just before me, lifting its head. Thenâtap, tapâit brushed against my arm.
When I instinctively held out my hand, it coiled around my wrist like a bracelet. I could see it vividly, but I couldnât feel a thing. No weight, no warmth. It was eerieâand awe-inspiring. The things I do for Earth, honestlyâŠ
[Warning! Warning! Unauthorized access to neural data detected.]
Access? What?
My eyes widened. The serpentâs tails flicked again.
âă ă±?â
My heart lurched. Thatâit looked like âì§ê”Ź.â Earth.
âEarth?â I whispered.
âă ă .â
No way. How could itâ?
[The only method to block access is temporary physical shutdown. Risk of brain damage detected. Proceed?]
Moâs voice was urgent, clinical. Something was in my head. I should have shut it down. But I didnât.
Because of those eyes.
They were deep, endless blueâlike the bottom of the ocean. Terrifying, but somehow⊠not threatening.
âNo.â
Heat shot up my arm, spreading to my head in a rush. Oh god. Itâs really inside my mind, isnât it? Trying to read myâ
I see what you seek, child of Earth.
The voiceâa womanâs, calm and agedâechoed directly in my skull. My whole body shuddered.
That voice⊠it was my grandmotherâs. The one who raised me. The one I hadnât heard in eleven years.
Howâhow could it possiblyâ?
In just a few seconds, it felt like this being had flipped through my entire life.
But there was no time for answers. The heat faded, and the serpentâs tails began to move again, spelling out new shapes.
Mo interpreted for me.
[I will help you.]
It would help me? Knowing why I came here? The warmth that flooded my chest felt foreignâgrateful, and somehow painfully human.
â…Thank you.â
[One way to save Koon.]
âWhat is it?â
[Koon must accept my power.]
âHow?â
[Your handâconnect.]
Connect?
I hesitated but then reached over and gripped Tyrocâs wrist. Warmth spread through me againâgentle at first, then building. Nothing else happened. Maybe it didnât workâ
âHaaah!â
Suddenly, Tyroc convulsed, his eyes flying open.
âYour Grace, are youâ?â
âDamn itâwhat is thisâugh!â
He groaned and moved his arm instinctively. At the same time, the serpentâs tail flicked again.
[Donât let go.]
I tightened my grip, struggling as he writhed, trying to break free. His next words made my stomach drop.
âUghâdamn itâwhy is the power of a divine beastâ!â
What? Divine beast?
I whipped my head toward the small serpent on my wrist.
You meanâyou were a divine beast all along?!