Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C116
by berryChapter 116
I didnât know about myself, but he definitely didnât look like the type to starve a pig. I barely held back my urge to snark and shrugged.
âItâs punishment.â
âWhat punishment, when you didnât do anything wrong?â
âWell, going somewhere I shouldnât haveââ
âWhatever kind of treatment you received in Adeye, youâre someone who will become the Duchess here. In this place, thereâs nothing youâre forbidden from doingâexcept one thing.â
That was supposed to be touching, but it only made me feel more burdened. If I was allowed to do anything, then I really would become the Duchess. And every privilege comes with responsibility and obligation.
I swallowed the words Iâd rather be punished.
Then Tyroc continued, calmly guessing,
âAnd you came into the fog because of the people gathered in front of the estate. You wanted to see the curse for yourself.â
That wasnât it at all. Iâd heard all paths to Acorn Forest were blocked, so I was checking whether there was a route through the fog. Feeling like I was lying by omission, I turned my headâonly for him to misunderstand it completely.
âDonât worry about it.â
âWell, umâthen am I allowed to enter the fog? To see Koonâs curse with my own eyes?â
âYou want to see it?â
If I said yes, it felt like heâd nod without hesitationâand that made it heavier. I wasnât a real Savior. I had no idea how to lift a curse. When I hesitated, he stated flatly,
âI donât expect you to break it.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause thatâs my responsibility.â
The way he said it sounded strangely practiced. Like someone whoâd carried every hardship alone to reach this point.
âI can detect black magic, so I might be of some help. And if nothing else, I can help hunt down and beat up a black mage.â
He smiled again, his gaze oddly ticklish. Embarrassed, I hurriedly changed the subject.
âThen whatâs the one thing Iâm not allowed to do here?â
âThe promise written in the contract you want.â
The word contract jolted my will awake. According to it, I had one job: follow the Koon familyâs rules and live faithfully as a spouse.
Broad as that was, I swallowed my complaints. Until I got that contract, Iâd be Kim Dutiful incarnate.
âYou could say I was born to uphold the Koon family rules.â
My blatant flattery made him smile again. But why did it still feel like he didnât trust me? I shook the bell a little harder.
âAnd Iâm really very diligent, tooââ
âAdeye Rue? Diligent?â
NoâManager Kim! Damn it. I swallowed a curse and forced a smile.
âWell, Iâm getting married now. I think marriage suits me. I suddenly want to be very diligent.â
âAnd hearing that, the contractââ
The contract? And then? I leaned forward so far I nearly toppled, but the rest never came. Instead, his gaze slid down my leg and stopped at my ankle.
âAre you hurt?â
His voice sharpened. Following his gaze, I looked down at my stance. Trying not to move my injured leg must have looked unnatural.
âJust twisted it a bit. Anywayâabout the contractââ
âLater.â
âNo, we should discuss it nowâwhat are you doing?!â
I yelped as Tyroc suddenly dropped to one knee and lifted my foot into his hands. I tried to pull back, but my ankle shifted and pain shot through it.
âUgh.â
âHere?â
âY-yes, there, so donât touchââ
âWhy?â
âBecause it hurts!â
He ignored me, even slipping off my shoe and setting my foot on his knee.
âItâs swollen, but not broken.â
âYes, so just leave itâoh?â
My protest turned into surprise. His palm covered my ankle, warmth spreading through it as the pain faded.
[Those who wield a divine beastâs power possess basic healing abilities.]
Mo explained before I could gasp. Healing too? I thought only high-ranking clergy had that.
âSo I can also borrow a divine beastâs power, Iâm a swordmaster, and I can heal?â This man was absurd.
âYouâre looking at me like Iâm a monster.â
âNoâjust impressed.â
âI can only dull simple pain.â
True enough, my ankle was still swollen and weak. Still, it was a miracle. Useful for sudden headaches or toothaches, at least.
I stared at Tyroc in awe. Maybe I was too obviousâhe suddenly laughed under his breath and brushed his hair back.
ââŠThis is driving me crazy.â
Crazy? I immediately suggested,
âThen try putting your hand on your own head. Might help.â
âIt wonât. To fix itââ
He cut himself off and slowly turned to me.
âIâd need a more certain method. You want your ankle fully healed too?â
âOf course. I couldnât walk back to the estate. But do you have herbs?â
I asked without thinkingâand then noticed his gaze had changed. Luckily, I was perceptive. And Mo was even more so.
[In Tuvine, sexual intercourse is believed to have healing effects.]
Right. That was why people here were so unrestrainedâbelieving shared energy improved the body.
I still didnât quite buy it, but he clearly meant exactly that. I had no intention of running away. In fact, hadnât I been waiting for this?
Still, it wasnât what I expected. Iâd imagined it would start like a battleâtense, loud, clashing wills.
Instead, it was quiet. Suffocatingly so. In the silence, his hand moved like a shadowâslowly from my ankle to my knee.
âMuch more effective than herbs.â
He murmured lowly, his hand sliding higher. His large hand engulfed my thighâbut he didnât grip it.
That made the slow movement even more sensitive. Unable to look away, I quietly ordered Mo,
âMo, sleep mode.â
[Sleep mode allows system maintenance, which takes approximately one day. Postpone maintenance?]
More than a day. His hand, which had paused, slid inward along my upper thigh. The movement was small, but it felt like my whole body was being overtaken.
It struck meâwhy didnât his touch feel unpleasant? No need to analyze it now. It was fortunate, whatever the reason.
âMo, itâs fine. Itâll take me more than a day too.â
I had no intention of backing down from a fight Tyroc started. But to understand my opponent, I needed to know his tendencies.
Dominant, or submissive?
Not violenceâjust inclination. I believed everyone leaned slightly one way or the other.
Of course, one might assume Tyroc was dominant. But those in high positions often hid the opposite nature beneath public masks.
Perhaps relief came from shedding tension and responsibility.
And I hopedâno, prayedâhe was like that. So I wouldnât fall completely into this relationship.
I leaned more toward submission myself. Knowing this wasnât real made it easier to play the dominant role. So I said coolly,
âThat spot doesnât hurt.â
âIt has to be done this way to heal.â
âYouâre treating an ankle through a thigh?â
âNo. Inside you. By ramming my cock in.â
He said something obscene in the calmest tone imaginable. Shameless harassmentâbut it didnât disgust me. Ridiculously, my body reacted.
A sharp shiver crawled from my rear entrance up my spine. His hand hadnât moved at allâjust hearing it was enough.
Iâd always relied on direct stimulation before. Heat blooming from the back was unfamiliar.
Confusing, fascinatingâand troublesome. Not because I disliked it, but because I felt like Iâd enjoy it too much.
I shifted my gaze from his hand to between his legs and replied,
âThen you shouldnât hurt that cock. If you canât ram it, the treatment wonât work. Take good care of it.â
I lifted my head as I advised himâand met a slowly curving smile. Watching it bloom, I found myself staring, entranced.