Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C3
by berryChapter 3
After I entered the retreat, the presence that had been quietly following me descended from midair and met my gaze. Because of the visual filter, its arms and legs looked like stick lines, but unlike those grotesque floating things from before, this one actually had a humanoid shape.
It was smallâabout the size of my palm, like a fairy. But whether it was a fairy or a ghost, I had no intention of turning the filter off.
A humanoid form? Thatâs creepier than anything else.
Still, this one was calm and well-mannered, unlike the noisy creatures from before. Its stare was steadyâfocused, almost as if it had a purpose.
Fine. Iâll say one word to it, and if it turns out to be nonsense, Iâll just ignore it and go to sleep.
âDo you have something to say to me?â
As I spoke, I unblocked the audio filter. Immediately, a sound like nails scraping against a chalkboard pierced my ears.
[To think a human could see a spirit I didnât expect this~~ Aaaah, how thrilling~~ Lalala~~ At last, someone whoâll hear my words~~]
What the hell?!
Forget the shrill pitchâthe thing was singing! A damn ghost was singing at me! And horribly off-key at that!
âMute. Mute it right now. Fast!â
At my urgent command, Mo instantly cut the sound. The âspirit,â as it called itself, flapped its arms excitedly, mouthing somethingâprobably still singing. Pretending not to notice, I raised a hand toward it.
âNot yet. Iâll listen to you now, but let me warn youâif you act rude or unpleasant, Iâll block your voice completely. Got it?â
The spirit nodded meekly, folding its hands together like a polite child. I hesitated.
Damn it. I was ready to curse it out and go to sleep, but now I couldnât.
Feeling uneasy, I ordered Mo:
âConvert its speech to text.â
Letters appeared before my eyes.
[Hello there~ My child is dying~ Please help me~ I beg of you~]
âŠShit. Too polite. Now I couldnât even refuse.
âPush them toward the west! Trap the monsters between the buildings!â
âDamn it, Team Threeâs breached! Leave the vanguard and seal the back line!â
âThe monsters are heading for the shelter! Stop them!â
The ground thundered beneath my feet. Dust filled my vision. The sound of shouting soldiers.
Just another day. Nothing special.
So when I suddenly felt myself being pulled outâripped from the scene like being sucked through a vortexâI was disoriented.
Wait, I didnât even finish off the monsters yet.
But I had no choice. The soft wind brushing against my face told me I was awake.
[Half the morning dewâs already gone under the sunlight~]
The long-haired spirit was leaning over me, tilting its head. I flinched.
[The trees reach for the sun~ Spreading their branches wide~ Their leaves are dancing~]
What⊠what is it saying?
ââŠSorry, what?â
[Aaaah~ Humans always forget their promises~~ But thatâs okay~~ Iâll remind you over and over~~ The sun has risen~~ Canât you feel the light~~]
It stretched its arms dramatically, as if belting out an opera solo. The high, metallic voice seemed to ring right through my skull.
I stared at the text floating before me and told Mo,
âStop adding wavy lines to its speech.â
[Do forgetful humans make fools of themselves? Thatâs okayyy~ Even fools will learn~ If I say it a thousand times, maybe theyâll understand~ Nooo, maybe ten thousand~]
Even without the decorative squiggles, the whining tone made me want to scream. Was Mo trolling me? I glared up at the text and stood up.
Last night, this spiritâs endless chatter had exhausted me, so Iâd promised to help in the morningâprobably why it was now singing at me like a broken record.
âAlright, alright. Give me a minute.â
Stepping out of bed, I looked around properly for the first time.
The dim lamps hadnât shown much last night, but the room was large and luxurious.
So Rue really was from a rich family, huh? Mustâve been staying in the best suite here.
I glanced around the room until I stopped before the mirror.
A stranger stared back.
Brown hair, pale gray eyes.
Aside from those, the features werenât too different from someone East Asian.
Realizing that this was now my face gave me a strange, detached feeling.
[Even if you donât remember, thatâs okayyy~ Iâll keep reminding youuu~ Donât feel sorryyy~]
The spiritâs nonsense instantly shattered my moment of introspection.
âDonât flatter yourself. Iâm not sorry at all.â
[Aaaah~ Humans really are such good liars~~ But thatâs fineee~ Iâm used to human lies~]
Goddamn it. Even through text, I could hear the singing. I barked another order.
âCut out every âahâ sound.â
[Shall I replace them with squiggles instead?]
ââŠâ
[Aaaahhhhhhhhhh.]
ââŠDo it.â
I sighed and shot a weary look at the spirit, probably still howling somewhere. Alright. Letâs just get this over with.
âSo, your âchildââthe one youâre protectingâis trapped and dying?â
[There are too many bad humans in the world~ They fed my Petal something strange, and now she wonât wake up~ Petal loves sunlight~ But even though the owl has awoken four times, Petal still sleeps~]
âPetal,â apparently, was the human this spirit was watching over.
Judging from how it phrased it, âthe owl awakening four timesâ probably meant⊠four mornings had passed.
Honestly, I hadnât even been in this world for a full day. I didnât have the mental space to worry about someone elseâs problems.
But since I couldnât exactly leave this place yet, I might as well do something.
Knowing myself, Iâd probably go insane if I stayed locked in this patientâs room doing nothing.
Bang! Bang! Bang!
I slammed my fist against the locked door. After pounding for a while, I finally heard a clickâthe door opened. It was Marvin, the nurse whoâd asked for money last night.
âWhat on earth are you doing? Why didnât you pull the bell cord?â
âŠThere was a bell cord?
âI want to take a walk.â
âItâs not walking hours yet. Scheduled time is after lunch.â
âThen at least let me walk inside the building.â
I was being petulant, but I didnât care. Marvin frowned.
âMr. Rue, your stubbornness wonât help you. If the Director finds out, you might not be allowed to leave your room at all. Do you want to be confined again?â
He tilted his chin in a mock-threatening way. I stayed quiet for a momentânot because of him, but because Mo had brought something up.
While I slept, Mo had already analyzed most of Rueâs memories and was now displaying dialogue options in front of me.
[1. No! I donât want to be locked up again! (Cry out emotionally and wrap your arms around Marvinâs neck.)
2. Iâll behave. Then come inside and help me calm down. (Run your hand along his inner thigh.)]
âŠBoth options were absolute garbage.
I knew my silence was getting awkward, but I couldnât help asking Mo,
âDid those two ever sleep together?â
[No.]
âOh, thank Godââ
[However, there has been physical contact approaching sexual in nature.]
âOh, fuck off.â The curse slipped out automatically.
[In this society, sexual interaction is encouraged as a means to maintain spiritual health. Actions that would be considered immoral in a Confucian culture are normalized here. However, once a marriage bond is established, extramarital relations are restricted.]
Well, at least some moral structure exists.
[In such cases, the number of permitted sexual partners is usually determined by mutual consent.]
âŠUtter chaos.
âMr. Rue?â
I must have paused too longâMarvin was giving me a strange look.
I couldnât afford to appear suspicious, but there was no way I was doing what Mo suggested. Luckily, another idea came to mind.
âMarvin.â
I called his name and briefly placed my hand on his arm, withdrawing it in a flash.
âIâve got a large sum of money coming soon.â
As expected, his eyes gleamed at the mention of money, though his voice remained formal.
âI heard the head of the Adeye family personally ordered that you wonât receive a single coin until your treatment is complete and youâre discharged.â
Sharp as always, Mo immediately pulled up the relevant data.
[Current head of the Adeye Family
Name: Adeye Lantuya
Age: 22
Background and Current Status: Lost both parents in an accident at twelve and assumed leadership at a young age. Physically frail and rarely leaves home, but unlike her brother Rue, who spends recklessly, sheâs a genius who built the familyâs business empire. The Adeye Trading Company is now considered the largest on the continent.
Aliases: Business Prodigy, Investment Queen, Gourmet of the Strange.]