Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C77
by berryChapter 77
âI thought I could see it because the divine beast was inside.â
Even as I said it, I realized how weak that sounded and pressed my lips together.
âSo, youâre saying the shield imprisoning the divine beast is black magicâand I can see it?â
âIâm not sure either. But right nowâŠâ
He scanned the surroundings, his gaze sharp as if trying to pierce through the false landscape.
âIf itâs fog, then itâs definitely magic. Large-scale illusion spells often use fog as a baseâlayering hallucinations over the mist.â
âReally?â
The moment the question left my mouth, I regretted it. RightâRue majored in magic at the academy.
Fortunately, Tyroc didnât seem suspicious of my ignorance. There was a reason for that.
[Rue never attended a single full class in the academy.]
How did he even graduate?
[With money.]
âŠRight. Of course. I shouldâve guessed.
Still, for once, I was thankful for Rueâs questionable legacyâit was saving my skin now.
âI didnât attend much, so I know next to nothing about magic.â
âI know.â
ââŠRight.â
âIn any case,â Tyroc continued, âlarge-scale illusion magic like this canât be sustained by an ordinary mage for long. But black magic is different.â
Black magic⊠Before I could recall what Iâd read, Mo offered an explanation.
[Black Magic: A general term for spells that use the power of black stones, which originate from demonic beasts. Since the magic draws from the stones rather than the casterâs mana, even weak magicians can wield advanced spells. However, direct exposure to black stones can result in mental corruption by their darknessâa fatal risk.]
âZab has been hoarding black stones these past few years. So this was why.â
Tyrocâs mutter was cold. But when he turned to me, his voice softened unexpectedly.
âIn the past, there were people who could perceive black magicâthose under the protection of a certain spirit.â
âWho were they?â
âThe House of Baron Zarayal.â
My eyes widened at the familiar name. The young man I saved at that wine partyâZarayal Bronze.
Iâd saved him because of Bichonâs backstabbing, butâoh.
I tried to hide my surprise, but Tyroc caught it immediately.
âYou met the Zarayal familyâs spirit, didnât you?â
âYes, wellâŠâ I murmured, then asked curiously,
âCan that spirit see through black magic? What kind of spirit is it?â
âA spirit of darkness.â
A spirit of darkness? That fluffy, cotton-ball-looking thing?!
Then it hit me. That mouth.
Its maw had looked like the gates of hell for a reason.
I had thought it was some kind of caterpillar spirit since it gave me insects as gifts, but no. Turns out my little fluffball had some serious bite.
I covered my forehead with a hand and confessed honestly,
âIt told me to eat a bug. I didâand now I can apparently perceive black magic.â
ââŠ.â
âOh, it wasnât bad. Tasted fine, actually.â
Why was he staring at me like that? His tone stayed calm, though.
âThe Zarayal family isnât one of spirit-tamers. But long ago, a spirit of darkness promised to guard their bloodline and bestowed several gifts. Thanks to those gifts, they were able to destroy black magicâand during the War of the Dark Mages, they played a crucial role. One of the gifts still remains. ButâŠâ
âBut?â
âMany of their line perished in that war. Now thereâs no one left who can commune with the spirit. No one knows whether it still guards the family. Most assumed its protection ended long ago. Everyone except the Zarayal family themselvesâtheyâve continued to safeguard the gift, though they no longer know how to use it.â
Ah. That explained his reaction earlier.
Still, I couldnât help but marvel.
âItâs impressive theyâve preserved an insect for centuries.â
His lips twitched faintly into a smile.
âIndeed. Itâs been their heirloom for over three hundred years.â
My mouth fell open.
âDuring a major monster outbreak, the then-head of the Zarayal house risked his life to protect that heirloom. When word spread that what heâd protected was a bug, he was ridiculed harshlyâfor generations, in fact. Yet the family never once treated it lightly, no matter the mockery.â
So thatâs why Bichonâs friendâthe little spiritâwas still watching over them.
Even if they could no longer communicate, the spirit had recognized their devotion.
A strange heaviness welled in my chest. I turned my head to hide it and forced my tone even.
âBaron Zarayal will be overjoyed to know the spiritâs protection continues.â
ââŠ.â
âWhy? You think he wonât?â
âCan I tell him?â
Ah. That would expose my ability.
âJust tell him the effect comes from eating the insect. He probably wonât actually eat itâbut say the spirit still watches over them.â
He smiled, slow and genuine.
âThank you.â
I stiffened.
Why was he thanking me? For what? And that smileâsoft, warmâwas unfairly disarming.
No, no, no. Pull yourself together.
Heâs polite, thatâs all.
This is not affection.
Donât be like Dr. Kimâreading love letters into every formal thank-you!
I steeled myself. Determined. Immovable.
âŠIt lasted maybe ten minutes.
âHuff⊠haah⊠this is hell.â
How could an uphill climb stretch forever?
That damned lake was halfway up a mountain! No wonder Zab never visited.
I was muttering curses when my steps slowed.
Through the mist, I started noticing shapes I hadnât seen earlier.
Thud. Thud. Stop.
Tyroc, walking ahead, turned back.
âWhat is it?â
I didnât answer. My gaze was fixed elsewhere.
Between the trees lay carcasses.
Deer. Badgers. Rabbits. Dozens.
Most decayed, bones exposed, fur blackened with rot.
Weâd passed a few dead animals before, but hereâthis was a graveyard.
âThere are animal corpses. âŠA lot.â
He looked at me for a moment before replying calmly,
âThereâs a pond down the slope.â
Ah. Rotten water.
âThe animals mustâve fallen under the illusion.â
âSeems so.â
He stepped forward again but stopped when I didnât follow.
âAre you alright?â
âWhatâs there to not be?â
âYouâre angry.â
Anyone watching wouldâve thought he was mistakenâbecause I was perfectly still. Expressionless.
How did he even notice?
When I didnât answer, he murmured quietly,
âUnexpected.â
âWhat is?â
âDidnât think youâd get angry over animals.â
Death no longer shocked meâit had become too familiar.
But each time I encountered it, something small and heavy settled inside me.
A weight. Invisible, but real.
And it sank deeper with every deathâhuman, beast, even insect.
In this once-vibrant forest, that weight felt unbearable.
âSomeone should be angry. Life is precious.â
My voice came out steady, but I clenched my jaw.
Whatever they were hiding, whoever caused thisâit was unforgivable.
âDo you know how to break this illusion?â
He watched me silently, and by now, I could read his silencesâagreement.
But hesitation followed.
âItâs difficult?â
âYes.â
âWhy?â
âThey buried black stones to maintain it. For an area this large, there must be hundreds. But removing them carelessly is dangerous.â
So touching them recklessly could trigger something worse.
Then what?
Before I could ask, he spoke again.
âBut the first black stone is different. Destroy that one, and the spell weakens. Then we can shatter it by force.â
The first black stone.
But how to find it, in a forest this vast?
If we hit the wrong one, it could kill us instantly.
I thought about it brieflyâbut my decision came quickly.
Realistically, there was nothing I could do here.
All I could do was press on.
Ignore the illusion. Reach the lake. Free the divine beast.
So I walked again.
But the anger, hard and cold like ice, stayed buried deep inside me.