Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C46
by berryChapter 46
âOnly with words?â
â Koon Tyroc
It took less than a second to read, but several times longer to process.
What the hell was that supposed to mean? When had I ever done anything âonly with wordsââŠ?
Then it hit meâwhat Iâd written in my last letter.
âThank you for your kind regards.â
So this was his reply.
ââŠThat bastardâs toying with me.â
Crackle.
I crushed the letter in my fist, my irritation boiling over. Who was the one who rejected all my gifts, claiming no thanks were necessary in the first place?
Fuming, I slammed my hand on the desk, yanked out fresh paper, and grabbed a pen. Solongo followed, wearing a puzzled look.
âThe Grand Duke wouldnât use a teleportation portal for a joke⊠What are you doing?â
âWriting a reply. And itâs not a jokeâhe sent that letter just to piss me off.â
âTo annoy you? Using a teleportation portal? Waitâare you really sending that?â
I had already scribbled down a line and was about to fold the paper when I hesitated.
âWhat? Itâs not that rude, is it? Heâll get annoyed, sure, but itâs not offensive.â
âThisâthis is what you wrote to annoy him?â
âYeah.â
ââŠI see.â
Solongo stepped back, watching me like Iâd lost my mind. I glanced down at what Iâd written again. Was it too much?
âYes, Iâll be expressing my gratitude only with words. You were the one who refused my gift, after all. So, the only way youâll receive my thanks is directly from my lips. Do you have a problem with that?â
Hmm. Maybe I should remove that last lineââDo you have a problem with that?ââsince he was technically my savior.
As I debated, I could feel Solongoâs disapproving gaze burning into me.
âAre you sending it now?â
âOf course. If I send it by courier, itâll take days. Iâll just call someone andââ
Before I could even finish, Solongo snatched the letter from my hand, slipped it into an envelope, sealed it, and shouted toward the hall:
âGather all the magicians! Prepare the teleportation portal immediately!â
âWhat? Youâre sending it through teleportation?â
âOf course. Iâll make sure the Grand Duke gets to misunderstand you as quickly as possible.â
âWhat misunderstanding?â
âAny kind. Take your pick.â
ââŠWhat?â
But Solongo only smiled, far too cheerfully, and began barking orders. Magicians were herded into the room like sheep, working furiously to stabilize the portal.
After long minutes of muttering and chanting, three high-ranked magicians finally succeeded. My letter vanished into thin air, and they turned to me, beaming with pride.
âWeâre relieved to see such an important message safely delivered!â
Beads of sweat glistened on their foreheads.
ââŠ.â
I couldnât even respondâguilt hit me like a hammer.
And just like that, the little pocket money I had left was goneâspent as their reward.
Knock, knock.
Rick burst into Tyrocâs office, nearly tripping over himself as he rushed forward.
âYour Grace, a letter has arrived!â
He didnât say more, but his urgency spoke for him. Even before Tyroc looked up, Rick was already holding out two envelopesâone white, one brown.
He deliberately placed the brown one on top so that Tyroc could grab it first. It was always from a trusted friend who sent crucial information.
But since Tyroc didnât look up from his documents, Rick subtly pushed the envelopes closer into his view.
Finally, Tyroc glanced over. Rick, unable to wait, placed the brown envelope directly on the desk.
âPlease, take a look, Your Grace. The messenger said itâs good news.â
Yet, Tyrocâs gaze didnât go to the brown envelope at all.
âAdeye?â
âAh, yesâthis white one is from Adeye Rue. It just arrived via teleportation portal. I suppose since we sent ours that way, they wanted to show they could do it too. Haas actually laughed about it, saying the Adeyes probably squeezed three high-ranking magicians dry just to pull it off. Waitâare you opening that one first?â
Before Rick could finish, Tyroc had already taken the white envelope, slicing it open with his letter knife. He unfolded the paper.
Silence.
What could possibly be written in there?
Rick fidgeted, baffled, as Tyroc continued to stare at the letterâmotionless, expression unreadable. The silence dragged on until Rick, unable to restrain his curiosity any longer, asked cautiously,
âIs it⊠something terrible? An insult?â
ââŠThat wouldâve been easier.â
What? Easier?
Rickâs imagination went wild. What could be so awful that insults would be preferable? Tyroc pressed a hand to his forehead, lowering his head brieflyâas though to collect himself.
That bad?! Rickâs eyes widened.
âWhat on earth does it say? Did he⊠insult Your Grace?â
âSomething like that.â
âWhat?! To mock the man who saved his lifeâhe should be kissing your boots!â
To humiliate him in a letter, of all things! Rick was practically shaking with outrage.
Yet Tyroc, instead of tearing the letter apart, folded it neatly and placed it in the drawer. Thenâunbelievablyâhe smiled.
He smiled.
Granted, Tyroc was the type to smile even when angry, but this one⊠this looked almost pleased.
That couldnât be right.
While Rick was silently puzzling over it, Tyroc pulled out a fresh sheet of paper and began writing a reply.
âTell Haas to open the portal immediately.â
Again? Rick blinked. Was the matter really that urgent?
He accepted the sealed reply obediently, hoping Tyroc would now open the other letterâthe important one.
But instead, Tyroc simply turned back to his documents, utterly indifferent.
Even after a long pause, he made no move toward the brown envelope. Rick hesitated before clearing his throat.
âYour Grace.â
Tyroc looked up lazily. Rick forced a polite smile.
âAhem⊠are there any other orders?â
âYes.â
âOf course, pleaseâwhat is it?â
âLeave.â
When a man known for his easy smiles suddenly went expressionless, the change was chilling. Tyroc looked exactly that way now.
Rick stiffened, bowed quickly, and stammered, âMy apologies. Iâll deliver the reply to Adeye immediately.â
Still, even as he left, he couldnât stop glancing back at the brown envelope.
Thud.
Once the door closed, Tyroc finally turned his attention to it.
It was from the same source that always brought unexpected intelligenceâand since it was labeled âgood news,â it was likely valuable.
Normally, he wouldâve been eager to read it. But right now, he couldnât muster the faintest curiosity.
His mind was entirely occupied by that short, utterly infuriating letter in the drawer.
Only through words, huh?
He could easily imagine Rue, fuming as he wrote itâclearly not realizing how that line could be taken another way.
Tyroc, however, could think of only one kind of âmouth usage.â
âHaaâŠâ
Running a hand through his hair, he exhaled heavily.
If he didnât calm down, he was going to need to take care of the problem physicallyâand by that, he meant with the rapidly hardening problem between his legs.
No matter what he tried, he couldnât stop thinking about Rueâs lips.
Those lips heâd tasted once beforeâback in the summer villaâs hedge mazeâstill felt vivid on his tongue, as if it had happened mere moments ago.
That stubborn mouth that had refused him for so long, only to yield in the endâsoft, sweet, devastatingly addictive.
And the owner of that mouth was none other than Adeye Rue.
âDamn it.â
Tyroc cursed quietly under his breath and tore open the brown envelope at last.
As usual, it was filled with densely written pages. The letter began as it always didâwith warm words of concern, updates about trivial matters. But near the end came the real content.
His eyes scanned the page swiftly.
ââŠOthers believe you long for the Koon familyâs revival, but I know better.
What you truly desire is to break the curse on the Koon ancestral fortress, isnât that right?
The curse is so powerful that youâve forbidden anyone from setting foot inside.
I know how tirelessly youâve tried to undo it.
I always hoped that someday, youâd ask for my help.
If I had more time, I wouldâve waited until your heart turned toward me⊠but thereâs not much time left.
Something terrible is coming to Tuvine.â
Something terrible? There were no details.
âI canât explain in writing. Meet with me, and Iâll tell you everything.
Let me help lift the Koon curse. The documents Iâve obtained may hold the answer youâve been seeking.â
A solution to the curse.
It was good news, objectively. Yet the words barely registered in his mind. They felt distant, unreal.
He was still thinking like an idiot about someoneâs damn lips.
âPathetic,â he muttered, forcing his gaze toward the window.
Though it was broad daylight, the Koon fortress was shrouded in white mistâits outline barely visible. Only the sharp peak of the tallest spire cut through the haze, a reminder that the massive castle still stood there, waiting.
After a pause, Tyroc pulled a new sheet of paper toward him and wrote a short reply.
Yes. The curse came first. That was what he wanted most of all.