Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C25
by berryChapter 25
âHis partner, Torida, wonât let her go so easily. Word is, heâs already taken control of most of the Ewik familyâs assets.â
Dr. Kim snorted dismissively.
âThat kind of small change? I could crush a man like that with one toe.â
Moved by her audacity, I lifted my bowl and drank the dongchimi soup in one go. The greasiness from the butter vanished instantly.
âYes, yes. Use Baron Ewikâs skills to grow what you need, and recover quickly. That way, you wonât collapse every time Duke Koon says something mean.â
The moment Duke Koonâs name was mentioned, her spoon clattered down.
âBecause everything that comes out of his mouth is absolute garbage.â
âYou should still get used to it.â
She shut her eyes tightly, clearly trying to rein in her temper.
âThe more I think about it, this plan feels impossible. Which is why Iâve come up with Plan BâŠâ
âAbsolutely not. Donât even dream of pairing me with that man.â
Dr. Kim pressed her lips into a line and looked at me primly.
âPlan B doesnât involve you sleeping with him. Iâm saying you should at least get along. No matter how nice I am to that arrogant bastard, heâs not going to change his mind about us.â
âYou bullied him for years, and now you think one act of kindness will fix that?â
âThey say one gesture shows all ten intentions.â
âAnd they also say even the hardest tree falls after ten strikes.â
A proverb for a proverb. Dr. Kimâs face twisted like she was physically pained.
âTry Plan C, then.â
âIs that the one where I do end up underneath him?â
She shot me a sharp look.
âFor the last time, thatâs Plan X. Plan C is different.â
âThen what about the Silent Sword?â I asked quickly, changing the subject. âIf we find it before Duke Koon does and present it to him as a gift, wouldnât that earn his favor?â
Dr. Kim frowned immediately; she already knew what I was referring to.
âThe Forest of Crimson Waves is the realm of non-human beings. You canât just enter unless they permit it. And no one even knows where the entrance is.â
âNo oneâs ever been inside?â
âThere are recordsâone spiritist supposedly managed to enter long ago. But thatâs all.â
A spiritist, huhâŠ
âSilian claimed she didnât know anything, but she trembles too much when the subject comes up. Sheâs hiding something. Though getting her to talk might take a month.â
Yeah, considering how timid she was, even if she did know her familyâs secret, sheâd never tell easily.
âBut youâll find it eventually, right?â
âWell, if I throw enough money around⊠wait, why are you asking?â
Dr. Kimâs eyes narrowed sharply just as she lifted her spoon again.
âBecause I can see non-human entities,â I replied calmly. âIf I can communicate with them, maybe theyâll let me enter the Forest of Crimson Waves.â
âDonât even think about it.â
Her tone was stern enough to make me blink.
âI can see and hear everything around us,â I continued. âEven that squid-looking thing peeking in through the window.â
Dr. Kim immediately turned her head toward the window.
âYou can see that clearly?â
âMore than clearly. And they talk a lot, too. Well⊠most of them.â
I thought of the one shaped like a mountain goatâquiet but watchful.
âDo you know what a divine beast looks like?â I asked.
âNo,â she replied flatly, taking another elegant sip of soup.
âBut according to temple records, there are rare devotees who can sense divine beasts. They describe them as massive beasts made of lightâbut the exact form of each beast is kept secret.â
âThey keep everything secret, donât they?â
âThatâs the temple for you.â She waved her spoon dismissively, clearly bored of the topic.
âAll thatâs known is that each divine beast emits a different color of light.â
âWhat about the Montaine familyâs color?â
âRed.â
I thought of the goatâs red eyesâbut quickly shook off the idea. They said humans couldnât see divine beasts, anyway.
âStill, I can see well. If I locate the entrance to the Forest of Crimson Waves and negotiate properly with the entities there, I might pull it off.â
âNo. Seeing and hearing arenât the same as understanding.â
Dr. Kim met my eyes, her tone suddenly grave.
âNon-human entitiesâspirits, fae, divine beastsâthey donât think like humans do. You could treat them kindly for years, and theyâll still only show loyalty to one person they happen to like. Even divine beasts are the same.
Their criteria for choosing someone is completely subjectiveâhumans canât comprehend it. Thatâs why we have a saying in Tuvine: Never demand a reward from a non-human being youâve helped.â
âSo⊠I shouldnât expect anything in return?â
Iâd been thinking of asking Venomie for information about the Forest of Crimson Waves as repayment for saving it. But Dr. Kim immediately shook her head.
âNo. They decide what to give you themselvesâthatâs their law. If you demand something, they take it as greed, get angry, and curse you.â
âThat sounds less like divine justice and more like a demonâs tantrum.â
âHumans arenât blameless. Many families once thrived under the protection of spirits and fae, but greed drove them awayâor wiped them out.â
I sighed. âSo, as always, humans are the problem.â
âYouâre a problem too.â
âExcuse me?â
âDonât you dare go near that forest,â she said firmly. âI wonât let you. I wonât send you anywhere dangerous. Youâll stay alive and safe hereâthatâs your role. To protect our world. Understood?â
I knew it came from genuine concern, so I nodded, smiling faintly.
âFine, but at least protect my chastity. Iâd rather die than be on the bottom.â
Her brow furrowed instantly.
âEven if Duke Koon happens to be absurdly good-looking?â
âYou called him uglier than dog shit, remember?â
ââŠYou drive a hard bargain.â
She groaned, rubbing her temples. I wasnât budging, and she knew it.
Still, seeing how much she worried about her feud with Duke Koon, I couldnât stay entirely silent.
âThereâs no rush. Once I take care of the traitor, Iâll persuade Duke Koon afterward.â
âYou donât even know who the traitor is. It wonât be easy.â
âIt will. Iâll attend the Non-Wine Party and watch each person carefully. If I donât find them there, Iâll wait patiently until the next opportunityâthen get rid of them.â
ââPatiently,â huh? You caused quite a scene on your last mission.â
âA scene?! I saved someone in danger!â
âIâm not talking about that. I mean when you got caught escaping and ended up fighting someone.â
I frowned sharply.
âIf Iâd actually won that fight, I wouldnât be this bitter. You know who it was? The bastard who tried to kill me at the retreat! Damn it, whyâd he have to show up right then? And I couldnât even land a proper punchâI only managed to bite him!â
âYou shouldâve at least swept his legs out from under him,â she said dryly.
My face twisted. I was about to curse when she quickly looked away.
âWho the hell was it, anyway? You donât even know his name?â
âI do now. Some ridiculous name⊠Tyroc or Tyer-something.â
ââŠWhat?â
âTyer⊠something?â
âTyroc.â
ââŠâ
ââŠâ
âUgly as hell, and the name matches,â I muttered.
ââŠHey.â
âYes?â
âThatâs him.â
âWhat is?â
âDuke Koon.â
ââŠWho?â
âTyroc.â
ââŠWhat?â
âHeâs Duke Koon.â
I froze, staring at her like sheâd just told me gravity stopped working.
âAre you joking right now?â
âWhat color were his eyes?â
âThat disgusting golden yellow.â
Dr. Kim let out a long, weary sigh and pressed a hand to her forehead.
âYeah. Thereâs only one person on the continent with eyes that color. Koon Tyroc.â
âThe guy I attacked, cursed out, and bit?â
âYes.â
ââŠâ
ââŠâ
A long, painful silence fell between usâthen, in perfect unison, we both cursed.
âHaah⊠f*ck.â
âAhh⊠f*ck.â
I grabbed my head in both hands. Dr. Kim mirrored me, groaning like she was reliving a migraine.
That bastard was Duke Koon? That bastard?! Of all the people to have such an awful connection withâ
Heâd tried to kill me the moment we met, too.
Ah. Because I was Adeye.
It all made sense nowâand made me even angrier.
Still, even if that was the reason⊠kicking someone at a monster like a soccer ball? Seriously?
And now I was supposed to ally with him? The dark clouds of despair rolled in, smothering every hope I had left.
Then I heard Dr. Kim mumble under her breath, like a prayer.
âNo choice. Weâll move to Plan E.â
âWhatâs that?â
âI have no idea.â
ââŠFantastic.â