Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C34
by berryChapter 34
âHe seemed unusually energetic today.â
âMaybe he was just swinging his sword out of anger?â
Enya shot Haas a sharp look as he came up beside her.
âAre you hoping the Dukeâs in a bad mood?â
âThatâs not it,â Haas said quickly, raising his hands. âItâs just that the Duke dropped by Count Gumberâs summer villa earlier today.â
âCount Gumberâs villa? He went there? Why? Did a monster appear?!â
Her voice rose enough that several people turned to stare. Haas hurriedly grabbed her arm and pulled her closer.
âDonât shout. Itâs not like monsters are the only reason His Grace attends gatherings. Even the Duke has to socialize sometimes.â
âWell, thatâs true, butâŠâ Enyaâs tone softened slightly, though her expression remained troubled. Of all places, Count Gumberâs villa? That was a den for the shamelessâan open playground for group debauchery.
âDonât tell me he went into the maze too?â
âWhy go there if youâre not going into the maze?â
She sighed, rubbing her temple.
âMaybe the Dukeâs been feeling lonely lately.â
âCould be.â Haas nodded solemnly.
âEveryone thinks heâs got dozens of lovers because heâs popular, but itâs the opposite. Heâs been abstinent, dedicating himself to reaching the peak of Swordmastery.â
A faint smile crossed Haasâs lips as he recalled the Dukeâs relentless training.
âHeâs refused even the most casual kisses for years, saying he needed to keep his aura pure. But⊠maybe now itâs time His Grace shares energy with someone again.â
ââŠâ
âWhatâs with that look? You donât like the idea?â
âI just donât like imagining whoever that person is bragging about it everywhere.â
Haas frowned, agreeing immediately.
âTrue. Anyone who got to kiss the Duke would lose their mind with joy. Probably wouldnât sleep for days.â
âUgh, damn bastard.â
â
I tossed and turned, but after five minutes, I shot upright in bed.
Every time I thought about what happened in that cursed maze, fury burned hotter. I bit my lower lip in frustrationâthen immediately regretted it.
âAh!â
Pain shot through me where Tyrocâs teeth had left their mark. I cursed under my breath and punched my pillow repeatedly.
Thump. Thump. Thump.
Dust puffed up, and I started coughing.
âCough, coughâdamn it.â
At least no one was around to witness my stupidityâ
âAh!â
Floating right in front of me was a small, glowing creature, staring me dead in the eye.
It was Mangdok.
âW-What are you doing here?â
[Humans wash without water~~ washing in the dead of night~~ humans looove to wash~~]
âŠWash, my ass. I wanted to snap at it, but after learning what it was, I tried to stay polite.
âI wasnât washing anything. I was just tidying up.â
[Pang-pang-pang~~ beating the blankets on the bed~~ foolish laundry, not even clean~~]
It didnât listen, just kept singing.
Iâd once asked Lady Ewik about it out of curiosity.
âDoesnât your spirit ever get loud?â
âAh, no⊠I canât really hear them. I only see faint light sometimes.â
So, she couldnât hear them at allâonly see a flicker.
At first, Iâd wondered how she managed to communicate or borrow their power like that. Now I understood.
If she could hear them, sheâd have broken the contract within half a day.
And this spiritâMangdokânever stopped at one verse.
[Humans wash without water~~ they rub and scrub~~ rub-rub-rub~~ with their hands~~]
âWait. Rub what exactly?â
[Their genitals~~~ genitals, genitals, genitals~~ rub-rub till they grow biiiiig~~ so big~~~]
âEnough! I get it! Stop!â
Why was I getting a goddamn 19+ performance right now?! Even the spirits here were perverts.
When Mangdok got excited, it wouldnât shut up until it finished its full âsong.â But there was no way I was listening to an entire masturbation ballad.
âFor the love ofâwhoever you saw doing that, I donât wanna know!â
The little spirit tilted its head.
[You donât wanna knooow? Whyyy? Huuwik said humans like knowing~~ Huuwik is always right~~ humans are dumb~~]
Not just lewd but insulting, too. Maybe it wasnât the spirit of venomous weedsâmaybe it was the spirit of verbal poison.
Huuwik⊠that name. The one who brought those monsters here?
âWho is Huuwik?â
[Huuwik is Huuwik~~ Huuwik~~]
Mangdok flapped its tiny arms like wings. That was all I got. I sighed, but tried again.
âYou went to see this Huuwik?â
[Huuwik wanted to knooow~~ what kind of human you are~~ I told him~~ dumb but gooood~~ keeps gifts forever~~]
So, it had gone to meet him. And Huuwik wanted to know about me?
âWhy?â
[Because he must knooow~~ Huuwikâs human washes without water~~ rubs his biiigâ]
âSTOP. Talking. About. That!â
Great. The perverted spirit probably just saw someone jerking off and decided to sing about it. What did that have to do with me?
It was useless trying to reason with it. When I snapped, Mangdok just made a little pout.
[Hmph.]
And vanished.
âUnbelievable.â
The nerve of that thingâshowing up in the middle of the night just to sexually harass me?
I wanted to shake my fist at the air but restrained myself. If it came back and decided to poison me, I was screwed.
I kept an eye on the window for a while. Thankfully, the night stayed quiet.
âDamn thing just had to wake me up.â
I muttered, lying back downâbut even with my eyes closed, sleep wouldnât come.
Instead, my mind filled with cursed thoughtsâ
Of someone with a massive⊠you know.
And the fact that someone Iâd come into contact with earlier that day happened to fit that exact description.
âUgh, fuck!â
I shot up again. This was all Tyrocâs fault. I was never seeing that bastard again.
â
Click.
At the sound of a door opening, Rick sat up instantly from where heâd been half-dozing. Serving the Duke meant being ready at all hoursâespecially when your master could do the work of ten men alone.
Unlike the Swordmaster himself, Rick was merely humanâand exhausted. He rubbed at his eyes as Tyroc strode in.
âYou took a long bath, my lord.â
For a split second, Tyroc paused mid-step, then sank into a chair. Droplets of water still clung to his un-dried hair, tracing down his bare torso.
One droplet slid over the sculpted ridges of his abdomen, following the line of muscle until it hit the towel loosely hanging around his hips. The fabric soaked it upâbut Rickâs eyes didnât move.
Gulp.
He swallowed hard before he could stop himself.
The towel covered Tyrocâs thighs like a skirt, but it couldnât hide the sheer, imposing presence between them.
Why did it look even bigger tonight?
Combined with that lethal face, the raw masculinity was enough to make anyoneâs breath catch.
âAhem.â
Rick coughed awkwardly, tearing his gaze away. Heâd seen the Duke countless times, yet somehow, he never got used to it.
No wonder Adeye Rue had been both terrified and obsessed with him. Rick clicked his tongue softly, then asked,
âRough day, my lord?â
Tyroc didnât answer.
âYour orders, then?â
His tone was edged, impatientâbut Rick was glad for it. The sooner he delivered his report, the sooner he could leave.
âA message came for you, sir.â
He held out a brown envelope. Whenever something came from that sender, Rick always prioritized it.
Tyroc never looked pleased, but he always checked it immediately.
Rip.
The seal tore open without a word.
Whatever the senderâs motives were, the contents were always valuable.
âItâs rare to get correspondence this late at night, isnât it?â
Rick, worried it might be something urgent, waited for the Dukeâs reactionâbut Tyrocâs expression didnât flicker. He skimmed the paper, voice flat as he summarized:
âInformation about the Forest of Crimson Tides. Theyâve found several possible entry points.â
âWhere, my lord?â