Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C107
by berryChapter 107
Indecent?
Rick quickly turned his gaze toward the affectionate pair of siblings. Lantua was still speaking animatedly, as though delivering a lecture, while Rue continued nodding diligently.
Lantuaâs eyes did seem unusually fervent, but there was nothing that felt particularly indecent about it.
âWell⊠she looks excited, maybe, but beyond that, Iâm not sure,â Rick answered cautiously.
âSheâs holding his hand way too tightly.â
His hand? Rick narrowed his eyes and looked more closely, but once again, he couldnât find anything out of the ordinary.
They just looked like close siblings. Maybe His Grace disliked Lantua so much that everything she did irritated him?
As Rick was thinking this, Lantua began stroking Rueâs arm. At that very moment, a low murmur thick with killing intent drifted from beside him.
âThat woman is really getting on my nerves.â
Solongo, who had come out to see Rue off, was taut with tension. It wasnât because Rue was leaving alone.
For some reason, Solongo felt an unfounded confidence that Rue would survive anywhere. Her greatest concern was the head of the household. She worried that at the moment of parting, Lantua might collapse.
But contrary to her fears, Lantuaâs lips were curved in an unbroken smile, as if she had been waiting precisely for Rueâs departure.
That wasnât all.
Tyroc had arrived with such an overwhelming number of escorts that the guard corps had been mobilized in full, filling the front of the estate with soldiers. The air was tense, like the eve of battle.
Even Rue, the one at the center of it all, looked displeased.
âI canât tell if theyâre here to pick me up or to raid the place.â
At that, Lantua let out a soft chuckle and gently clasped both of Rueâs hands.
âHe probably wanted to establish dominance first. Try to understand.â
Solongo stared at Lantua in shock. When had her lady ever placed Tyroc within the realm of âunderstandable,â even once?
Even after acknowledging him as something other than an outright enemy, sheâd been itching to curse him out whenever possible. And now she was siding with Tyroc, wearing such a mild expression?
But Lantuaâs indulgence didnât end there.
âNo, but stillâif you come to someone elseâs house, shouldnât you greet the host first? Why is he glaring like that?â
Rue voiced another complaint, and Solongo barely restrained herself from agreeing aloud. Tyroc had insisted he didnât need to go inside and was standing stubbornly outside, casting a cold, oppressive stare.
What an unpleasant man.
Yet Lantuaâs impression was entirely different.
âHe must be in a hurry. He is a duke, after allâprobably very busy.â
Whoosh!
Solongo snapped her head around so fast it nearly made a sound. Had something gone wrong with her ladyâs head?!
But it seemed Solongo was the only one worried about Lantuaâs condition. Rue, meanwhile, was focused solely on Tyrocâs gaze.
âStill, isnât that rude? Heâs younger than you, yet heâs staring at Dr. Kim like that.â
Strictly speaking, Lantua did look the youngest. But regardless of appearances, Tyroc was clearly directing an openly hostile glare at herâsomething anyone could see.
Once again, she merely laughed it off.
âLeave him be. Itâs not like he hates you.â
Has she eaten something strange? Solongoâs anxiety spiked. Lantua occasionally shared odd foods with Count Ewik while searching for peppersâhad there been some lethal poison mixed in?
Yet Lantua only offered her advice in a tone that suggested she could forgive the entire world.
âSo you understand, right? You need to do well.â
At her words, Rue nodded vigorously, like a soldier burning with resolve.
âJust trust me.â
The two exchanged a moment of intense eye contact. Solongo felt deeply moved by the camaraderie between themâstronger than that of real siblings.
They must be sharing a powerful resolve to save their world.
Just then, Lantua gently stroked Rueâs arm and murmured something that sounded like a coded message.
âCentered on the Acorn Forest.â
âYes. Weâll focus on the Acorn Forest.â
As the siblings locked eyes once more, Solongoâs chest swelled with emotion. So that was itâthey would use the Acorn Forest as their forward base and carry out their plan to save their world.
But her inspiration shattered when she caught sight of someone glaring fiercely from the corner of her vision.
Noâwhy was he glaring again? And why was he heading this wayâŠ?
Solongo didnât bother hiding her displeasure as she warned her lady.
âMy Lady, the Duke of Koon is approaching.â
To avoid Tyroc overhearing anything unflattering, the siblings had chosen a spot some distance away for their farewell. Yet before they were even finished, he strode over and barked coldly,
âHurry it up.â
To a family parting ways, his words were rude and arrogant beyond measure.
But to these two siblings, they sounded perfectly reasonable.
The Acorn Forest.
The reason Dr. Kim and I had been so excited wasnât just because it was unexplored territory.
âIâd completely forgotten about it out of sheer hatred for Koon. The Acorn Forest is a vast stretch of rolling hills spread out behind Koonâs main castle. The surrounding mountains are far away, which makes it strange that the forest is so fertile. Iâve heard an astonishing variety of plant species grow along those hills. In shortâitâs a natural treasure trove.â
A treasure trove.
My ears practically perked up at that word. Before leaving the Adeye estate, my serious discussion with Dr. Kim had revolved entirely around finding peppersâbut that didnât mean Iâd forgotten my real objective.
Since I didnât have anything urgent to do upon arriving at Koon anyway, it seemed perfect to wander around under the pretense of a stroll and search for peppers.
Excitement bubbled up, but I forced myself to calm down, remembering Dr. Kimâs advice.
âDonât get your hopes up too much. Iâve gotten excited like that and been disappointed more times than I can count over the last ten years.â
âYour mouth is stretched open like the Jokerâs right now.â
âThatâs just how I talk.â
Right. I couldnât afford to repeat the cycle of hope and disappointment like Dr. Kim had. Even so, the corners of my mouth kept twitching upward, and I had to consciously tense my face.
After all, I wasnât alone in the carriage.
And my companion took issue with my expression immediately.
âAre you that sad about parting from your sibling?â
âWhat?â
âYouâre trying hard not to cry.â
It was the complete opposite, but I couldnât exactly explain the truth. I simply shrugged.
âIâm not trying.â
ââŠâŠâ
âI donât plan on crying, so donât worry.â
I was telling him I wouldnât be an eyesore, but he tilted his head slightly and curved his lips into a slow smile.
âI wouldnât mind if you cried.â
He liked the idea of me suffering? Truly a man I couldnât let my guard down around for even a second.
âI absolutely wonât cry.â
âYou shouldnât say âabsolutely.ââ
Without warning, he grabbed my hand and yanked me closer. I tried to resist, but my shock at his words made it impossible to pull free in time.
âMaking my beloved fiancĂ© cry is going to be my job from now on.â
This lunatic. Forget the skin-crawling âbeloved fiancĂ©â titleâmy job?!
That was nothing short of a declaration of war. Was he planning to put my room next to a pigsty or something?
Fine. Do your worst. If I ended up befriending pigs and becoming a pig master, thatâd be killing two birds with one stone.
I glared at him, determined not to lose.
âThatâs unfortunate. Iâve never cried once in my life. Not even when yawning.â
I countered nonsense with nonsense, but it didnât faze him in the slightest. He continued to toy with my hand, his smile widening.
âThen Iâll be the first one to make you cry.â
Damn itâhe looked even more pleased. Just how far did he plan to torment me?
Wait. Donât tell meâ
A horrifying thought struck me, and my eyes went rigid.
Heâs not planning to starve me, is he?!
I tried to pull my hand free, shaking my head coolly.
âNo. Your Grace is merely one of many would-be challengersâugh!â
He suddenly tightened his grip, and a cry escaped me mid-sentence. I swallowed it back, but the pain was sharp enough to bring tears to my eyes.
Cruel bastard. Since I said Iâd never cried, he was testing it by trying to break my hand.
I couldnât bring myself to curse him, only shooting him a fierce glareâbut his gaze grew even more intense. Then he reached toward my face.
I turned my head to avoid him, but his fingers brushed the corner of my eye first. He brought the tear caught on his thumb to his lips and licked it away.
âSo I really am the first.â
âŠShould I headbutt him?
I swallowed the surge of rage and glared at him like I wanted him dead. His eyes were still gleaming with enjoyment, which only made me angrier.
âYes, yes. Would you like a prize? My teeth are still quite sturdy.â
âA prize? No need. Taking my beloved fiancĂ©âs first time is only natural.â
He dropped yet another outrageous phrase and finally released my hand. I deliberately rubbed my eye hard, as if to erase the lingering sensation.
Whether his gaze turned cold or not, I focused on wiping away the contactâwhen a dry command cut in.
âAs soon as we get home, make a list.â
A list? He twisted his mouth again, his eyes devoid of humor.
âA list of everyone whoâs ever tried to make you cry. Donât leave a single one out.â