Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C125
by berryChapter 125
âWhat could Adeye possibly be doing?â
Before the guard captain could even finish processing the absurd thought, Tyroc twisted his lips into a crooked smile.
âNo.â
ââŚPardon?â
âThat canât be it.â
âY-Yes? What do you meanââ
He clearly didnât understand a word of it, but fortunately, Tyroc didnât seem offended. If anything⌠he looked oddly buoyant.
The guard captain quickly shook the thought from his head. What am I thinking?
At that moment, Tyroc abruptly stood up.
âYour Grace, where are you going?â
âDidnât you say I should go home?â he replied. âMy fiancĂŠ is apparently crying because he misses my body.â
Me?
The guard captainâs head filled with question marks, but Tyroc had no intention of clearing them up. He strode off at a brisk pace and disappeared from sight.
âA flood of mercenaries from the West Mercenary Guild?â
Around the same time, Rick was receiving the same report. Haasâs faint image flickered in the communicator as he nodded enthusiastically.
[Yeah! They showed up in droves saying theyâre here to hunt monsters!]
âBut didnât you say things had calmed down?â
[They had, but a lot of monsters slipped past the defensive line. Since weâre busy occupying Borhumi Castle, we were wondering how weâd deal with themâthen the mercenaries just started chasing them down on their own. Who knew weâd end up getting help from people who only care about money?]
âPeople who only care about moneyâŚâ
Rick muttered blanklyâthen froze.
ââŚDonât tell me. Did Lord Rue reallyâ?!â
[Huh? What about Lord Rue? Did something happen to the club?]
âHey. Shut up.â
Sensing Haas was about to go off the rails again, Rick immediately cut the connection and shot to his feet.
[Wait! I turned this on to tell you something important. His Grace is heading back to the estate.]
âWhen?â
[Now.]
ââŚYou shouldâve said that first!â
Rick bolted outside, searching for Rue. His commotion drew the butler toward him at a brisk pace.
âWhatâs going onââ
âHis Grace is returning right now. Where is Lord Rue?â
The butlerâs expression instantly turned seriousâlikely remembering the previous incident.
âHe hasnât returned from the fog yet.â
âHe went there again?â Rick exclaimed, staring out the window. âThereâs nothing to see or do in there.â
A lowered voice answered him.
âI believe heâs worried about the people who gathered outside the estate on the first day, searching for the Savior.â
âThe perimeterâs blocked by palisades, so they canât enter. Some tried peeking through the gaps, butââ
Ah. That made sense. Perhaps Rue wanted to understand the situation, even if only through cracks.
The butler seemed to reach the same conclusion.
âI didnât expect him to be this considerate. Heâs very different from the rumors.â
Rick, who actually knew Rue from school, had no response. No, heâs exactly like the rumors.
Still, the Rue who arrived here had changed.
The proof was the fog.
A place no one dared enterâyet Rue went in daily, trying to undo the curse of Koon.
And this time, Borhumi owed him a debt. The one who mobilized the West Mercenary Guild was almost certainly Adeye Lantuyaâyet Rue never claimed credit.
âLetâs go find Lord Rue first.â
Rick turnedâthen stopped short.
âAhâtell whoever goes to fetch him this: make sure to tell him to come âquickly, quickly.â Got it? âQuickly, quickly!ââ
The butlerâs face hardened. How dare he speak so crudely to the future Grand Consort?
But Rick was already halfway down the corridor, practically embodying 뚨댏뚨댏(ppalli-ppalli) = âhurry up, hurry up himself.
Huff. Huff. Huff.
By the time I reached the estate, the sky had turned red.
On the way from the fog boundary, I ran into a servant who was clearly looking for meâto inform me of Tyrocâs return.
I nodded and continued on, but the servant hesitated.
âQ-Quickly⌠quickly, pleaseâŚâ
What?
Why was everyone in such a hurry?
Did Tyroc get hurt?
The thought struck me suddenly, and a chill ran down my spine.
The future had already changed because of me. If Tyroc died before I even closed the Eye of Hellâ
I started running.
My strength was still terrible, but thanks to all the cardio from sprinting around Adeyeâs massive estate, I managed to reach it without stopping.
âLord Rue.â
The butler appeared out of nowhere the moment I entered through the back door.
âHis Graceâhuff, huffââ
I wanted to ask if he was injured, but I was too out of breath.
With gentle eyes, she reassured me.
âHeâll arrive shortly. Youâre not late for the first welcome, so please donât worry.â
Since she sounded calm, it didnât seem like he was hurt. Then why the rush?
One word caught my attention.
âFirst welcome?â
âYes. Greeting His Grace at the doorârather than in the bedroomâis the duty of the Grand Consort.â
ââŚAnd if itâs not the first welcome?â
âThen you welcome him warmly in bed, naked.â
ââŚâŚâ
I never imagined warm and naked would end up in the same sentence so casually.
But something else mattered more.
âIs that a house rule?â
âYes. A beautiful tradition passed down through generations.â
My expression hardened into something decidedly not beautiful.
âSo you want me to lie on the bed with my legs spread?â
âYou may also welcome him face-down, lifting only your hips. That allows immediate insertion in his preferred positionââ
âNo! Thatâs enough!â
I shut her down immediately.
âDo I have to do that every time he comes back from battle?â
âUsually, itâs only after campaigns lasting ten days or more.â
Ten days.
I clenched my fist.
No matter what, Iâll make sure Tyroc comes home within ten days.
Just then, a servant hurried over.
âHe has arrived.â
The butler nodded and gestured for me to follow.
âLord Rue, this way.â
As I walked quickly behind her, I steeled myself. Fine. Until I get that contract, I can endure anything.
Then I turned the cornerâand saw him.
Even surrounded by people, his height made him impossible to miss. Rick was at his side, reporting nonstop, while Tyroc listened with a blank expression, scanning his surroundings.
Whatâs he looking for?
Normally I wouldâve looked around too, curiousâbut I couldnât take my eyes off him.
It was the first time Iâd seen him since we slept together.
The moment I realized that, my steps slowed.
Heat.
Hot air.
Ragged breaths.
The crushing weight pinning me down.
At the time, the waves of pleasure had swallowed everything else. But nowâdays laterâonly fragments lingered, like photos at the front of an album.
Most of all, his smile.
But now, he wasnât smiling at all.
Just that alone made him look like a different person.
That faceâslick with sweat, breathing hard, grinning widely while thrustingâhis gaze never leaving me.
Why was he smiling back then?
There were too many reasons to count. He laughed every time I opened my mouth.
âLike it?â
âIf you like it that muchâhnngâwant to try getting pinned instead, Your Grace? Iâm better than you think.â
Heâd pausedânot in anger, but to hold back laughter.
âToo small,â heâd said, smiling brightly.
I glared at him in frustration, which only made him more excited.
âHeyâtake it easy.â
âHm?â
âDonât pretend you didnât hearâah!â
âHm? Didnât hear.â
He lied shamelessly and laughed again.
He laughed even when I couldnât speak anymore, choking back sob-like moans.
But more than any of those smilesâ
The expressionless look he gave me as he stared down at me was burned deepest into my mind.