Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C129
by berryChapter 129
âGet on.â
With that command, he seated me on his lap. My strength wouldnât return to my limbs; I felt melted, as if dissolved in hot water. I draped my arms around his shoulders and leaned against him.
His large hands slid down along my waist and spread my hips. Then he aligned the opening over his still-rigid erection.
Just the sensation brushing against me made my waist tremble in small shivers. The swollen, taut head rubbed against my entrance, and somehow desire flared alive inside me again.
But this position meant taking him far too deeply. Even during those days we shut ourselves in the room, weâd only done it once.
If I did it now⊠what then? Useless thoughts and needless fears crowded in.
At that moment, a command fell by my ear, cutting through my brief hesitation.
âYou put it in yourself.â
He guided my hand to wrap around his thick shaft. The pronounced veins pulsed heavily against my palm.
The satisfaction of knowing he was aroused because of me outweighed the pleasure. In a relationship I insisted was merely an act, it was an emotion I should have guarded againstâyet I smiled without realizing.
âBeg. Ask me to eat you.â
He smiled back, but his eyes gleamed with cruelty.
âTry it. Please.â
Beepâbeepâbeepâ
A long, unfamiliar alarm tore me out of deep sleep in an instant. It was the sound used for emergenciesâlike detecting the presence of monsters. My eyes snapped open on instinct.
At the same time, I jerked my head up and reached out. By habit, I tried to grab a weapon nearby, but my hand closed around nothing but soft bedding.
Still disoriented, I tried to roll over when something caught against my legs. Someone was on top of me. Our upper bodies were apart, but below, we were pressed together, a hot column resting between my hips.
When I managed to turn my head, I met golden eyes glowing vividly in the unusually bright moonlight. His gaze was intense.
âŠTyroc?
Waking to the sensation of his heated erection was still something I couldnât get used to, but confusion outweighed embarrassment.
âMo, why did you trigger the emergency alarm?â
[Duke Koon attempted to examine the nano-robot insertion point.]
I stiffened.?
Cold prickles raced over my body. But I couldnât show it. Those golden eyes were studying me with unsettling chill, despite the arousal pressed against me.
âYouâre heavy.â
His lips curved automatically.
âMy cockâs heavyâthatâs why.â
His tone was light, but his sharp gaze didnât soften. His hand reached toward the back of my neck. I quickly turned my head aside to avoid him.
âYes, so please move your heavy cock.â
I kept a straight face and didnât watch his reaction. For reasons I didnât understand, my insolence amused him more than obedience ever did.
Even when it irritated him, he smiledâlike now, when his eyes didnât smile at all.
âThatâs an unusual scar. When did you get it?â
âItâs nothing. More importantly, could you move?â
Instead, he deliberately grasped himself and rubbed the tip against my entrance.
âOh? Want me to put it in?â
Crazy contrarian. I barely swallowed the curse rising to my tongue. He wouldnât move until he got an answer.
âWhen did you get hurt?â
âA hundred years ago.â
He laughed and pressed the head inside slightly. A different shiver swept through me.
Weâd already gone at it earlierâagain? There had been a time Iâd stubbornly thought I could match him until death, but that bravado had vanished quickly.
âI donât really remember. It was when I was little.â
I twisted my body as much as I could while feeding him the lie.
âThatâs a recent scar.â
I froze.
It should have healed⊠I rarely saw it since it was hidden by my hair, so I wasnât certain. I almost reached up to check, but seeing those golden eyes, I reconsidered. He was testing me.
âYou must be mistaken. Itâs from childhood.â
He only stared, weighing my sincerity, so I added,
âIf you donât believe me, ask my sister.â
âWhy wouldnât I believe you?â
He rose from atop me wearing a smile that looked false to anyone. Only then did I sit up and glance around to check the time.
The unusually bright moonlight revealed the distant antique clock well enough. 2:40 a.m. The dead of night.
âWhy are you awake at this hour?â
As I asked, my gaze briefly snagged on his back. His naked form crossing the room looked like a sculpture. That physique really was something.
âMy cock got heavy.â
A good body paired with an unfortunate mouth.
âIf itâs that heavy, wouldnât it be hard to walk? Maybe this is your chance to cut it off for real.â
Even without seeing his face fully, I could tell from the angle of his mouth that he was smiling. My provocation didnât faze him, which was irritatingâbut also reassuring.
If I kept pushing like this, maybe I could even coax him into signing that contract. Still better than cutting anything off.
âHow could I, when my beloved fiancĂ© screams that he loves it?â
Youâd think Iâd be used to that title by now, but it still felt alien. I steadied my expression and noticed Tyroc staring out the window. This was his room, and beyond the glass, the fog was clearly visible.
âYouâve been going into the fog again?â
ââŠYeah.â
âYou want to understand the castleâs curse that badly?â
ââŠ.â
With his back turned, he couldnât see my wavering eyes. I searched for an answer that wouldnât sting my conscience.
âIâll show you.â
What?
âGet dressed.â
Now?
The most enviable thing about Tubain was the transport portal. It was high-level magic, and fixed portals required large amounts of black magic stones, making them inaccessible to most.
But the people around me werenât âmost.â Thanks to that, we used the portal in Tyrocâs room and reached the fog-shrouded cabin in two steps.
Why was there a portal beside the cabin?
The answer came after walking a little farther with him. Not far from the cabin stood a wooden palisade encircling the castle.
Where he approached was a small door barely wide enough for one person. There was no lock, no handle.
Would it just open if pushed?
My foolish guess proved right. Tyroc pushed it open easily. Could anyone enter?
Finding the door in this fog would be nearly impossible, but security wasnât the issue.
âOnly I can open this door.â
Ahâmagic, then.
âWait here.â
He stepped inside. Curious about the curse, I peeked in, but the darkness revealed nothing.
Fortunately, he returned quickly, holding a lantern about the length of his forearm.
âStay close.â
I nodded and followed him. Though we relied on a single lantern, he walked without hesitation, clearly familiar with the path.
After about ten minutes, my surroundings sharpened. The unusually bright moonlight illuminated everything.
Only then did I realize the fog was gone. Before us rose a colossal castle, like something from a fairy tale.
Several towering spires demanded I tilt my head back to see themâthe true Koon Castle. But what stopped my steps wasnât its grandeur.
The ground beneath us had shifted from grass to dry earth and gravel. Something covered itâblack markings like an irregular net.
They rippled as if alive. At a glance, they reminded me of the shield that once imprisoned the Borhumi divine beast. The difference was scale: these were wider, endless, as if blanketing the entire castle.
Tap.
Tyroc halted and turned to me.
âAs expectedâyou can see it.â
I stared back in shock. I had many questions, but only managed one.
âYour Grace⊠you can see this too?â
I could, thanks to the insect Bishongi gave meâbut what about him? Tyroc raised the lantern.
âItâs a relic that reveals black magic.â
That little lantern? Something clicked.
âWait⊠is thatââ
âYes. The grave lantern your sister collected first.â
ââŠI see.â
While I cleared my throat awkwardly, he turned back to the castle.
âFor a long time, I couldnât approach the castle because I had no way to confirm the black magic. Baron Zarayal offered his family heirloomâa spiritâs giftâbut I didnât know how to use it. So while searching for a way to pierce black magic, I learned of this lantern.â
After a brief pause, he added evenly,
âIt was my only hope.â
His voice remained calm, but my eyes trembled hearing it. I was grateful his back was turnedâuntil he slowly faced me.
âBut even after finding it, it took a year to claim it.â
ââŠMy sister has a hobby of collecting grave lanterns.â
A man who usually smiled easily didnât even attempt a bitter one now. His gaze drifted back to the castle.
âBut it was too late.â
Too late for what? I was about to ask when he began walking forward again. And the black net on the groundâ