Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C11
by berryChapter 11
âWhat is it you wish to say?â
Her voice, though housed in such a fragile frame, carried undeniable strength. Even as she questioned me, her hand continued to move, pen gliding swiftly across the page. Lantua didnât bother to look up, but I couldnât tear my eyes away from her.
For a long moment, I simply watched her in silence. Yet she gave no sign of acknowledgment, not even a flicker of curiosity.
Eventually, I spoke first.
âItâs been a while.â
âWhatâs your business?â
Her formal tone wasnât the polite speech of a younger sibling addressing an elder. Noâit was cold, distant. A line drawn deliberately between us.
I hesitated, then glanced toward her chief secretary and said quietly, âYou canât be here for this.â
âThatâs impossible,â the secretary snapped.
Lantua supported her without hesitation. âIf itâs so shameful that you canât speak in front of my secretary, then you may leave.â
âYouâll be the one whoâs ashamed,â I replied.
She froze. Her pen fell still, and at last, she lifted her head.
For the first time, our eyes met.
I forced myself to stay calm, though my palms were damp with sweat. âItâll take just one word. Youâll understand everything once I say it.â
There was something in my toneâearnest enough that she paused, studying me with quiet scrutiny. Then, without breaking eye contact, she raised a hand.
âStep out for a moment.â
âMy ladyââ
âCount to twenty and come back in.â
Reluctantly, the secretary bowed and retreated, though not without shooting me a look sharp enough to cut steel.
Good grief. What kind of disasters had Rue caused to make even the staff despise him this much?
The moment the door clicked shut, Lantua lowered her gaze again, her voice clipped and cold. âSay it. One word.â
Her tone made it clear she wanted this over with. Fine. One word was all I needed.
I took a slow breath and said, softlyâ
âDr. Kim.â
Clatter.
The pen slipped from her hand. Her head rose sharply, eyes widening as shock and disbelief warred within those pale gray irises.
Emotionsâconfusion, horror, recognitionâflashed in a storm that consumed her expression entirely.
I smiled faintly and gave the proper introduction.
âGood to meet you. Iâm the new field agentâyou could say I arrived yesterday.â
There were no paramedics in this world, but they did have something like it. Private, of courseâmore akin to a family-run emergency corps.
Ding-ding-ding-ding!
The next thing I knew, all the bells strung across the room went wild.
Dr. Kimâs eyes rolled back, and she collapsed sideways in her chair.
âWaitâhey!â
I reached out too late. Before I could even touch her, the bellsâ signal brought half the mansion charging in.
Dozens of servants and healers swarmed around, gently laying her flat, administering tonics, and placing the strange hemispherical deviceâwhat looked like a primitive oxygen maskâover her mouth.
I stood frozen.
Iâd known she was frail, but thisâthis fragile?
Just hearing my name, sheâd gone straight into shock.
A hand grabbed my shoulder, shoving me back.
âWhat did you say to her?!â the chief secretary demanded.
I opened my mouth, then shut it again. What was I supposed to say? âOh, I told her weâre both from another dimension, and she fainted.â
Right. Thatâd go over well.
Sheâd probably drop dead next.
âAll I can say isâŠâ I muttered weakly, âI canât say.â
âCanât say?â Her voice shook with anger. âYou torment her for years, and now this?!â
She spun to the guards. âGet him out of here!â
Before I could even protest, hands seized my arms from both sides. I struggled instinctivelyâRueâs body hated being touched.
âLet go!â
But the guards were massive, easily overpowering me.
âIâll walk myselfâlet me go!â
No one listened. They dragged me toward the door like luggage. I was halfway out whenâ
ââŠStop. CoughâcoughâŠâ
The frail but commanding voice cut through the chaos.
All heads turned toward the collapsed woman.
âMy lady!â cried the secretary.
âLet him⊠cough⊠go.â
No one moved at first. Then, forcing her eyes open, Dr. Kim gasped hoarselyâ
âLet go of my brother, you bastards!â
And with that, she fainted again.
â
It took a week for Dr. Kim to recover enough to speak properly again.
She drifted in and out of consciousness during that time, but every time she woke, she asked for me.
Every. Single. Time.
And every time, sheâd grab my hand and sob uncontrollably, her frail body shaking with tears while everyone around us stared in horror.
What did you do to our lady?!
Their faces said it allâthey thought Iâd poisoned her or something.
Luckily, her healers and mages confirmed I hadnât harmed her. Once that cleared, confusion replaced suspicion.
Why would our lady cry for him?
Honestly, I wanted to ask the same thing.
I hadnât even explained anything yet, and sheâd grown so attached she couldnât relax unless I was in the same room. Every time I left, sheâd panic until someone fetched me back.
Sheâd hold my hand again, sob some more, and the cycle repeated.
It got so bad the doctors started forcibly separating us out of concern for her heart.
At that point, I figured I needed an excuseâany excuseâto explain all this.
Fortunately, I didnât have to make one up.
News from the retreat finally reached the mansion.
âWhat? You were attacked by a monster at the retreat?!â
âUnbelievableâher parents died to monsters, and now this? No wonder the lady fainted!â
I hadnât said a word, but the story spread on its own. Everyone assumed Lantuaâs collapse came from traumaâmemories of losing her family nearly repeating.
That rumor saved me.
People started viewing her tears as grief, not madness.
And me? They decided I mustâve been a comforting presence, staying by her side to calm her nerves.
Just like that, I went from âthe disgrace of the familyâ to âthe devoted brother.â
In a week, the mansionâs entire attitude toward me flipped.
The butler who once scolded me now spoke gently.
âLord Rue,â she said one morning, âthe guest you brought back from the retreat has regained consciousness.â
I had just woken up after finally getting to sleep in my own bed.
The news hit like sunlight through a window.
The âguestâ was safeâand receiving the best care possible, surrounded by elite healers.
Good. The little spirit would be thrilled; sheâd been fluttering around daily, chirping about her âflower petalâ with worry.
âAnd the lady requests your presence after breakfast. She says sheâs ready to speak with you.â
My spoon froze midair.
It was what Iâd been waiting forâbut somehow, dread outweighed relief.
âHowâs her condition?â
âSame as usual.â
âHer usual?â I repeated dryly. âYou mean the same âusualâ where she fainted when I spoke?â
âExcuse me?â
The butlerâs kindly expression hardened instantly. Her eyes sharpened, like a wolf scenting blood.
I raised my hands placatingly. âNothing. Just asking.â
Still, anxiety gnawed at me. Sheâd fainted just from hearing her name. If I told her why I was actually here⊠would her heart just stop?
âDonât worry,â came her calm voice hours later, seated once more at her desk, oxygen tube now looped around her neck. âJust say it. I wonât die on you.â
Right. If you say so.
The desk was surrounded by bottlesâmedicine, tonics, stimulantsâall within easy reach.
I swallowed hard.
âThen you know why I came to you,â she said. âThat means the scroll I sent through the Eye of Hell reached your world after all, didnât it?â
âYes. Not completely, though. Most of the data was damaged.â
âHmm.â Relief softened her eyes. âI didnât expect it to arrive intact anyway. But to know it worked at all⊠thatâs a miracle.â
âHow did you even survive, though? Back when you crossed, Dr. Kim, they hadnât figured out how to transmit nanorobotics through dimensional barriers. I heard you attempted a direct implantation experimentâit shouldnât have been possible.â
Thatâs what the records said, at least. No antenna, no tether, no stabilizer. She shouldnât have lived.
âMiracle,â she said simply.
Her gaze drifted upward, lost somewhere far beyond the ceilingâas if peering through time itself.