Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C15
by berryChapter 15
Only one had survived.
I thought she might be disappointedâbut she wasnât.
âSo that means countless others died.â
ââŠâŠâ
Her fingers instinctively reached for a vial of medicine, but instead of drinking it, she simply held it tightly, knuckles white. I kept my eyes on her trembling hand and continued.
âIn the future, Duke Koon strengthens the Eye of Hell after ascending the throne. He binds it permanently to the rift of monstersâto keep it open forever.â
âThat bastardâ!â
Dr. Kim shot up from her seat in fury. I quickly extended a hand to steady her.
âIt wasnât his will,â I said quietly. âThey say it was the Dukeâs wife who desperately wanted it.â
âThat arrogant brat doesnât even have a wife.â
âYes. He willâsix months from now.â
âHa! And who in their right mind would marry that bastard?â
âThe one who found the Sword of Serenity, lifted the Koon familyâs curse⊠and became their so-called savior.â
Confusion clouded Dr. Kimâs eyes. Clearly, she couldnât imagine anyone capable of performing such miracles for that cursed lineage.
âWho is it? And why would anyone want to keep the Eye of Hell open?â
âFor the peace of Tuvine. They said⊠even if our world must be sacrificed, itâs a price worth paying.â
Her voice trembled. âThey⊠know about our world?â
âOh, they know,â I replied, my tone heavy. âTheyâre another agentâone who succeeded thanks to the coordinates you provided.â
A long silence followed. Her expression didnât move, but her eyes churned like a violent storm. I met that storm head-on.
âI came here to kill the bastard who betrayed us.â
âYour Grace. The investigation is complete, but the mages still havenât found any explanation for why the monster suddenly teleported.â
At the aideâs report, Duke Koon continued cleaning his sword, not even glancing up.
âAnd the spirit handlers?â
âWeâve been trying to locate any available, but as you know, theyâre nearly extinct across the continent. Those that remain live in seclusion within natureâitâs difficult to track them down.â
Without lifting his gaze, the Duke asked,
âAnd Baron Owick?â
âWe attempted contact,â the aide said immediately, prepared for the question. âBut as you know, the Baron rarely leaves his estate. Lately, his spouse has completely cut off all external communication. The official reason is that the Baronâs health has deteriorated⊠but we suspect theyâre trying to secure sole control over the trade of their rare medicinal herbs.â
He hesitated before adding, âHowever, thereâs been⊠a strange rumor.â
âWhat rumor?â
âThat Baron Owick has gone mad⊠and drinks human blood.â
The aide coughed lightly, gauging his masterâs reaction.
âYouâve heard, havenât you? The Owick estate is so decrepit and gloomy that people say itâs haunted. Theyâre rich, yet they refuse to renovate. Some say madness runs in the family.â
The Duke simply gave him a look that said keep talking.
âApparently, thereâs even proof this time. Witnesses claim they saw Baron Owick at dawn, standing in the fields with blood around his mouth.â
âPerfect.â
ââŠPardon?â
âFind him.â
âTheâ the blood-drinking Baron, Your Grace?â
For the first time, Duke Koon looked up. The aide swallowed hard and quickly nodded.
âYes, Iâll find him immediately.â
âAnd?â
The word lingered, sharp as the edge of his blade. The aide, already anticipating it, rushed to add,
âWeâre also searching for an esper capable of seeing or communicating with spirits. Such abilities are rarer than spirit handlers themselves, butââ
The Dukeâs lips curved slightly. Then, with a swift motion, he swung his sword through the air.
Whooshâ
The wind howled, carrying his mocking tone.
âRare, is he? Like Adeye Rue?â
âAdeye Rue? That man isâah.â
The aide suddenly remembered.
Adeyeâthe loathed creditor, the Koon familyâs mortal enemy. The one who had allied with other Divine Beast houses to torment them for years. To the Koons, his very name was venom.
âRumor had it that Adeye Rue once possessed a trace of clairvoyance,â the aide said hesitantly, âbut it was never proven. He denied it himself, and so did everyone around him. Lately, that pleasure-seeking scoundrel hasnât even left his mansion. Apparently, heâs been in seclusionâŠâ
The Dukeâs sword froze mid-swing.
âAdeye Rue is alive?â
The sharpness in his tone made the aide blink rapidly.
âYes, Your Grace. I heard he returned to his estate recently⊠in rags.â
The Dukeâs mouth twisted into a slow, deliberate smile. The aide had seen that smile many times over the yearsâhe knew what it meant, and yet it still made his spine lock.
Those who only saw the Dukeâs eyes compared them to a blazing sun. Those who saw his smile, though, described it as warm daylight. And like trees fated to follow the light, everyone found themselves drawn to it.
Everyone except the aideâwho knew that when the Duke smiled, it meant danger.
âSo that bastardâs still breathing?â
Thunk.
He drove his sword into the floor and kept smiling. The aide instinctively took a step back.
Duke Koon was known for his bright, easy laughter. What people didnât know was that he laughed when he was angry, tooâwhen irritation or bloodlust boiled over.
He ran his fingers along the blade and murmured, almost wistfully,
âI shouldâve torn him apart limb by limb.â
A bird sang sweetly somewhere outside. The breeze was mild, the sunlight warm. The chair beneath me was soft enough to swallow my body whole. I couldâve fallen asleep right there.
But peace was a luxury I couldnât afford. Not when I had just escaped hell itself.
If I grew too comfortable, too used to this place, Iâd start asking the wrong questionsâlike whether it was right to endanger such a beautiful world just to save my own.
âSo youâre telling me we canât close the Eye of Hell because Tuvine would be endangered? Even if it means our world dies?â
âThey said it was the right choiceâfor the greater good.â
Dr. Kimâs voice still echoed in my head from when I told her what the scroll said about the betrayer.
âIâm not moral enough to weigh right and wrong when my family and friends are dying. My goal is simple. No matter the cost to Tuvine, saving our world comes first.â
Even after ten years in this world, she hadnât lost that conviction.
âIf they hadnât opened that damn portal, Tuvine wouldâve paid its own price. Even if theyâre swallowed by monsters again, they should find their own solution.â
âLord Rue, is the tea not to your liking?â
The question snapped me out of thought. A young maid had entered, and I nearly stood up and bowed out of habitâalmost. My hips twitched upward before Mo intervened.
[That kind of courtesy is not permitted.]
I froze, muttering internally, You donât have to nag.
[Recalling Dr. Kimâs warning may be wise.]
Ah yes, that warning. After I told her about the betrayer, Dr. Kim had looked me dead in the eye.
âThe betrayer doesnât know about us. You have to stay hidden. If rumors spread that Rue suddenly changed, itâll be bad. Be careful how you act.â
Easier said than done. Pretending to be Rue was exhausting.
Mo projected a set of suggested lines into my vision:
[1. Canât you tell just by looking? How am I supposed to enjoy tea without any handsome men around?
2. Hmph, what are you staring at? (Assert dominance by running your hand between your thighs like a challenge.)]
For the love of godâagain with the thighs. Was Rue a pervert and a lunatic? And why did he treat everyone as competition?!
[Adeye Rue considered everyone a rivalâexcept children and the elderly.]
âŠThis man was utterly obsessed. I exhaled, turning away. I couldnât bring myself to do either option, but Moâs warning came swiftly.
[The maidâs expression now shows 80% suspicion and alertness.]
Damn it.
âCanât you tell? What, are your eyes broken? Go to your room, grab a hot towel, press it over your eyes, and take a nap while youâre at it! Understand?â
âUh⊠you want me to rest?â
[Her suspicion has increased.]
What was wrong with this woman? What did she want me to do?!
[Perhaps Option Two involving yourâ]
Shut up.
I cut Mo off and rubbed my temples.
âIâve had headaches since that monster attack. Donât mind meâjust get out.â