Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C33
by berryChapter 33
For a moment, I froze, forgetting to struggle. What startled me wasnât myselfâbut him. He, too, had paused, if only for two or three seconds.
In that brief instant, his heavy, slow breath reverberated through me, as if echoing from deep inside my chest.
Time itself seemed to slow, every heartbeat etched into my mind with unbearable clarity. That strange, shivering thrill wrapped around my heart again, like cold lightning under my skin.
Snap out of it.
The shout of reason brought me back. I pushed him away with all the strength I hadâbut almost at the same moment, he moved again.
Damn it. His cursed lips pressed down like they were devouring me, sucking hard enough to steal the air from my lungs. His heat, his breath, the friction of his tongue inside my mouthâit was so intense it felt almost⊠sensual.
The shame of my bodyâs reaction only made my anger flare hotter.
Goddamn it, stop shoving your tongue in there.
I tried to bite it, but he pulled back like a ghostâthen immediately came right back.
And this time, he did something even worse than forcing his tongue in. He bit my lower lip. Hard.
âAh!â
I yelped, stumbling backward, dazed. He finally let me goâbut I didnât even have time to breathe before I licked at the sting.
The taste of blood spread across my tongue.
That bastard bit me?!
I snapped my head up, glaring daggers at him. His gaze lingered on my bleeding lips, then lifted slowly.
âTastes good. Next time, maybe Iâll take a bite of the flesh itself.â
âDoes Your Grace really have such a craving for pig feed?â
I ground the words out between clenched teeth, dripping with sarcasm. He only smiled wider. That smug, curling smileâinfuriating.
And then, before I could say anything else, the world around me blurred like a mirage.
âWhat theâ?â
In an instant, the scenery shifted.
When my eyes adjusted, I realized I was standing behind the summer villa.
Ah. Iâd escaped the maze garden.
Of courseâthe only way out was a kiss. Damn it. Heâd used me as a key.
But Tyroc was nowhere to be seen. So the exit mustâve dropped us in random spots.
Finally, out of that den of degeneracy. But there wasnât an ounce of gratitude in me. The bastard had kissed me purely to screw me overâand worse, I could still feel the press of something hard against my stomach from beforeâŠ
Wait.
I froze mid-step, my mind catching up.
âŠNo way. Was that bastard aroused?
No. Couldnât be. He called me pig feedâhe wouldnât get hard over that.
Maybe it was a weapon. Yeah, a sword or something. Because whatever it was⊠that size was not human.
—
âTyroc again?â
Dr. Lantuaâs brows shot up like mountain peaks, and she added, half to herself, âSo itâs fate after all.â
âYes, fate. A bad one.â
I slumped back on the sofa. Iâd only been in that damn garden for an hour, but it felt like Iâd aged ten years.
âWhat was he even doing there?â
âHow should I know? He said he wanted to repay a debt, and then started rubbing his damnâuhââ
âWhat?! Rubbing what?â
âHis thighs, okay? Thighs!â
I slapped my leg twice for emphasis, watching her expression carefully.
âAre your ears malfunctioning, Doctor?â
âSo he went there just to see you?â
âAs if. He probably saw me by chanceâand decided to make my life hell while he was at it. That bastard.â
The more I thought about it, the more furious I got. I clenched my fist just as her voice cut in sharply.
âHeâs the one whoâll save our world.â
âTch.â
I shut my eyes, biting back my irritation, but she muttered to herself.
âStill, why was he there in the first place?â
âWho knows. There were so many people it looked like a carnival. Everyone came to that nobleâs estate like it was a theme park, and all they did wasââ
The image of the maze garden flashed through my mind, making my face twist.
âWhat the hell is wrong with these people? Are they all possessed by lust demons? Or just bored aristocrats drowning in decadence?â
âNot just nobles. Commoners too. Everyoneâs the same.â
â…Thatâs insane.â
âSo get used to it. Wordâs already spreading that you did something weird there.â
âI didnât do anything!â
I protested, but her skeptical stare said otherwise.
âOh really? Because I heard you were laughing and running around with men inside the villa. And then you went around the maze interrupting other peopleâs⊠intimate activities.â
âLaughing?! I was fighting for my life! Running away from perverts! And in the mazeââ
I stopped, too exasperated to breathe.
âI mean, seriously! They were all butt-naked, rolling around in broad daylight! How could I not say something?! Thatâs not human behavior!â
âItâs their culture.â
âCulture? Youâre telling me lying naked on grass is culture?â
âYes.â
âWhat about parasites?!â
âThe ticks here are harmless.â
…Lucky bastards. I had nothing left to sayâbut I still felt wronged.
âEven soââ
âWhat? You wanna catch the traitorâs attention by acting like a moral officer? Youâre not here to judge anyone.â
I clamped my mouth shut, looking away. Her eyebrow twitched.
âWait. Donât tell meâyou actually were a moral officer?â
â…I used to enforce conduct rules in the shelter.â
âAhhh. That explains why youâre such a stiff old man.â
âI just had a strict guardian growing up. Andâthatâs not the point! Are the rumors really that bad?â
âOh, theyâre bad. But donât worry, you wonât stand out. The story is that you were jealous and sabotaged everyone elseâs fun because you couldnât enjoy yourself.â
I wanted to die. But before I could curse, she hit me with another question that froze my blood.
âBy the way⊠how did you get out of the maze?â
â!â
âThe only way out is through an indecent, filthy kiss with someone else, right?â
My eyes darted away. Mistake. Turning my head exposed the cut on my lip.
âWhat theâwhyâs your lip like that? Donât tell me youââ
I flinched, biting down on my lip and shaking my head fast.
âNo! Itâs not what you think! I justââ
âYou bit your own lip and drank your blood to trigger the spell?â
âWhâno, Iââ
âThat would work, technically. But no oneâs ever actually done it before.â
Wait. That worked?! Why the hell didnât Solongo say that earlier?!
While I silently cursed her, Lantua sighed in admiration.
âYouâre really something. Your family mustâve been seriously conservative.â
âWell, yeah, kind ofâŠâ
âBut hold on. Then how did Tyroc get out?â
I stopped breathing. I hadnât done anything wrong, but guilt still sealed my lips. Luckily, Lantua came to her own conclusion. She was a genius, after all.
âAh, right. Heâs from Tuvain too. Theyâre all shameless. Probably just grabbed someone and kissed them. For him, thatâs like saying hello.â
âRight. That makes sense.â
âYeah, it doesâwait, why do you look happy?â
âNo reason. Just⊠relieved to know that bastardâs a degenerate too.â
Lantua blinked, confused, but before she could ask, I snapped, voice sharp.
âCan I get a glass of dongchimi, please?!â
—
Whoosh! â Crack!
A blinding streak of light shot from the tip of a massive sword, piercing straight through a monster and slicing the boulder behind it clean in half.
The creature fell in one blow. The soldiers whoâd been fighting desperately nearby stared in awe and admiration.
As expected of the Duke!
Koon Tyrocâs overwhelming presence left them breathless every time. That a human could wield such power was astoundingâand unlike ordinary aura, his energy shone like lightning itself.
Because of that, many still believed he was blessed by a divine beast.
But not everyone watching felt pride. Those who knew the price of his strengthâthose who had seen him endure hell to reach the topâcouldnât simply cheer.
Among them were Enya and Haas, who had served by his side for years.
âThatâs strange. The Duke seems off today. His movements are⊠harsher than usual.â
From his position at a distance, Haas provided ranged support, allowing him to observe the fight better than anyone.
âI donât think so,â said Enya firmly, who had fought right beside Tyroc.
âI think itâs the opposite.â