Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C45
by berryChapter 45
âAnd did you see the letter he sent back rejecting the gift I sent? My, myâwho wouldâve thought that man could write so politely and properly?â
âMy thoughts exactly. Iâve never seen that arrogant handwriting look so⊠civilized before. And the contents! You can practically feel his sincerity toward Lord Rue bleeding through every word.â
Sincerity?
âOh yes, it was touching. When has Tyroc ever cared this much about anyone from the Adeye family before?â
âWhat on earth did he even write?â
I asked suspiciously, and Solongo, looking as though sheâd been waiting for that question, handed me the letter.
âYour gift is unnecessary.
I pray for the swift recovery of Adeye Rue.
â Koon Tyrocâ
That was it. Just two lines.
Thinking there might be something more hidden somewhere, I turned the paper over front and backâbut no, that was all.
âHow is this supposed to beâŠ?â
âIsnât it amazing? Not a single insult, not even the faintest trace of sarcasm. Heâs actually being polite!â
Dr. Kim chimed in enthusiastically, and Solongo nodded in agreement.
âAnd unlike his usual habit of stamping only his seal, he even wrote his full name this time. Itâs formal, courteousâproperly done!â
This was gaslighting. Serious, full-scale delusion. I gave the two of them a pitying look, but I had more important things to worry about.
âNot to mention, he said he prays for Lord Rueâs recovery. Thatâs basically a confession, isnât it?â
âIndeed. A love letter, perhaps?â
âOh for heavenâs sake, will you two stop with that nonsense!â
I couldnât stand it anymore. I shouted and tore the fake âlove letterâ to shreds.
âTyroc would sooner kill me than develop any other kind of feeling, all right?!â
âYou canât know that for sure.â
âOh, I can. The probability of your so-called Plan X ever happening is zero, so give it up.â
Dr. Kim pressed her lips together, glaring at me with open disappointment.
What, did she actually expect that stupid plan to work? Unbelievable. I sighed and tried to steer the topic back to something that mattered.
âAnywayâdid you look into Biwineâs party yet?â
Flinch. For some reason, both of them stiffened simultaneously. Then, as if on cue, they rose to their feet.
âWell then, since youâre supposed to be resting, youâd better keep pretending to be sick.â
âYes, weâve disturbed Lord Rue long enough. Weâll take our leave.â
âWaitâ! The hunting competition where Tyroc and that traitor will meet is less than a month away! If you keep dodging me, the whole social season will be overâhey! Are you even listening?!â
Lately, Borhumi Zabâs temper had been growing worse by the day.
His efforts to locate the entrance to the Forest of Crimson Tides had stalled entirely. And now, of all things, the entrance had openedâsuddenly, inside the Central Templeâs pond.
The problem was, no one knew how to open it again, and gaining access to that pond was far from easy.
âThe Temple has refused our proposal. They claim internal opposition due to the pondâs sacred importance, but I suspect theyâre simply afraidâof someone elseâs influence.â
The subordinate paused, watching Zab carefully. He knew his masterâs temper well. Though the public adored Zab as a man of justice, that image was nothing more than an illusion crafted for popularity.
In truth, Zab was domineering, elitist, and intolerant of failure.
Having been born into power, he had never learned to accept defeat. He took out his frustrations by tormenting those beneath him.
But today, the subordinate didnât need to fear being the target of that wrath. There was already someone else fulfilling that role.
âUghâŠâ
A low groan came from the corner of the room, where a man lay crumpled on the floor, beaten and bleeding.
Zab didnât even glance at himâhe simply gestured lazily with his hand.
Immediately, Ottmar, Zabâs right-hand man, kicked the fallen man hard in the stomach. Another cry echoed through the room, but Zab spoke over it calmly, as though nothing had happened.
âWhose influence are they afraid of?â
âSarne and Montaine.â
At the mention of two divine houses, Zabâs brow twitched.
Those two rivals had always watched him closelyâspying, scheming, desperate to expose even the smallest weakness.
He had wanted to find the Blade of Stillness before they learned of his interest in the Forest of Crimson Tides.
But progress had been slowâtoo slow. Now, they had caught the scent, swarming like vultures. Disgusting pests.
And yet, there was someone else who angered him more.
âWhat about Tyroc?â
âThe House of Koon has shown no particular interest in the matter.â
âWhy? Did that bastard find something out? I heard Tyroc jumped into the pond to save Adeye Rue?â
The first time Zab heard that, he had laughed.
But once he realized the significance of that pond, that laugh turned into fury.
Why was Tyroc always the one blessed with luck?
It had always been that way. No matter how his family fell or how the divine beast abandoned them, fortune still followed him. People adored him, rallied to him, believed in him.
âThe Koons havenât made any official statements regarding the incident.â
âThat sly fox⊠as if heâd really stay out of it. And Adeye Rue? Whatâs his situation?â
âHe only regained consciousness recently, so itâs difficult to confirm. However, the Adeye family head plans to name the pond after their trading house. A perfect excuse to draw attention and advertise their brand.â
âHah. Typical Lantua. Her brother nearly dies, and sheâs still thinking about profit.â
Either way, the growing number of eyes on that pond was becoming a problem.
âDisgusting vermin,â Zab hissed, turning his glare toward the man still groaning on the floor.
âTorrida.â
At the sound of his name, the man on the ground shuddered violently.
His pitiful state only stoked Zabâs rage further.
âIf youâd found the entrance to the Forest of Crimson Tides back when you were stationed at the Awik estate, this wouldnât have happened. But noâyou lost the Awiks, found nothing in their empty house, and failed to capture Adeye Rue. Now look what youâve done.â
âM-My apologies! But I couldnât get near Adeye Rueâhe never leaves his mansion, so I havenât had a chance to question him about Silian.â
âStop sniveling.â
Zab ground his teeth, his expression twisting with contempt. That name again. Adeye Rue.
He was sick of hearing it.
âIâll make sure you meet him myself.â
Three straight days of sleep had restored my energy, sureâbut there was a downside.
Iâd lost muscle mass. How unfair that just a few days of rest could erase all that progress.
Worse, since I was supposed to be âbedridden,â I couldnât even go outside to train. Thankfully, my room was large enough to double as a private gym, and there were plenty of exercises I could do indoors.
Unfortunately, Solongo wouldnât have it.
âThere are too many eyes in this mansion. No matter how tight the security, spies always slip through. You must stay in bed and keep pretending to be ill.â
And so, after several more days of lying still, I realized something horrifying: I was going to lose my mind like this.
Dr. Kim didnât help either.
âIf Grand Duke Tyroc had the courtesy to send a heartfelt letter, the least you can do is respond quickly and graciously. What are you waiting for?â
She sent people every hour to remind meânagging non-stop.
I gave up and dashed off a âlongâ three-line letter in return:
âTo the honorable Grand Duke Tyroc,
Thank you for your kind regards.
â Adeye Rueâ
That was plenty polite, I thought. Done and dusted. I promptly forgot about itâuntil two days later, when a maid entered looking pale.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âThis letter⊠it was delivered through a magic portal.â
For a second, I didnât grasp the gravity of that statement. Then Mo spoke up, clearly exasperated.
[Spatial transfer magic is an advanced spell usable only by top-class magicians. Moreover, the Adeye mansion is protected by layered defensive enchantments that make unauthorized teleportation nearly impossible.
For someone to bypass that means their mage is stronger than any serving the Adeye family. Only a handful of people in all of Tuvine could manage that.]
So⊠someone had just used one of the continentâs most powerful mages just to deliver me a letter?
Who the hellâ?
I quickly reached for the envelopeâbut paused before breaking the seal.
The wax emblem looked oddly familiar.
Where had I seen this before?
I was just about to open it when the door burst open and Solongo rushed in.
âI heard the letter came through a teleportation portal! Who sent it?â
âNo idea. I just received it myself.â
The moment I lifted the envelope, Solongoâs eyes sharpened.
âThatâs the seal of Grand Duke Tyroc, isnât it?â
Him? Why?
âOh, so the Grand Duke mustâve returned from his monster hunt. But what could be so urgent that heâd use teleportation to send a letterâŠâ
Her expression darkened immediately.
And mine did too, as I stared at the envelope.
Damn itâcould it be a declaration of war?
A formal notice that he was coming to crush the Adeye family?
Heart pounding, I tore the envelope open and unfolded the letter.
In the center of the pristine white paper, there was only one word written.