Started translating this for fun and now Iām emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying āone moreā like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C47
by berryChapter 47
Once I finally ended my āsickbed actā and was free to move around the mansion again, there was one place I went straight to.
āBaron Ewik, has there been any progress in your research?ā
I had merely asked a questionāyet Silian immediately dropped to her knees. Startled, I hurried to grab her by the arms and pull her up, but she stammered through trembling lips,
āI-Iām sorry⦠I-Iām so lacking⦠so incompetentā¦āĀ
āI wasnāt blaming you; I was just asking. Iām curious whether cultivating spicy edible crops is possible.ā
āY-Yes⦠itās possible⦠We already have pepperā¦ā
āNot pepper,ā I interrupted, shaking my head firmly. āThatās not spicy. Well, yes, itās technically spicy, but not the kind of heat I mean. Thatās just black dust you sprinkle on top of food.ā
I waved my hand, dismissing the so-called pepper. Silian drooped her head as though the lack of heat in pepper was somehow her fault.
After reassuring her at least a hundred times that she wasnāt to blame, I was finally able to return to my original question.
āSo, sigh⦠Lantua mentioned you might have found a promising crop?ā
āY-Yes⦠but itās p-poisonousā¦ā
āPoisonās fineāas long as it doesnāt kill you after eating it.ā
āIf you eat too much, it could kill youā¦ā
āEven if itās boiled? Arenāt the young sprouts less toxic? Or maybe we can soak it in salt?ā
āT-That wonāt work either, I-Iām afraidā¦ā
āA little poison isnāt a bad thing, honestlyāwait, are you crying?ā
Why was she suddenly crying? Flustered, I leaned closer, and Silian shook her head with a small sniffle.
āE-Everyone else is afraid of me, but the A-Adeyes⦠y-you like poisonsā¦ā
We didnāt like poison. We were just desperate for chili peppers.
After over a month in this world, my tolerance was reaching its limit. I missed kimchi.
No, Iād take anything with chili in itāeven tacos would do.
The fact that Dr. Kim had survived ten years here was starting to feel like a miracle.
I hurried to speak again, trying to distract myself from my cravings.
āAnyway, as long as itās not lethal, low toxicity is fineāplease continue the experiments as fast as possible.ā
āM-My apologiesā¦ā
Silian shrank back fearfully.
āNo, no, Iām not rushing you.ā
āL-Lady Lantua also wants progress quickly, but I-Iām not skilled enough⦠Iām sorryā¦ā
Ah yes. The universal Korean trait: rush everything.
After silently cursing Dr. Kimās influence, I spent the next ten minutes trying to comfort her. Only after my energy was completely drained did she finally start to relax a little.
āA-All the Adeye people are so kind,ā she said softly.
It was a fragile sort of affection born from mutual chili-deprivation. The guilt hit me instantly.
āNonsense. Youāve been working so hard since you arrived.ā
āI-Itās work I enjoy⦠and the spirit seems happy, too.ā
Come to think of it, I hadnāt seen the poisonous spirit today.
āWhereās the spirit?ā
She flinched, stepping back again. Huh?
I didnāt even raise my voice, but she looked like Iād accused her of a crime.
āH-How did you know the spirit isnāt here right now?ā
āā¦I didnāt.ā
I lied without hesitation. Luckily, she let out a sigh of relief.
āI-I thought you could see him.ā
āIs that⦠a problem?ā
Flinch! Crackle!
It was the biggest reaction Iād ever gotten out of her.
āC-Can you see him?!ā
āNo, so please stop backing away.ā
Still keeping her distance, she spoke cautiously,
āM-My spirit, Lord Uturainu, doesnāt like humans. Especially talking to them. He hates itā¦ā
āUturainu⦠wait, you mean Poison-biteāahem, thatās your spirit?ā
She nodded, and I immediately wanted to back away myself.
Did she just say he hates talking to humans? That chatterbox?
āAre you sure? Could it be that you just canāt hear him, so you misunderstood?ā
She tilted her head, then shook it.
āAccording to r-records, every spirit master who faced Lord Uturainu covered their ears in pain. T-That enraged him, so he killed some of themā¦ā
āKilled them? For covering their ears?!ā
I was horrified. Silian whispered as if revealing a secret.
āT-Thatās why all spirit masters are terrified of him. W-Weāre told never to speak to him.ā
I had a thousand things to say but swallowed them down.
Of course you shouldnāt talk to him. No human could endure that nightmarish singing voice for even five seconds!
I only ever saw his words converted into text by Moābut even that pattern of symbols was horrifying enough.
āHow did your family manage to keep him as a contracted spirit, then?ā
āWe c-canāt hear his voice, but we can see faint l-light and movements. From that, we g-guess his mood and try to please him.ā
Her voice got smaller and smaller, as though she were ashamed of her limited ability compared to other spirit masters.
But honestly, that delicate empathy was probably what kept her family alive.
To survive alongside the Poison Spiritāthat was no small feat.
In Tuvine, most spirit masters had gone extinct. Only the Ewik family, it seemed, had survivedāthanks to their gentleness and humility.
āSo your ancestors drank poison to match his mood?ā
āT-That was just⦠personal taste.ā
My brief admiration for the Ewik family crumbled instantly. They were simply insane.
āWell, it must be hard to gauge a spiritās mood from just faint light patterns.ā
She blushed but continued speaking.
āB-Before disappearing, h-he seemed excited. Like⦠someone about to visit their hometown.ā
Hometown?
That word immediately reminded me of the Diamond. That noisy spirit had also once cried about wanting to go home.
I wondered if it ever made it back safely. Then another memory struck meāsomething it had screamed right before I lost consciousness.
āIāll tell Hyuuāsomethingāabout you!ā
It wasnāt just that one. Other spirits had mentioned telling someone about me too.
āIs there a king of spirits? Someone who rules over them?ā
āNo.ā
Silian shook her head firmly. Really? Spirits had ranks, didnāt they?
āT-They differ in strength, but none rules the others. Theyāre all f-free.ā
āStill, there must be one thatās strongest, right? Stronger than Uturainu?ā
āN-No. Heās the strongest.ā
āā¦Who is?ā
āL-Lord Uturainu.ā
āā¦ā
āThe only being mightier than him is⦠the D-Divine Beast.ā
I stopped hearing anything after that. My mind went completely blank as I recalled all the stupid things Iād said to that tiny finger-sized creature.
That thing was the strongest spirit?
Silian went on, unaware of my internal meltdown.
āH-He used to stay in our estate to protect me, so he rarely returned home. But now that Iām safe here, he went back to his homeland. Apparently, thereās a festivalāan old friend of his has returned. He seemed excited. Before leaving, he went to find a gift.ā
You figured all that out just from his light flickering?!
I wanted to ask, but I knew sheād just apologize for it somehow, so I dropped the subject.
āDonāt you ever want to go home, Baron?ā
She shook her head immediately, her expression darkening. Ah, she must have bad memories of her house. I rushed to reassure her.
āYouāll get to go home soon.ā
āGasp! A-Are you t-throwing me out?!ā
āNo! Absolutely not!ā I waved my hands frantically. āI meant you must miss home, thatās all!ā
āI-I donāt want to go home⦠itās scary thereā¦ā
At first, I thought she meant her spouse. But after some coaxing, it turned out she was afraid of the Ewik manor itself.
It was ancient, collapsing, and impossible to repairābecause of an old blessing that turned into a curse. They believed that touching the structure would break the protective barrier and bring disaster.
Surely they didnāt mean she couldnāt fix holes in the walls? Apparently, yes. The Ewiks had been cautious cowards for generations, too afraid to even patch a crack.
āBut if it leaks when it rains, shouldnāt you fix it?ā
āN-No! If you try, the barrier activates and something terrible happens! The only safe place is the secret chamberābut m-my mother never found it⦠n-neither did my grandfather⦠or my great-grandmotherā¦ā
That wasnāt a secret chamber. That was a trap.
I couldnāt insult her ancestors aloud, so I simply listened. Once she started, she couldnāt stopāpouring out stories and finally tearing up.
āThe w-worst part is⦠itās freezing in winterā¦ā
She covered her face with her hands. I patted her arm gently and nodded. A drafty house was indeed miserable.
āThis winter, stay warm here in the Adeye estate. Forget everything else and focus on your research.ā
While I was soothing herāhalf comfort, half pressureāa maid appeared at the greenhouse entrance.
āLord Rue, a letter has arrived for you.ā
A letter? My attention snapped to her instantly.
āWas it delivered by teleportation?ā
āNo, by courier.ā
Oh. So not Tyroc then.
Relieved, I still kept my guard up all the way back to my room.
Just a few days ago, Tyroc had replied to my letter in under thirty minutesāthirty!
The speed was terrifying. Was this letter correspondence or instant messaging?
And when I opened it, Iād found this:
āWith your mouth, huh? Then letās see if it opens wide enough.ā
ā¦What kind of middle-aged man writes that sort of sexual harassment nonsense in a letter?!