Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C48
by berryChapter 48
As I cursed with a mouth that apparently âopened well,â fury burning through me, I suddenly remembered what I had writtenâand realized, belatedly, that emphasizing my mouth might have led to a very wrong impression.
Gods, no. Sure, maybe my phrasing was a little questionable, but stillâhad he lost his mind completely? Was his brain nothing but filth now?
Of course, instead of admitting any fault on my part, I decided this was all Tyrocâs doing and set about composing a new replyâthis time, carefully. I planned to send it through normal mail, but Solongo had other ideas. After reading it, he immediately called in the magicians again, insisting Tyroc must see it immediately.
âShall I test how well my mouth opens againâon your thigh this time, Grand Duke?â
Thank the heavens, there was no reply this time. Solongo seemed strangely disappointed, but I, at least, was relieved this ridiculous correspondence had ended. Whatever it was between us, I had no intention of letting it turn into that.
Still, when I heard the word letter again after several quiet days, my pulse jumped on instinct. But the envelope I received was far too flashyâgaudy, even. Who in their right mind wouldâ
From Ma Hoiga.
Ah. Of course.
Seeing the name printed in ridiculous gold script, I wasnât even surprised anymoreâjust mildly disappointed. Honestly, Iâd expected at least some rhinestones glued to the thing.
To my dearest Rue,
Rue, I have absolutely thrilling news!! But then I heard you nearly died again, and I thoughtâshould I tell him? What if he faints from excitement and dies for real this time? But then again, itâs such joyous news that it would be cruel not to share! Still, if your health is poor, maybe this will worsen it andâ
The first sentence alone was long enough to kill a man. Was this an assassination attempt by boredom? Solongo was rightâHoiga truly was no easy man.
Half the letter was just rambling nonsense, so I skimmed to the end for the point.
The 13th Month Club has invited you to its annual open day! Can you believe it? Youâactually invited!
I think everyoneâs deeply moved that you proved the legend of the pond true. Sure, you probably fell in by accident and got lucky, but hey, results matter!
Anyway, Rue, are you okay? You didnât fall over and break your leg from excitement, did you? You have to attend the Club, remember! Even if your neck breaks, I know youâd crawl thereâafter all, itâs the invitation youâve wanted your entire life! Even if your d**k breaks, you still have to comeâ
Utter nonsense. The gist was that a members-only club, open to non-members for only a single day each year, had invited me.
Just then, the door burst open and Solongo came running in.
âHas a letter arrived from Grand Duke Tyroc?!â
Her face was practically glowing with excitement. I squinted at her suspiciously.
âWhy are you so eager for a letter from him?â
âWell, to confirm whether the Dukeâs still favorable toward the Adeye family, of course. Certainly not because heâsâehmâstill misunderstanding something.â
âDoesnât seem likely heâd be feeling anything favorable. This oneâs from Ma Hoiga.â
I handed it over, watching her expression fall. She blinked, then raised an eyebrow.
âThe 13th Month Club invited you? Surprising. The old Rue wouldâve been over the moon, but given the recent temple incident⊠itâs odd theyâd invite you at all.â
Before I could ask what she meant, Mo helpfully supplied an explanation from Rueâs memories.
[The 13th Month Club is a gathering of elite alphasâRueâs greatest lifelong desire was to join. He spent absurd amounts of money trying to get invited, but was scammed nine times. After his family head, Lantua Adeye, threatened to cut off his allowance, Rue attempted to personally charm the members for entryâby stalking them. He succeeded in approaching several but ruined it when he publicly grabbed their crotches without warning. Consequently, he was permanently banned from the club.]
I pressed my hand over my face, drowning in shame. Even if it wasnât technically me, I wanted to dig a hole and bury myself.
Gods, what a lunatic crotch-grabber.
How had someone with such a frail body managed to live so vigorously? Rue mightâve been a disaster, but he sure didnât lack commitment.
Sighing, I muttered weakly, âCome on, they banned him just for a little crotch grabbing?â
âBecause it resulted in a ruptured penis,â Solongo replied evenly.
I stared down at my hand in horror. So⊠the man had built finger strength in all the wrong ways.
âAnd Lantua didnât stop him?â
âThe family head tried. That was after the damage was done.â
Well. No wonder the Adeye name was infamous.
âStill,â Solongo continued, âif they lifted the ban and sent an invitation now, the pond incident must have caused quite the stir. The event is tomorrowâyou should start choosing an outfit.â
âIâm not going.â
That made her pause.
âRue, declining the 13th Month Clubâs invitation will raise suspicions. People will start to whisper that youâre not the real Adeye Rue. Why the grimace?â
âBecause last time I went to a gathering like that, every pervert in the room latched onto me like iron filings to a magnet.â
âWell, you did surround yourself exclusively with perverts.â
Damn it.
âAnd before you ask,â she added dryly, âno, you may not purge them this time.â
ââŠHow did you know I was thinking that?â
âBecause you always are.â
I grumbled under my breath. âBut I almost diedââ
âYes, you almost died. Not reincarnated as the Perv Hunter.â
She crossed her arms. âEven if you dislike it, attending is wiser. The traitor may show up, and we canât risk drawing suspicion.â
The traitor. Right.
Remembering my real goal helped quell my irritation. I stared off into space for a moment before another face came to mindâsomeone whoâd been bothering me for no clear reason.
âThe High Priest Chegiâs disciple. Ariona, right? What do you know about him?â
âI looked into it,â she said. âOther than being Chegiâs protĂ©gĂ©, nothing stands out. No notable family, no fortune. He attended school on a scholarshipâone sponsored by Chegi, actually. Donât you remember? He attended the same academy as you.â
âWhat?â
I quickly asked Mo to confirm.
[There are zero memories of Ariona in Rueâs past.]
âIâve got nothing,â I said flatly.
Solongo only nodded, unsurprised. âYou only remembered men you slept with.â
âTrue. Heâs definitely not Rueâs type.â
But maybe mine.
I sighed, and Solongoâs brows furrowed. âIs something bothering you?â
âJust a feeling,â I admitted. âDonât you think itâs strange? He seemed to know the fake âTear of the Demon Kingâ would be auctioned. Itâs almost as if he knew the future.â
âThat seems unlikely,â Solongo said dismissively. âItâs more probable the information leaked from inside the temple. The clergy there are thoroughly corrupt.â
He said it so casually that I wondered if heâd personally lost money to them.
âStill, check anyway,â I said quietly. âEspeciallyâŠâ
I paused, my voice lowering.
ââŠwhether heâs ever died and come back.â
âChegiâs disciple?â
Kim Parkâs eyes gleamed sharply when Solongo reported this later.
âYou said heâs got no background? Then what connects him to the traitor weâre searching for?â
âOnly his age,â Solongo admitted. âHeâs of the right marriageable range. Otherwise, no match.â
âThen look for what doesnât match,â Kim Park said. âIf the High Priest protects him that fiercely, thereâs something to itâwhether itâs power, bloodline, or looks.â
Solongo nodded. âAlso, the gifts we sent to House Koon were returned.â
âWhat about the letter? Did Tyroc send Rue a reply?â
Kim Parkâs question came like lightning, but Solongo only shook his head.
âNo. Not this time.â
âWhat? After sending such a passionate love letter?â
âApparently heâs playing hard to get,â Solongo said, deadpan.