Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C86
by berryChapter 86
I hurried to Tyrocâs side and grabbed his shoulder, rolling him onto his back.
âShitâif you die like this, whatâs Earth supposed toâoh. Youâre alive.â
He was.
He looked every bit a corpseâpale, blood-soaked, breath shallowâbut he was still breathing. Relief washed through me⊠though the danger was far from over.
âKkirrikh!â
That soundâthe cry of a monsterâcut through the air, and every hair on my body stood on end. Iâd forgotten. There was still an enemy here.
Where the hell was it hiding?
I staggered to my feet, scanning the area. Nothing. The air was still, silent, but that soundâlouder nowâwas unmistakable.
âMo, did you locate the monster?â
[Negative. Visual confirmation unavailable. However, thereâs an abnormal disturbance beneath the lakebed, at four oâclock.]
The lakebed?
I turned, and within seconds, I understood what Mo meant.
The dry, blood-stained ground was quivering. Cracks split open, the soil heaving as if something massive was clawing its way up from below.
A chill seized me, crawling up my spine. My instincts screamed at me.
Itâs under there.
Dorugoâs last words echoed in my head.
âThe land of Borhumi shall be the cradle of a holy monsterâs descent.â
âHoly my ass.â
I swore under my breath and forced my trembling legs forward. The monster couldnât be allowed to emergeânot now.
Tyroc, my last damn shred of hope, was unconscious, and Haas was down too. If the monster came through, weâd be nothing but sacrificial offerings.
I grabbed Tyrocâs arm and dragged him with all the strength I had left.
âHaah⊠haahâŠâ My breath rasped harshly in my throat. I had to move himâanywhere, just far enough to hide. Even if it didnât matter once the monster came through, I couldnât leave him in plain sight.
By the time I hauled Tyroc to safety, I was drenched in sweat. When I turned to move Haas next, Moâs voice cut sharply in my mind.
[Warning: Severe fatigue. Continued exertion may result in full physical shutdown.]
I ignored it, gasping as I dragged Haas behind a rock. My limbs shook uncontrollably, and I nearly dropped him several times.
So much that Haas even stirred, his eyelids fluttering open.
âUrgh⊠what are youâŠâ
âIâll hide you.â
âWhaâ?â
âJust sleep. The rescue team will come. You just have to hold on until then.â
The words slipped out automatically. Iâd said them a hundred times beforeâto dying teammates, to people who never made it back.
It had always been a lie.
But maybe here⊠it wouldnât be.
And if it wasâwell, Iâd deal with it.
Once they were both hidden, I could barely stay upright. My body screamed to collapse, but I forced my legs to move.
Then the ground shook againâlouder this time.
Rrrrmmmâ
The earth split open. A jagged shape speared upward through the soilâan enormous limb, slick and dark. The monsterâs leg.
I laughed, breathless and disbelieving.
âHah. Really?â
[Motor function severely impaired. Movement not recommended.]
âNot recommended doesnât mean impossible, Mo.â
I gritted my teeth, clutching my club. There was no way Iâd stand here and just watch it crawl out.
âActivate combat mode.â
[Engaging terrain scan. Maximizing adaptive response.]
My skull burned with the overload of data, but I ignored it.
âYou think you can just crawl out, huh? Not on my watch.â
I limped toward the shaking ground, dragging my leg. The fissure wasnât wide yetâif I could destroy that leg, maybe I could buy us time.
But I never reached it.
GrrrrrkâŠ
The ground pulsed again.
[Danger! Source of the sound confirmedâdirectly beneath you!]
Before I could react, Mo seized control of my limbs, jerking me backward. The ground erupted, and a clawed leg shot up exactly where Iâd been standing.
Thanks to Mo, I wasnât impaled. But I wasnât unharmed either.
Blood spilled down my side where the edge of the blast had torn me open.
âUrghâŠâ
I staggered back, gripping the club tighter.
Haah⊠haah⊠I have to stop it. I have to stop it here.
Somewhere between exhaustion and adrenaline, I forgot where I was. It didnât feel like Tuvine anymoreâit felt like Earth. Like every battlefield Iâd ever bled on.
The team leader is the last line of defense.
The words Iâd repeated before every hopeless fight echoed in my skull.
Just as I raised the club again, someone grabbed my arm.
A womanâfifties, maybe late fifties, with sharp eyes and calm strength. Someone Iâd never seen before.
âItâs dangerous, Adeye Rue.â
I froze. âWho⊠are you?â
Where the hell had she come from? And this placeâoh, right. Tuvine. I blinked, dazed.
Then she said, softly, âBlack Bear.â
Bear?
âWhatâno! Thereâs a monster coming up! The bearâs in danger!â
I turned, scanning frantically for the animal, but my vision blurred. Shapes swam and flickered at the edges of my sight.
âB-Bear⊠we have to move itâŠâ
The woman just watched me, her expression steady, almost amused.
âYouâre worried about an animal in the middle of this?â
âOf course,â I muttered. âTheyâre precious.â
Pain lanced through me, stealing the rest of my breath. My words blurred together. Her gaze softenedâwarm, impossibly so.
âWho⊠are you really?â I managed to whisper.
âBlack Bear.â
A spirit? A guardian? My thoughts tangled. The world tilted, and before I could fall, she pressed a hand to my shoulder, lowering me gently to the ground.
âIâll handle it,â she said. âRest.â
âWhat? The monsterâno, you have to run, itâsââ
The dizziness hit hard. My vision darkened at the edges, sound warping like underwater static. I mumbled somethingâdanger, monsterâand then went still.
The last thing I saw before the darkness swallowed me was her silhouette walking toward the fissure, sword gleaming in her hand.
She looked small, but not fragile.
Never fragile.
When consciousness returned, the first thing that came to mind was absurd.
How many times have I passed out now?
At least in Tuvine, someone was always there to clean up after me.
That never happened back home. There, no matter how many times I woke, it was always alone. Whether it was the corner of a ruined shelter, a dirt pit Iâd dug to hide in, or the ashes of a collapsed buildingâno one waited.
If you were hurt, you crawled.
If you starved, you endured.
Waking up was just another punishment.
But here⊠there were no nightmares waiting when I opened my eyes.
Strange, then, that I felt no peaceâonly the hollow ache of guilt.
I shouldâve stayed and fought.
âAh! Youâre awake!â
A familiar voice jolted me back. I blinked, meeting a pair of gray eyes full of concern.
Dr. Kim.
âYou look sad,â she said quietly, âfor someone whoâs home.â
Her words hit too close, and I looked away.
âI am home,â I muttered.
It really was Rueâs room.
When had I gotten here?
I tried to sit up, but a small pale hand pressed gently against my head. Dr. Kimâs touch was so soft that my whole body went rigid. I wanted to pull awayâbut forced myself to stay still.
Thankfully, she withdrew her hand quickly, probably because I started coughing.
âCough, cough.â
My throat burned, my body feverish. Right. My sideâinjured. Probably infected. Great.
âMaster, please step back,â a healer urged anxiously from somewhere nearby. âHeâs contagious.â
But Dr. Kim didnât move.
Once I caught my breath, I managed to grumble, âIf I get sick, Iâll heal. But if you catch something, thatâs a one-way ticket to the afterlife.â
She smiled faintly. âIâm already on that train. Itâs just⊠a slow one.â
I frowned. âWell, that train went on strike. So youâre getting off.â
I sighed and asked the only thing that mattered. âWhat happened?â
âEverythingâs fine,â she said simply.
Then she pulled the blanket up to my neck and called over her shoulder, âPut him back to sleep.â
âWaitâwhat do you mean fine? Cough, coughâwhat about the monster? The one rising from the lakebed? If a breach opened, the Eye of Hell couldâwait, what are you feeding meâmmph!â
The healer forced a bitter liquid down my throat. The smell of herbs filled my nose. Before I could protest, drowsiness hit like a wave.
I tried to keep my eyes on Dr. Kim, to demand answers, but her voice was the last thing I heard.
âItâs all right,â she said softly. âIâll take care of everything.â