Started translating this for fun and now Iâm emotionally bankrupt but too invested to quit every chapter feels like getting punched by god and I keep saying âone moreâ like a liar i hope you’ll love it too
Salvation Through Delusion C89
by berryChapter 89
âI can get you into that gathering. But first, promise me one thing.â
âTell me.â
âEven if you find the traitor, donât try to kill them on the spot.â
Her voice was so grave that a small laugh slipped out of me before I could stop it.
âIn a crowded place? Of course I canât kill anyone there. Iâll just wait until theyâre alone andââ
âDo you have to kill them?â
My smile faded, and Dr. Kim watched the change with quiet curiosity.
âI knew it. My earlier guess was right. Saving our world isnât your priority â revenge is. Isnât that true?â
I shouldâve lied. Shouldâve said No.
But the words wouldnât leave my throat. So I looked aside and picked a safer path.
âSaving Earth is obviously important.â
âBut if you had to choose between revenge and saving it, youâd pick revenge. Why?â
For a moment, I hesitated. Should I just say it? Itâs not even some grand, complicated reason.
But saying it out loud was harder than I thought.
She mustâve misread my silence, because Dr. Kim sighed and spoke softly.
âIf youâre thinking, âWell, saving the world can be your job, Dr. Kim,â donât even dream of it. I canât do it without my team.â
âThatâs not what Iâ Youâve done more for Earth than anyone. If I just get rid of the traitor, thenââ
âI canât do it alone anymore.â
Her voice was still calm, even as mine wavered.
âThe traitor is probably someone very high up. If you kill them, you wonât survive either. And Iâd rather keep every ally alive than kill the traitor. Revenge can wait. My priority is saving people â including you.â
I couldnât answer. My chest felt tight, full of heat and something I couldnât name.
She waited. She looked like sheâd wait for hours if she had to.
That was harder to handle than answering.
ââŠFor now.â
I forced out the words and offered the compromise I knew she wanted.
âTomorrow, I wonât act. Iâll only observe and identify who the traitor is.â
Dr. Kim didnât look thrilled, but she nodded.
âGood. The traitor will definitely reveal themselves somehow â if theyâre obsessed with Tyroc.â
His friendâs proposal honestly surprised him.
From everything Tyroc had deduced, this person had the temperament of someone who practiced patience â someone who waited for the perfect opening.
So why bring this up now?
Tyroc asked the simplest question.
âWhy?â
His friendâs eyes trembled slightly, though his voice remained firm.
âBecause then I can use my ability for your sake.â
âYour foresight?â
His friend hesitated, then shook his head.
âI do have foresight, but itâs not very useful. I only know the future for half a year ahead â and even that has changed drastically. âŠI didnât expect the disaster to accelerate like this.â
He exhaled shakily, then continued.
âBut the other ability is different. That one⊠I earned through effort, not luck. I can read and decode every ancient document Iâve ever seen â and I can remember all of it perfectly. Thatâs how I figured out why the rift appeared.â
âBecause of the black mage.â
His friend shook his head.
âHe only reopened a rift that had already been sealed once. Iâll explain the details at the White Branch Assembly tomorrow â so come. You will be there, right?â
Tyroc murmured, âAnd?â
His friendâs eyes brightened as if waiting for that question.
âA long time ago, the ancestors were terrified the black mages would learn anything about the divine beasts. So they encrypted everything â not one unified code, but dozens of shifting ciphers. Even descendants of the divine beast houses canât read most of it.â
There was pride in his voice.
âBut I can. And because of that, I found the record about the ancient curse â the one tormenting House Koon.â
He lowered his voice.
âThis curse⊠itâs written entirely in the blood of black mages, isnât it?â
Tyroc didnât respond, but the cold flash in his golden eyes was answer enough.
âHow do you break it?â
âI need to see it in person. And if my theory is right⊠youâll only have one chance. If that attempt fails, the curse will bind you forever.â
Tyroc studied him as if measuring truth from lies, but his friend didnât flinch.
Finally, Tyroc asked:
âWhat do you want in return?â
âNothing.â
His friend smiled faintly.
âHow could I ask you for payment?â
âBut you just asked me to take you as a partner.â
âTâthat was becauseâŠâ
He bit his lip, then finally confessed.
âBecause of Montaine. Theyâve started to sense my abilities. They think Iâm⊠a salvation of sorts. And if they secure that salvation, they think it will justify taking the throne. So theyâre demandingâŠâ
He inhaled sharply.
âTheyâre demanding a partnerâs vow. Theyâll announce it tomorrow. And Tyroc⊠IâŠâ
âYouâre a salvation?â
His friend looked at him, searching.
âIf you want me to be, then yes. Iâm salvation.â
For the first time, Tyroc let out a crooked smile. His friend tensed, unable to mirror the expression. But Tyroc leaned back and continued smiling.
âTyrocâŠâ
âIt doesnât matter whether youâre salvation or not. As long as you can break Koonâs curse.â
âI will. Iâll do it. Just⊠donât let Montaine take me. If I become theirs, theyâll never let me free the Koon House.â
Tyrocâs gaze sharpened.
âYouâre not a possession. You donât get taken just because Montaine wants you.â
âBut Montaine is the only divine beast house left. We canât refuse them forever. And⊠my teacher supports them. For the sake of Tuvainâs safety, she wants us to side with the strongest house immediately.â
âYour teacher?â
âHigh Priestess Chegi. Sheâs the one who believed in me from the start. Disobeying her hurts⊠but Tyroc, I want you to be emperor. Youâre the only one who can save Tuvain. And you do want the throne, donât you?â
Tyroc didnât answer. He turned toward the window instead.
âTyroc.â
Even when called, he didnât turn back â still lost in thought, still weighing everything.
His friend knew he was being impatient, but he couldnât stop the desperation clawing up his throat.
âI found a record about this. Koonâs divine beast isnât gone. It didnât vanish. Tyroc, the divine beast can be summoned back. If we do thatââ
âI donât need a divine beast.â
The rejection was cold and immediate.
His friend froze.
âWithout a divine beastâs power, you canât be emperor. And Koonâs divine beast isnât like Borhumiâs â it hasnât vanished. It can be awakened if we justââ
âBorhumiâs divine beast vanished?â
Tyrocâs tone was icy. His friend, unaware of the implications, nodded.
âYes. It really did vanish. Thatâs why the rift opened in Borhumi.â
âItâs certain?â
âYes. But⊠I donât understand why. It wasnât supposed to disappear for another six months.â
ââŠI see.â
âIf Koonâs divine beast had vanished too, thereâd be a rift on Koonâs land as well.â
An astonishing claim â but Tyroc only stared at him quietly.
His friend tried calling his name again, but Tyroc spoke first, as if to himself.
ââŠIf youâre salvation, then I canât let Montaine have you.â
His friend inhaled sharply â but his relief didnât last long.
âAt the White Branch Assembly tomorrow, Iâll announce my decision.â
Tomorrow. Not now.
His heart dropped.
He wanted Tyroc to choose him now, wanted him to reach out and hold on.
But Tyroc simply gave him time â or distance.
His friend swallowed disappointment and nodded.
Itâs fine. He could wait a little longer.
He lowered his head, steadying his trembling breath â and because of that, he didnât notice the way Tyroc stared into the air, thinking of something far beyond this room.
His face was unreadable, but his golden eyes burned with fierce, brilliant light.